collin

collin Aug 2021

a doctors breath can mean a thousand words
i felt myself exhale and proud,
i think i sold it well
well…

the ending’s never easy as the lies we tell

collin Aug 2021

adhd

a diagnosis
fictional british soccer team
i thought it would help
but my teeth don’t feel clean
left on the lamp in the bedroom
swept everything except
what needed to be swept up

collin Aug 2021

therapy

it is like a fistful of barbed wire
to pull myself out of lava

collin Aug 2021

go, team!

glass on glass
shattered saturdays
past of gladly laying
on the couch, watching football

collin Aug 2021

moving on

sold all of my ****
at least in my head i did.
i want nothing to do with it
cause all of it feels like you

i’ll play make believe
at a pawn shop on university
i feel like the slate is clean
and now i don’t know what to do

collin Aug 2021

49 days

layers of lapping ocean
papier-mache mask elapsing
insecurities, the ****** scenes
the dark and dirt and gritty ****

collin Jul 2021

trust

treading water
after the alter
i belong to you
and nothing could ever break my bond

something altered
traumatic summers abroad
finding something better
and returning liking different songs

i believe in forever
forever my deepest flaw
in a generation of
believing in nothing at all

he was the something
and i was just the nothing you sought