Feelings - Hello Poetry

Sep 2014

Rai

The demons lurk from behind sheltered memories
Pushed down for far too long
Their strength scares the hell out of you
Rising
Pushing down
Fighting
Clawing their way into the light of the night
Scream if you will
No one will hear you
These are your own demons
The ones of your own making
Co-created within years of connectedness
Hell where are the perpetrators now
That you allowed to steal your peace of mind
And why is it the light of your soul didn't keep this from you
Scratching
like chalk on a black board
Hell have no mercy
So shall it be
Look fear in the face like a child with the world in their hands
No one will take this from you
It is yours to own so treat your demons with respect
They have learnt you well and keep stronger demons at bay
Let them scream and dance by the light of the moon
They are but healing and becoming the past
Kiss the ground on which you stand
Soak up the rays of the sun
They will settle again
Silently revisiting the files at the base of our soul.

Jul 2014

Rai

All

Chalk white on skin so translucent that scars are no longer hidden
Painted emotions
Old out warn brain washed excuses
How hard are you on the inside
Whilst out here the world crumbles before your eyes
Hold tight to the smile from a distant memory
For memories are golden
Some we retrace time and time again
Willing ourselves to relive , relearn
Fate has played an ace
You stand or fall
But even death can not **** your soul and the spirit it holds
Brother come sit with me
Journey as if a child and remember who you are and where you belong
Shake your self free from preconceived notions and tattered ideas
Freedom comes when pain subsides and you stand naked
Naked in all understanding
Ready to remember
I put my hand upon your heart and promise that I know for sure
You can never let yourself down
Learn that you are all and all is you

Jul 2014

Rai

Light

From the temple in which stands my soul
I stand silently
A bystander
Watching the universe unfold and expand
Withered moments become pleasure

As I realise that pleasure and pain are remarkably the same
Experiences are weaved and created by our own longing
I look at life differently these days
Now that I no longer fear the light within

Hold fast brothers, sisters
For we are all a spark of the divine
Dancing to our own unique melody
Release your fears

Death and life are not so far apart
And there is not so much to fear
Than what you created within your mind
and then play out within the co-creation of your lives

Linger longer on all small things which make you smile
The wind as it touches your skin in a gentle embrace
The sun as its warm kisses on your cheek make your skin blush
The smile from a stranger is a priceless miracle and is offered at no expense
Expect nothing just know that as you give you will be taken care of

The walk of life is strange
But your pearl will shine brighter
If you show it the light

Mar 2014

Rai

Cracked foundations

I knew when I woke up this morning
  That I wanted to do something special
I wanted to entice you
  And your taste buds seemed the perfect place to start

I told you dinner would be at 6
  You said
Fine love now I'm going to be late for work
  I have a late meeting but I promise not to be late
See you at six
  Love you

  A new emotion was rising in my stomach
Or was it an old one revisited
  I planned
Not a natural cook
  But I can whip up a good feed when I need to

  I exceeded myself
I knew you would love it
  I wanted to see you smiling back at me
Knowing
  Just knowing Id made this special just for you

  Kids at the cinema
Time to spend
   Together
  Little does that happen now a days

  So I'm sitting here waiting
Contemplating what's more important than this
  Forgetting you don't understand because your not inside my head
  Your not answering the phone
Are you in traffic
  I wait
Then wait some more
  I sit trying to push aside the hurt
The rejection
  I feel like a child inside
I feel vulnerable
  Im quite out of control

  I eat in silence
No smiling face looking back at me
  I just wanted to see the twinkle in your eye

  You come in hours late
  The meal stale and congealing on the plate
  I think you tried to say sorry
But I feel numb inside
  So stay silent

I think I heard you weep
  I didn't want to make you sad
But have no control and don't know how to comfort
  Whilst Im in this hurting zone

  When you fell asleep tonight I kissed your forehead
  I know your busy
  I just need you
I love the very ground that you stand on
And I can feel the cracks steadily forming

This a comeback to Helens poem 'I missed you by several hours' sometimes lack of communication lets us down, people don't know what's going on inside your head unless you tell them, most of us have not learnt how to mind read ... not quite anyway x

#breakdown #communication

Mar 2014

Rai

She wants to feel the softness of feathers (repost from 2011...time flies so quickly)

She wants to feel the softness of feathers upon the tips of her toes
Reaching out for comfort that will surely come
She caresses the moments before midnight
With suger kisses so sweet
Like honey coated forgiveness
She smiles into her lovers eyes of crystal dew
Beyond
Her sences reeling
Twirling, dancing
Like the figurine within an ancient music box
As the music surrounds the childs mind so pure
And yet
There is more captured within
The sweetness is soured only by memories
She paints with fingers in the suger
To forget
There are things so worth forgetting
She sees him sleeping and places
mirrors where his eyes once looked upon her
For now she will see herself
The way he see's
The blood from the girl child dried as he slept
There was to be no more sugered moments
No more honey for him to savour
she had seen
Her worth in his eyes
Such a shame sweet child
She should of loved herself with toes touching feathers
Reaching for a comfort
That would only be found in forgiveness of self
Far beyond the place he sleeps
With mirrored eyes of crystal dew

He awakes to find his beloved drenthed in death
He reaches for moments which never come
Her projection of him so false upon this moment
As in a moments seperation
She sees with her angel presence
The suger he tastes on lips so pure
His tears now mingle with the blood
As he tears her mirrors from his eyes
He understands not
The reason
Why white feathers are falling from the sky

Mar 2014

Rai

Gone but still

Funny how life takes you to places
Where people write upon your soul
* They show you themselves in colours so true
Then stamp their feet like toddlers out of control

*In valleys so deep I found my heart
He stood there arms wide open
He had been waiting such a long time
And yet never faltered in his understanding
I so love him for that

Lover of the night and sleeper of the day
Hawks fly better when chased by eagles I've heard
Fear cripples the soul
Fear encompasses all that we are
Leaving us bare

*Beauty of all
Thankfulness of all
greatness is created at the feet of masters long past
And yet as poets we glow
We grow
We understand and we carry our souls with pride

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