I want to be the fuel to light your fire
I want to be the drug that gets you higher
Grab your soul
Make you have no where els to go

I want to slit open your chest
Use you as a test
Use you're heart as a machine
Then blow it up with nitroglycerine

We are all empty
But we need some thing to inspire
Lets start the assembly
Lets explode into a fire
Take what we require
Fill every desire
Let this all conspire
And Get a little higher

My brain withers away
As my soul slithers out my mouth
My eyes set for another day
As I Fear of wealth
Fear of what to say
Fear of finding another way

Courage to find whats deep inside
Courage to break through the bind
I Prove I don't have hide
From whats in my mind

My heart liquefies
My eyes melt under the sun
My body synthesize and crystallize
As I slowly become one

When a drug addict is tried of all they of done
Tired of being on the run
Tired of the pain
Tired of hurting every one, and being dirt once again

Your problems are only mortal
Let your heart seize
Shed your mortal coil
And feel the sweet release
I will give you peace

When a little girl realizes she can no longer be a dancer
Tired of not getting an answer
Tired of the pain
And tired of never wanting to hear the word cancer again

Your problems are only mortal
Let your heart seize
Shed your mortal coil
And feel the sweet release
I will give you peace

When some ones lover is gone
Tired of trying to move on
Tired of the pain
Tired of feeling like their heart will never dawn again

Your problems are only mortal
Let your heart seize
Shed your mortal coil
And feel the sweet release
I will give you peace

I promise there is nothing that you will miss
Embrace Deaths kiss
You will only feel bliss
As you sink down the abyss

Your problems are only mortal
Let your heart seize
Shed your mortal coil
And feel the sweet release
I will give you peace

I am for ever alone, Sailing out at sea
Until I heard a beautiful song and it was directed out at me
I never felt any thing so strong, I wondered who it could be
I slowly saw her sitting on a rock and I was about to pull out my ****
Until she started to flee

I have never seen any one so beautiful and yet so strange
She had a fish tail that helped her get out of range
She was so lovely and frail that it made me feel deranged
Then I saw her bare **** that sent me into a fit
Until she turned around to make an exchange

She sang to me that she would no longer flee
But if I wanted to hear more of her song, she wasn't going to come to me
She wanted to make my **** long but I would have to come with her under the sea
I am not as stupid as I sound, I know I would drowned
But right now there is no where I would rather be

I said we could take it slow as I started to dive
She said you must not know, if you love me down there is a hive
I said lets go, even though I knew I might regret this shrive
She took me down and more swam around
But then they started to eat me alive

As they fead I started to dread
I started to bled and knew I would soon be dead
But then my first mate pulled my out and my wounds he started to med
And slapped me and said "thats what you get for thinking with the wrong head"

For ever after that day I was never the same
I will never for get her song, or her game
I knew she was wrong but my heart she did tame
I feel so defeated and beaten, I would have rather bin eaten
Then to ever have to feel this pain

We all have dreams
And some times they seem so far
But some times it feels closer then it seems
When you have some one there

The people in your life are pillars who bring you up
And bring you around
But some times their on top
And hold you down

I have dreams but I rely on people who aren't there
Some who give me shove
Some who don't care
Some who give me love
But I still feel despair

As soon as i wrote this poem my heart went in my throat
Because I will always know
It doesn't matter what I do or what I wrote
As long as I am alone I am as high as I am going to go

In my self there is a beast
It stays dormant inside
But some times it has to feast
I am the real Jekyll and Hyde

The monster some times comes out
Even though a nice person is who I try to be
It makes me scream and shout
But I always seem to hurt the people closest to me

I try to figure out whats the trigger
Whats my full moon
Because I want to stop what makes me so bitter
And I want to stop it soon

I finally realized what causes this madness
I should have always known
My full moon was kindness
And the only cure is being alone

As I look in the Mirror
I recognize what I see
But its not clear
If this is really me

As I was a child
I was always free
My heart was so wild
I could be who ever I wanted to be

As I was a Teen
I Had to unlock the key
How I wanted to be seen
And who I wanted to be

As I left school
I learned what was really me
I no longer tried to be cool
But who I was accurately

Now I am a bit older and have done all the things I have done
I and I have become who I was supposed to be
But I don't think the choices I have made were the right ones
Because the person in the mirror I see
Is no longer me

Time is always moving
Its a untouchable mass
You can't stop it from improving
Because its in an hour glass

I am just a fool
Who likes to break the rules
I will use every tool
To reach the untouchable jewels

I am tired of the hands I have bin dealt
And always asking why
I am tired of the way I have felt
I think its worth a try

I break open the top
To make so the grains wont fall
But still they drop
but I won't let them all

I start to make a try
To make a castle in the sky
But as I shape the sand
It slips through my hands

This was all for not
Soon I will have to say good by to all my friends
I just have one more thought
Before I reach the end

Why did I always try and make a change
And feel this way inside
Life is some thing you can not rearrange
I should have enjoyed the ride

I live in the most beautiful kingdom
In the middle a Crystal Castle
Its a land full of so much wisdom
But living in it is such a hassle

All the plants glow
They are such a beautiful sight
But I cant stop them grow
Because I can't trim some thing made of light

Every pond of water is a beautiful blue
But looking in, there is no reflection of you
Going swimming is some thing I wouldn't try
If you ever did, you would realize you are falling through the sky

Every person here is the most beautiful person you ever knew
The men are so handsome, the women so fair
But every persons a statue
And they always stare

My Crystal Castle is always meant to last
But its hard for me to live for ever when its made of glass
Every little corner is as sharp as a nail
I alway ***** my self and leave a ****** trail

The sun is so beautiful it always makes me think
Its the kind of beauty that I always wish to strive
It burn the sky to a lovely pink
But tries to burn me alive

My kingdom will last forever and will always be my home
But its the ugliest beautiful place
I am forever stuck in here alone

I feel like I am going crazy
because all I can see
Is artists being lazy
But thinking they are better then we

They write poems on how they are the only one
They can't even poke fun
They take every thing so seriously
And attack every one furiously

I want to write a nice comment for them to see
But to them you're nice comment is just you paying a fee
They just see the comment section as their personal fleet
Who are just their to grovel and kiss their feet

They are a bleeding heart artist
And every one should know
They are the smartest
And we should all tell them so

No one will ever under stand them
No one will no their dream
But I just say **** 'em
Because they don't under stand, they're more pathetic then they seem

Ignorance is bliss
Thats what some say
But after watching true ignorance
You may feel the other way

This is a true story
It happened while I was young
It was about my puppy
But it didn't take away how much it stung

My family had a dog
Rocky was his name
But one day we got a new puppy named Jamie
And soon they were playing games

Rocky was getting old
My parents said to heaven it would be said
It made my older brother cry
But I didn't know what it really meant

I loved both of my dogs
We had a pretty good bond
But they could speak a language
That only they could respond

When day I came come home
To find rocky wandering around like he was blind
My parents called the vet on the phone
and left me and Jamie behind

That night i had felt some thing
That I had never felt before
I finally understood why people were crying
But Jamie just waited at the door

Ever single day
At the door she would stand
I tried to explain it every way
But she just would not understand

Imaging waiting for a friend
One who would never come back
Never knowing it was the end
And having your heart stay cracked

I think it was all that heart break
And all the fearing
That gave her cancer
Because she wanted the end to be nearing

It was sad to watch
Having her go through so much pain
It felt even sadder
Knowing Rocky went through the same

Soon they came to pet her to Down
My brother held my hand
But in fear Jamie looked around
She did not under stand

It must have bin frighting
What a way to go
To feel your muscles tithing
But still having one thing you needed to know

If only some one could tell her what we all said
You will never ever again see your friend
And soon you will be dead

There is no more to the story
Nothing left I have to say
But I would rather die knowing
Then ever having to die that way

You kick started my heart
When we made eye contact from afar
I knew it was just the start
I had to know who you are

Courting started slow
I didn't want you to know
It was going to be a surprise
I wanted to see the look in your Eyes

I took you to my home
I shut off my phone
Nothing was going to stop us
From being alone

I started with your neck
You turned away
I like it when you play hard to get
But I always get my way!

Oh the months we spent
You don't know how much they meant
But you wanted to go home
And I would not let you leave me alone

It ended with your neck
So pretty and long
I gave you one last little peck
Such a beautiful Swan Song

I drove to the river with my car
I watched you drift away afar
Lost in the black
My own little shining Star

Let me tell you a story
About the boy I loved so
Its not always pretty
But thats just how life go's

It all started at a party
I met him through my friend
It didn't take long
For our hearts to blend

He called me is little dove
He made my heart glow
My mother called it puppy love
But what would she know?

I tried to be careful
But it all happened so fast
I finally felt special
I wanted it to always last

He showed me his favourite songs
We loved to sing along
Some times he would sneak out
And we would watch the stars on my lawn

One of those nights we took it
To a place never before
We were both so nervous
But he left me wanting more

A month later
Nothing felt the same
He start leaving me alone
And treating my heart like a game

One cloudy night
He ended it at the park
He said I just wasn't right
He left me in the dark

It took some time
For the pain to end
But then he committed a crime
And dated my best friend

Over the time I would heal
And all my wounds have sealed
It was just puppy love
But the love I have now is real