They kept asking
What I would do
If I ran into you

But it's the thought  
Of never seeing you again
That keeps me up at night

At the end of the day
I can write a million times
How much happier I am without you
How terribly you treated me
Or how many new lovers I have who are better than you

But I'll miss you
In the quiet
When I'm alone
I'll always miss you
Despite the truth that we are not meant to be together
*I will always be missing you

"Vannah"
Her little hands grabbed my face,
"Where does it hurt?"

"In my heart, little one"
I whispered back.

Her tiny finger pointed to my chest
And I nodded my head

"How do you fix it?"
She quietly asked

"I don't know yet, little one. I haven't figured that out yet."

I hear your faint whisper
From in between these bed sheets
Taunting me always
With the memory of you

I liked to think we weren't fools
For believing it could've worked
But then again
This bed was too small
And my love was too big

And in a weird way
I owe you a thank you
Because in all the misery you caused
I found myself

I listed
Out loud
All the things I loved about you

And in return
All I got was your silence

I could pretend we never happened
I could lie and tell myself
You never really cared
But honestly,
What's the point in that?
Because You did love me
And now you don't
And even though that's a terrifying thought
It's the truth
Your love was necessary in my life for a time
And it no longer is
There was a time where you lifted all my burdens
And then there was a time that you became the heaviest one
I am better for being loved by you
And I am better for loving you even when you never deserved it
Your presence was once freeing
And now your absence is
I found myself in you
And above all,
I still love myself without you

Tonight I was looked at
The way I always looked at you
And I don't know how you did it
Because I could never walk away from love like that

Isn't it funny
How much we can love the wrong person
As if they were the right one all the while

I let you become my world
I called you home
And when you left
I didn't know where to go

So I ran to the streets of France
And climbed the hills of Italy
I swam with mermaids in the  Mediterranean
And found secrets in the countryside of Ireland

I walked where kings walked
Traced the footsteps of men who changed the world
I fell in love with places
And was overwhelmed with the kindness of strangers

And when I stood at the top of the world
I was humbled at its size
And discovered what a small piece you are
Of my grand story

And in your absence
Something incredible happened

I fell in love with myself

You left me
To become one of them
But the irony is
They're all desperately searching
To find what you and I had

I fell apart at the idea of losing you
And then I lost you
Turns out,

I'm doing just fine