And so now you become a ghost
I will carry the scars you left behind
Other men will try to kiss them away
But you left permanent marks on my heart
You will be the answer
When I explain my hesitancy to trust
My unwillingness to open up
My tendency to run away from love
The man you used to be
The boy you are now
The person you will become
I will never be able to escape
The ghost that you left behind

I'm wrestling with never wanting to be touched again
And the desire to be in love again

That was our tragedy
I loved you so much
I chose you over me every ****** time
And you loved me too
Just not enough to stay

Oh baby
Didn't you know?
There's no erasing me

I can never expect
For you to come back and beg for what you threw away
I can only try to ignore
The magnetic pull that drags me to you

I let his lips touch me where yours used to
I let his hands grab what belonged to you
I let his arms hold me the way you loved to

I let him lie with me the way you promised we'd lay forever
I let him whisper nothings that I didn't listen to
I let him

And that's the worst of it all
It was him,
Not you
And I let him

You ruined me
Before you,
I handed out kisses like candy
I was detached
Distant
Dispassionate

But you rooted yourself so deep into my heart
That I can't dig you out
And I hear your voice taunting,
"Him? Seriously?"
I see the hair on your neck rise in jealousy
But you don't get to be jealous
Because you left me

But what does matter?
Because I'm still hopelessly in love with all that we were
So if I can't have you
Then I'd rather have nothing at all

In all the pain that comes with missing you
I smile and breathe
Because you'll never be able to escape the story of you and me
I know your answer
To every question they could ever ask

*"Her name was Savannah."

Oh you imbecile
Were you so blind to the treasure you had
That you refused to see all the men lining up
Ready to take your spot?

When people read our story
They all will see
That I was the girl who loved too poetically
And you were the fool for leaving

When I thought of happiness
You were always the definition
But now when people ask me
I smile and say,
"It's loving my own existence"

You said forever
And your eyes made me think you meant it
So I gave you what no one's got before
I believed that if did
There was no way that you could leave

But now I stand on my porch
And watch as you never looked back

I know you're trying to erase me
But unfortunately for you
I wrote it all down in permanent ink