I can't say it...
Not anymore
I love you are that will now strike a discord
I love you is a phrase I simply cannot afford
Conversations won't be ending with I love you anymore....

Is I wrong to seek a piece of myself
when I could be whole with what we have?

Is it wrong to want to put distance between us
before your a million miles away?

Is it wrong that lack of connection with you
makes me want to seek it with someone else?

Is it wrong to say I love you
when thoughts of leaving you are in my head?

Is it wrong that my deep desire for you
is slowly pushing me away?

Is it wrong that this dreary monotony
Makes me wish I'd left yesterday?

Is it wrong that my life and myself
seem to constantly push us apart?

Maybe
Maybe if I stopped venting to a screen
And coping with videos
Or if I stopped "talking" and talked
If I could only trust
If I didn't feel the need to be strong
If I wasn't an example
Maybe then I could tear down walls that restrict me
Walls that I made
Walls that keep my maybe from being possible
And maybe if they were torn down
Maybe then I wouldn't feel alone in crowds
Or fake whenever I talked to people
Maybe I could connect with people
Or I could feel real
Or even alive
Maybe..... just maybe....