Ruts in the road
And raging river rapids
And the mountain
So many, so much
Too great a love
Too much the doubt
Too big the obstacles
That I battle with the sky
Because of the clouds

Just to feel better
I let it all go
Only to find
I'm still holding on

Just to feel better I'm still holding on

The past is many days
Now the story is told
And lessons learned
So many, so much
Too great a power
Too bright a truth
Too much is in me
That I learn how to die
To cancel my scars

Just to feel better
I let it all go
Only to find
I'm still holding

Just to feel better I'm still holding on

I was told as a child
There are no places left to explore
They've all been discovered before

Well there's outer space
The ocean
And the human mind

Probably enough in those places
We've never seen before

I always believed
Not in god
But in whatever it is
God does

Maybe giving us reason
Or giving us meaning
That whatever pain we feel
Is all a part of a plan

I always believed
Because the truth is
I can't live my life
Without believing in something

Sort of like a phantom limb
I can feel her
Even though I know she's gone

Sort of like the summer wind

Sort of like an old best friend
I haven't seen
In way too long

She's sort of like a phantom limb
The pain of loss
I deal with again and again

The pain of loss
Knowing I can never win

I remember
When the only sound you made
Was a flower blooming
Softly and sweetly
Honey colored
I remember
How I couldn't believe
Anything in this world could be so beautiful
Delicate and changing
Porcelain skin

And the bird that flew from your heart
Landed gently on my windowsill
And sang a song
I alone could hear

I remember
Even when the skies were grey
I felt the sunshine on my skin
The warmth of your touch
The light in your eyes
I remember
Never fearing darkness
Only feeling what man was made to feel
Wide eyed to the sun rise
I hoped would last forever

I remember
And that's what hurts me most
Remembering
When I only want to forget

That the bird that flew from your soul
Was pierced by a poisoned arrow
A song alone was silenced
And only I knew

She was a rose
Beautiful
Delicate but not without thorns
I am a feather
As an ornament
Falling ever so slowly from the heavens

And our love was porcelain
And the world a wrecking ball

They're jumping
Off the Golden Gate Bridge
And in my mind
So am I

How did I break you?
Something I predicted
Something I always knew
Something that I feared

It doesn't feel good to be right

It doesn't
It feels like I wasn't strong enough
To push the river
And change its course
How did I break you?
Only in the way I knew I would

It doesn't feel good to be right

Its hard
To be vulnerable
But for real trust and love
Its necesarry

So swallow your pride
Show someone your weakness
So that they
Can show you their strength

We are all children of circumstance
All of us
Every one

So if your born a senators son
And you lose your silver spoon
I believe you hurt as much

As if your born in the city slums
And you never make it out
There is no monopoly on the pain someone can feel

Only the world we know
Compared to the one we knew

I remember that silver ore
Unrefined but intermittently beautiful
Just a hope for the future
A heart beat amongst the blood
And the teeth and the scars
That had left their marks on me

  I remember seeing you and smiling
Odes to the dawn, and dance, and the seeds
All my hopes for the future
Just a lantern in a darkened barn
And the viscera, the platelets and cells
That had made their home in me  

I remember feeling
But oh well
Feeling one by one
Fingertips and hips and lips
And diamond veins
Deep underneath the surface

I remember the waning moon
Becoming new with the dreams of tomorrow
Just vain imagination
And the blood
I remember the blood was flowing
I cannot forget

In this life,
You get what you give,
So I give you my heart,
I give you my all,

And I don't expect the ocean to be full of sharks,
Not hammerheads nor hypocrites,
Only water that came from the rivers,
And the streams,
And the sky,

You get what you give,
So I give you my love