what do you think it means
when everyday
one hopes and prays
for no tomorrow?
asking for a friend...

feel free to give him
100% of you,
i no longer want
any part of you

go ahead
you can't hurt me
i no longer have
a heart to break

i came
i saw
i conquered
...only myself

left in the realm of memories
by the ones you love,
the ones saying they love you
the ones who
you've let in,
all who
are allowed to
get close to you,
come push and shove,
will abandon you
right on cue
that's my lesson
that's where i'm constantly tested
i pray it's different for you
and between me and you
whoever you
happen to be
i hope you
don't find this true
but if you do
i'll do my best
to be there for you
if i myself
ever make it through

i could teach a master class
on what to say,
what to do
and what they want to hear
but i couldn't tell you who i am,
why i am
or why i need to be

why
AAHHHHHHH!
am i
AAAHHHHHHHH!
still here?
AAAAHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
...
oh right
...
i succumb to fear

i

hit

forty

two

and

still

you

will

find

me

trying

to

­find

who

i

am

amidst

the

rubble

of

my

foundationless

residence

a

­temple

turned

unlivable

domain

it's

attached

to

my

name

there's no monsters under the bed
or in the closet
they're in your head
i mean
it's all in your head

i wanted you like a Pepsi
just one Pepsi
not quite suicidal
but watch me display tendencies