Abuse - Hello Poetry

Apr 2023

Alexa

I’m a complicated human, I’m far away from being sane
There’s no way I could show you or even explain
It’s been so long since I’ve even trusted someone new
I hurt myself sometimes, is that too much for you?
Everything was so much easier when I didn’t know your name
Because now you’re stuck on my mind and I’m not the same

~ A.S 03.06.20 ~

Apr 2023

Alexa

Goodbye

Goodbye
We took this way to far.
Like the night skies and the rides in the car.
We did what we swore we wouldn’t.
And we probably knew we shouldn’t.
Croseds so many lines and broke so many rules.
And kept on going like some kind of fools.
You broke the law and I was your accomplice.
We kept it a secret so no one would notice.
Like Bonnie and Clyde it was do or die.
I still don’t know why you are so shy.
We hurt each other, we make each other mad.
And all you ever did was make me sad.
You were the only one I adored.
But I can’t stand it anymore.

#goodbye #bonnieandclyde

Apr 2023

Alexa

I love you

I want to say “goodbye”
But I can’t watch you leave

I want to say “I need you”
But you wouldn’t believe me

I want to say “I love you”
But you won’t understand

I want to say “let me go”
But you hold on to my hand

Apr 2023

Alexa

Dangers

To be completely honest, you terrify me
You say you promise but that’s never a guarantee
I’ve been through this in the past many times before
And the red flags is something I no longer can ignore
When you look at me you see a stranger
But when I look back at you I see danger

~ A.S 05.04.20 ~

Apr 2023

Alexa

Strangers

When we first met, you were a stranger
At first glance I knew my life was in danger
You know I would do it all again.
But I was honest and you played pretend
You switched up on me and everyone could see
That you lied and promised you would change for me
But I don’t know what I’m gonna do
Cause now I can see right through you
When we first met, you took my breath away
But I knew you would move on one day
We turned into something that we didn’t plan
Now you’re more distant than when it all began

~ A.S 13.03.20 ~

Apr 2023

Alexa

Trust

There are a lot of things I do not dare to say
Like, the last time I trusted someone they walked away
I am terrified to really let someone in
Scared of letting someone see the scars deep within
I have been cut so many times before
I do not expect people to stay around anymore

~ A.S 26.04.20 ~

Apr 2023

Alexa

Dead

I’ll give my condolences to your family
I’ll speak at your funeral about our memories
I’ll be at the wake with a black dress
I will shed a tear with the rest of the guests
I’ll walk away laughing from your ceremony
Cause baby, you’re ******* dead to me

~ A.S 14.06.20 ~

Apr 2023

Alexa

Fooled

I should've known from the start that you'd let me down
I should've known we'd become the talk of the town
I didn't give a **** if we came off as shady
As long as you'd answer my calls with "How's my lady?"
In the car singing "Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep"
Didn’t care if the world called you a creep
I was blinded by how you calmed my rage
So I didn’t care I was half your age
~ A.S 10.04.20 ~

~ A.S 10.04.20 ~

Apr 2023

Alexa

Broke

You broke my self-esteem so grievously
It's crazy how skin can bruise so easily
You put deep wounds deep inside of me
And left scars no one but I can see
You left me battered, black and blue
But I find myself calling out for you
You battered, bruised, and got me to my knees
I believed you when you said you loved me

~ A.S 09.08.20 ~

Apr 2023

Alexa

Memories

You deleted your Spotify playlist with songs about me
And I can’t understand just how you moved on so quickly
Because I was going to fall asleep in your sweatshirt
Now I’m the one who ended up with my heart hurt
I hate to admit the damage you caused
Because I know this is all my fault
And I know I will love you for centuries
But now we’re just strangers with memories

~ A.S 04.02.21 ~

Apr 2023

Alexa

Dearly

Because you didn’t just break my heart
You completely destroyed it
And every night I fall asleep with my pillows soaked
But I still count the hours until we can talk
Because a part of me still holds you dearly

~ A.S 06.10.20 ~

Apr 2023

Alexa

Yours to keep

To my heart, you’ll always hold the key
A part of my soul is forever yours to keep
Just because we have to part, doesn’t mean this is a goodbye
The mistakes we made, is no reason for you to cry

~ A.S 18.08.20 ~