You say that you are always there for me.
Then why do I still feel like I’m lost at sea?
I’m so tired of always feeling alone.
Having to fend for me, myself, and on my own.
I see you on our calls but your concentration never stays.
and I miss the times your mind wouldn’t slip away.
What are you thinking about? leaving me all by myself.
These days I’m scared it’s about someone else.

Messages left on read.
Got me spiraling, are you dead?
You’ve been so distant lately.
Did you make it home safely?
Lately, it feels like you are leaving.
Are you up or are you sleeping?
My heart is breaking slowly.
I’ll be here when you feel lonely.

I can be a bit jealous from time to time, but never to this degree.
But somehow you manage to bring out the very worst in me.
You leave me second-guessing and doubting myself.
Who are you talking to? I see you’re online, is it someone else?
****, I can’t stand it, what have I become?
Everyone’s a threat and I can’t trust anyone.

I remember the day you left because you took a piece of me with you.
I hope the new girl you have replaced me with takes care of you like I do.
I gave you all my love, but you didn’t know how to answer it.
Saying lately you’re just dealing with a lot of feelings and *******.
I fading away and crumbling under all your big expectations.
I know there’s an easy way out but I don’t want to give in to the temptations.
You used to be my hero and would always come and save the day.
Now no matter what I do you act like a villain and turn every day all gray.

Please go easy on me, my heart is failing me.
If only there was a way for me to help you see.
How your storms break down my spirits and mind.
And your harsh words come and leave me crying inside.
But I can weather any storm you throw my way
And no matter what you do to me, I’ll always stay.

I ask too much of you and you can’t take it anymore
I just know I’ve never loved anyone like this before.
It always ends badly with a mutual obsession
I hope we do it and make it out of this depression

I deleted your pictures, and the stupid poem I wrote.
I erased the drawings and scratched out the stupid love quotes.
I detached and forgot what we could be.
Because I felt it all, and you were playing me.

I still feel you in my veins like a threat.
I still preach your words through my breath.
I blame the drugs for my shame and mistake
But you're the one to blame for my poison intake.