Absorbing everything all at once
How I wish I could not
Feel like floating away
Out of control and it hits me deeply

Down from the bottom
until it gives me endless shivers
and my head rolls like a thunder
weakness starts to tingle
but it lingers to me, it's inevitable

Another day again
Dragging with ball and chain
Whether to let it all sink
But how I could not think?

Everything is so shallow
But I am drowning below
Leaving me breathless
Stranded on the ground, helpless
It is killing me but I am not dying

The deepest hole where I could escape
There is nothing much I could erase
The turbulence of serenity
Has been buried deep down in me
Nothing I could do now to outwit sensitivity

You give too much
And that's not going to be enough
No matter how hard you try sometimes
It's not going to make an impact, not an inch, not a dime
Whatever is left is what you've got
After all the bruises and cuts
Everything could go nuts
You swim deep down the waters
You go further and further
But in the end, nothing really matters.

You make me feel forget what I'd love to remember
Nothing to recover and I guess it's over
Don't meet me halfway
You can always go on your way

Time has come to terms with me
To never rely much on my heart's misery
The bittersweet solace of not putting myself to cry
I know this ain't lie because I can never say goodbye


When to step in is all I wanted to know
Been so ******* myself just to make this grow
And it's always been about you
The moment you'd told me so

Don't make it any harder, just make it real
Can't you recognize how I feel?
The part that breaks has now become the entirety
I am now smothered by this thing I used to make breathing easy

No one's losing, no one's winning
Chasing the clouds all over again like it is the beginning
I wake up each day with a thought that I'm still dreaming
Sometimes the only way is to give yourself a break from trying


The spear of truth has been hitting me from the start
It may shatter me in pieces but I will never fall apart
The certainty is hanging on a  thread
Like it can never be revived for it's long been dead