may;
flowers bloom,
and it is easier to see the good side
of things.
baby animals everywhere,
sunshine,
the bluest skies.
everyone is smiling
because there is nothing better to do.

april;
wet and green,
as all of the moisture drains from the heavens
and you buy me flowers,
a beautifully clean and simple way to express your love
because you know how clouds make me feel
and one day, as we sit in the sprinkling rain
and as the sun sets
seemingly to get away from the storm
we see a rainbow
and we laugh silently and finish our ice cream,
not considering that maybe we should go inside,
so we just stand still
and
we see
the second rainbow.

and i rip off the chain you got me three years ago
and i chuck it at the mirror
and it shatters the glass
seven years of bad luck my ***
because if karma existed i wouldn't still be around
and you
you would be anything but what you are
because you are everything that ever meant anything to anyone who ever cared
and i was the anyone who cared
and i am the one who cares
and 'He' doesn't exist because if he did
why would 'He' let me feel like this
over you
someone who wouldn't look me in the eyes
someone who put on a show to leave me for someone new
and every little while I'll ask mutual friends how you've been
because i care too much not to check in
and it's always the same answer but i know better than to believe myself
because you're not better off without me, but then again
you weren't better off with me
so i will pick up the pieces of glass and put them somewhere where they are not a danger to me or my bare feet
and then i will go to bed
because the only way i can get away from you is to sleep
because my dreams are still blank.