Isn't it supposed to be easy
Easy to tell you stuff and share my feelings?
Isn't it supposed to be easy
Easy to love

Then why do you make me feel like this?
Like you don't care
Like I'm a burden
Like this aren't easy

To me
It sometimes feels like you don't care
Like all you want is a fun time
And my touch
My lips on yours
And not my heart to hold

To me
It feels like Im burdening you
Like if I tell you stuff
I would just bore you
**** you with my weakness and need for getting things of my chest
Like you don't wanna know
You just want someone to hold you for a little while

To me
You feel far away
Like I don't truly have you
Or like you don't truly care
Cause about my jealousy
You don't wanna know
And that makes me uncomfortable
Cause how will you not hurt me
If you don't know what step you take will hurt me the most

To me
It feels like your there for a moment
And then you're gone
There to touch and hold
But not there to catch me in the end

To me
It's like I'm falling
Falling deep down with no way to get up
Like I'm slowly breaking
Tearing myself apart
With the fear of your non caring
The fear of losing you
Thats how it's like
To me

To me it's funny
That how I found you
My first love
My one and only
Was by being at a high school party
Where you didn't matter to me at all
All we said was hallo
And then I was in the arms of your classmate
Close, hugging, cuddling, touching and kissing
This other guy was the one to catch my eye
But then he was stolen away
And another guy took away my sight
He was sweet and gentle and we shared a goodnight kiss before I left
And you never crossed my mind

Then at school everyone talked
And somehow I date crashed and we got to talk
I thought you were sweet but weird at first
Never once did I think we would ever be more than friends
Cause I was texting your classmate
But now you too
And you were texting all the time
It was actually kind of cute
How much you tried to fight for my attention
And so it was that you fell for me
And you told the other guy that
Surprisingly you were both sweet about it
The other guy slowly backed off
And you took his place
Still I only saw you as one of my friends
But you kept going
You were the perfect gentleman
And slowly you started to steal my heart
We confessed we were each other's crush
And soon we began to hang out
We chilled, we texted, we talked
And suddenly one day
It was you I was cuddling
It's was you who ended up with my heart
You that still has it
You who I hope will never leave me

So it started out crazy
But now that I got you
I'm not gonna let you go
Even though you f*ck with my mind and my heart
You make me jealous and afraid by heart
I'm still loving you like crazy
So please stay
Cause I think we are kinda perfect

You say I'm the one
Your one and only
You say you only have eyes for me
That you don't look at other girls
You say I mean everything to you
That you don't want anyone else

BUT then why
Why do I feel my heart clenching
Every time you talk to her
Every time I see you two laugh together
Every time you talk about her
Every time I know you two are together
That's when a little pieces of my heart breaks
Even though you told me I was the one and only
That I should trust you
Believe what you say
Cause we love each other
So you won't walk away
But to be honest I'm afraid
Afraid that you will find something better
Someone better
And I will be left with a heart that's broken
With a love so strong it will tear me a part
And with tears streaming down my face
While you will look at her and smile

So yeah, I don't quite believe the one and only thing
But that just cause I'm afraid
Afraid and jealous
Afraid of losing the best thing I have ever had
My first love and the only one I ever want
I'm afraid of losing you
My one and only

It seems like things changed
Our love used to seem so bright
You eyes used to shine with light
I was scared at first
But you fought for my heart
And now that you got it
You seem to wanna tear it apart
Your interest has gone
And now Im alone
Only hearing from you, when you seem to be lonely
And since Im starting to realize it
My heart is slowly starting to crack
Cause what usually seemed so great
Now seems extremely bad
I don't know what to do
Cause you never reply
So maybe Im just supposed to let you go
Let it all slide away
And hope that letting you go
Wont be so difficult
Or that if me pulling myself away
Might make you come running back
Back to show me what our love used to be
Instead of it being you running away from me