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CLL Jul 2014
You say it doesn’t mean that much to you
That after you experience it’s nothing special to you anymore
And it scares me, all the way into the nerves in my bones
And I feel myself ache, but I won’t show you
Cause you already know enough, when it comes to me feelings
But the deal is that it matters to me
Cause if I’m letting you this close
I would want you to want it, like I do
I would want you to think it is as special, as I do
Cause to me, we can’t get any closer than this
And if you are gonna end up saying that wasn’t that much to you
I’ll end up heartbroken, with a memory in my mind that I can’t take back
So please don’t lead me on and tell me you want it
When we both know I scare you, with the way I feel about it
Scare you with my expectations and with how much it means to me
When someone broke it for you and stole the meaning you had for it away
Leaving us both scared, but wanting it
But me more than you
Jul 2014 · 348
Missing part
CLL Jul 2014
Every time you leave I miss you, like I miss a part of me
Even if it’s just for a second or an hour
It feels like I’m running out of air, out of breath
We have over time become so close
So close that even my cells electrify by the simple sight of you
So when you leave, it’s like I’m running out of life
Running out of air.
Running out of my own human electricity.
Running out of life.
Cause no love, has ever been like the one I have for you.
And never have I ever felt a missing part of myself before.
Jul 2014 · 363
Repeat of actions
CLL Jul 2014
The way you always talk about getting home asap after we were so close, so intimate, makes me feel ***** and sad. And yeah you notice that I get hurt, but you never notice that it’s the repeat of you actions and it hurts even more.
CLL Jul 2014
I wish you didn’t have ex’s
I wish you had never loved before
I wish you had never been with a girl before
I wish you weren’t in contact with them anymore
Cause you are my first love
My one and only
And it makes me sad to think that you have ever loved others
The way you now love me
And to think that I’m not your first is sad
When you are my first love
You are the first to gonna steal my heart away and hopefully keep it
While I’m just another one in line for you.
May 2014 · 359
We're on our way up
CLL May 2014
What used to seem so bad and pointless
Is now beginning to bloom like a flower again
Our love and closeness starts to seem strong
I no longer feel annoying or unwanted
I only feel the pure love from a first love that's going great
I guess we're on our way up
On our way to happier moments
On our way to sharing the honest truth
On our way to share ourselves completely with each other
We're simply just on our way up
On our way up on the scale of love
May 2014 · 236
Untitled
CLL May 2014
We might claim to love each other
But lately I feel like I’m the one who’s loving you
And like I’m just here so you won’t get bored…
May 2014 · 700
If so, please let me go
CLL May 2014
Sometimes I wonder if you care enough
Enough so that I can stay
Cause if not please let me go
Go and find someone who will
May 2014 · 354
Man up - Act up
CLL May 2014
Only your actions will show
If you really care
If you really love
If you really be with me all along

So man up
Share your feelings
Share your love
Share not just your words
Man up - Act up
May 2014 · 609
Running
CLL May 2014
I hate it
Hate this
Hate how you suddenly come running for me
Trying to make me happy
Trying ti catch my attention
When I know it was only because I pulled away
Away from being what you might call "clingy"
Away from you
And now your running for me
Being the clingy one
May 2014 · 295
Why can't I love?
CLL May 2014
Why can´t I love what I have?
Why can´t I appreciate what we share?
Is it me who's wrong?
The way I'm feeling?
Or is it the way that you do?
Why do i envy everyone else and what they have?
Why do I wish we had what our friends do?
Why can´t I accept the love that we share and have?
Why do I want everything else so bad?
I feel awful, but I don't know how to change the way I feel...
Apr 2014 · 334
I feel it coming
CLL Apr 2014
The warm salty air
The sound of waves hitting the shore
The smell of the sunscreen you put on yesterday
The feeling of the sand on your sheets from your beach trip last night
The nice air going through your open windows
All the smiles and the laughters
The smell of freshly cut grass
And the knowing of that the summer is here
And that it's gonna be great
Another memorable summer
Apr 2014 · 525
What LOVE is...
CLL Apr 2014
Love is scary
Love is crazy
Love is amazing
Love is pure
Love is the real thing
Love is terrifying
Love is exciting
Love is hard
Love is 100% happiness (most times)
Love is unexplainable

I'm a sucker for love, I'm a sucker for you
I belive in love, I dream of love
And one day
I know that our love will go all the way
CLL Apr 2014
I think I care too much
I hurt too easily
Take things way too serious
And it *****

Cause at the moment I feel
Feel like I care way more than you do
Feel like I try way more than you do
Feel like I love way more than you do

And secretly it's killing me
Killing me from deep deep deep inside
But I'm telling myself it's stupid
That you love me and that I'm just the downer
That I'm wrong
That I'm making myself hurt
And not you
Cause I love you
And love is crazy
Apr 2014 · 459
Savn
CLL Apr 2014
At mærke hjertet briste
At det trækker i sjælen
At ved blot et enkelt minde
Presser tårerne sig på
Apr 2014 · 2.7k
Easy
CLL Apr 2014
Isn't it supposed to be easy
Easy to tell you stuff and share my feelings?
Isn't it supposed to be easy
Easy to love

Then why do you make me feel like this?
Like you don't care
Like I'm a burden
Like this aren't easy
Apr 2014 · 257
To me - To you
CLL Apr 2014
To me
It sometimes feels like you don't care
Like all you want is a fun time
And my touch
My lips on yours
And not my heart to hold

To me
It feels like Im burdening you
Like if I tell you stuff
I would just bore you
**** you with my weakness and need for getting things of my chest
Like you don't wanna know
You just want someone to hold you for a little while

To me
You feel far away
Like I don't truly have you
Or like you don't truly care
Cause about my jealousy
You don't wanna know
And that makes me uncomfortable
Cause how will you not hurt me
If you don't know what step you take will hurt me the most

To me
It feels like your there for a moment
And then you're gone
There to touch and hold
But not there to catch me in the end

To me
It's like I'm falling
Falling deep down with no way to get up
Like I'm slowly breaking
Tearing myself apart
With the fear of your non caring
The fear of losing you
Thats how it's like
To me
Apr 2014 · 624
How I found love
CLL Apr 2014
To me it's funny
That how I found you
My first love
My one and only
Was by being at a high school party
Where you didn't matter to me at all
All we said was hallo
And then I was in the arms of your classmate
Close, hugging, cuddling, touching and kissing
This other guy was the one to catch my eye
But then he was stolen away
And another guy took away my sight
He was sweet and gentle and we shared a goodnight kiss before I left
And you never crossed my mind

Then at school everyone talked
And somehow I date crashed and we got to talk
I thought you were sweet but weird at first
Never once did I think we would ever be more than friends
Cause I was texting your classmate
But now you too
And you were texting all the time
It was actually kind of cute
How much you tried to fight for my attention
And so it was that you fell for me
And you told the other guy that
Surprisingly you were both sweet about it
The other guy slowly backed off
And you took his place
Still I only saw you as one of my friends
But you kept going
You were the perfect gentleman
And slowly you started to steal my heart
We confessed we were each other's crush
And soon we began to hang out
We chilled, we texted, we talked
And suddenly one day
It was you I was cuddling
It's was you who ended up with my heart
You that still has it
You who I hope will never leave me

So it started out crazy
But now that I got you
I'm not gonna let you go
Even though you f*ck with my mind and my heart
You make me jealous and afraid by heart
I'm still loving you like crazy
So please stay
Cause I think we are kinda perfect
Apr 2014 · 1.1k
The One
CLL Apr 2014
You say I'm the one
Your one and only
You say you only have eyes for me
That you don't look at other girls
You say I mean everything to you
That you don't want anyone else

BUT then why
Why do I feel my heart clenching
Every time you talk to her
Every time I see you two laugh together
Every time you talk about her
Every time I know you two are together
That's when a little pieces of my heart breaks
Even though you told me I was the one and only
That I should trust you
Believe what you say
Cause we love each other
So you won't walk away
But to be honest I'm afraid
Afraid that you will find something better
Someone better
And I will be left with a heart that's broken
With a love so strong it will tear me a part
And with tears streaming down my face
While you will look at her and smile

So yeah, I don't quite believe the one and only thing
But that just cause I'm afraid
Afraid and jealous
Afraid of losing the best thing I have ever had
My first love and the only one I ever want
I'm afraid of losing you
My one and only
CLL Mar 2014
It seems like things changed
Our love used to seem so bright
You eyes used to shine with light
I was scared at first
But you fought for my heart
And now that you got it
You seem to wanna tear it apart
Your interest has gone
And now Im alone
Only hearing from you, when you seem to be lonely
And since Im starting to realize it
My heart is slowly starting to crack
Cause what usually seemed so great
Now seems extremely bad
I don't know what to do
Cause you never reply
So maybe Im just supposed to let you go
Let it all slide away
And hope that letting you go
Wont be so difficult
Or that if me pulling myself away
Might make you come running back
Back to show me what our love used to be
Instead of it being you running away from me
So lately our spark seems to be gone, which is making me wanna play your game back, making you stumble and fall. Not showing you interest might make you come running back, I hope.
Feb 2014 · 4.4k
Hopeless romantic
CLL Feb 2014
The thing is that I'm hopeless
That I'm probably always gonna hope
for the cutest moments to come true
To live the fairytale life
To live all the sweetest movie moments myself
Like dancing in the middle of the road
Kissing in the rain
Watching the stars with my guy by my side
And it probably ain't going to happen
And that's the thing
I'm hopeless
A hopeless romantic
And I don't care
Feb 2014 · 352
Do you even want this?
CLL Feb 2014
Feel the tears ***** in my eyes
As if start to realize
That I'm soon to have had enough
Feeling like this, missing you this much
Makes me unhappy and I've had enough

I'm not gonna ask again
I'm gonna wait for you
I'm gonna wait until you show some interest
Cause I've been missing it for quiet awhile
Missing how it feels to feel wanted
Like you wanna spend time with me

But lately all I feel is like I'm annoying
Like I'm asking and being ignored
And it's making my heart breaking
Just a tiny crack in its shape
And I just don't feel the same
Jan 2014 · 1.1k
Intoxicating
CLL Jan 2014
Intoxicating
That's what you are
You're dragging me in close
Tangling our bodies close together
Kissing me with every fiber in your body
Holding me and telling me all I want to hear
Making me feel like never before
Making my body explode in this love affair
Jan 2014 · 442
love yourself?
CLL Jan 2014
Can you really love yourself?
If yes, please tell me how
Cause I've been searching for a way to learn
To learn not to hate every fiber in my body
Every little imperfection that I have
Cause Imperfections is all I seem to find in myself
Nothing perfect or anything right
Only flaws and dark light deep inside

But I wanna learn
I want this to end
To end all the tears
And sad hours ever spent
I want happiness and eternal love
I want to accept myself for who I am
I want to be free of eternal sadness
Jan 2014 · 288
13th of January
CLL Jan 2014
Together
Officially, it's not a joke
Finally I get to call you mine
No longer just a hope
Jan 2014 · 349
I'm afraid
CLL Jan 2014
You.
You who owns a huge part of my heart.
You who I love.
You who I want as close to me as possible.
You who I want with me as often as possible.
You who makes me smile, by just the mentioning of your name.
You who I miss.
Miss terribly much.
You and only you.

But I'm afraid.
That if I start sharing my utter feelings,
you would take your distance from me.
So I might miss you,
but sharing how I fell is not an option.
Not when my fear is telling me you would run.
Run if I told you I miss you.
Miss you so much it hurts.
Cause it hurts to be apart from you.
And that also scares me.
So...I'm afraid.
Jan 2014 · 1.4k
craving you
CLL Jan 2014
Craving your touch
Craving your kiss
Craving your closeness
Craving everything that you do

Craving your laughter
Craving your smile
Craving our holding hands
Craving everything that you do

Craving the simplest things
Craving all your love
Craving you all the time
But not having the strength to speak up
Jan 2014 · 897
You make me happy
CLL Jan 2014
Butterflies everywhere in my body
No, not only in my stomach.
Warm feeling rushing through my veins
Just as I feel your arms around me
Hugging me from behind
You make me happy

Kisses on the forehead
Still holding me close
The fact that you aren't afraid
Afraid to show it to the world
Makes me heart flutter
You make me happy
Jan 2014 · 612
You love me?
CLL Jan 2014
You claim you love me
But I'm not sure what to think
What to believe
Cause might your intentions be

But in our heated moment
Those words made my heart flutter
So I said it back
Hoping that it wouldn't bother

But since I don't know if this is a joke
I'm feeling scared and weightless
Hoping my words didn't scare you
And that you won't let it all go
Let me go
Jan 2014 · 453
Is it even love?
CLL Jan 2014
Is it really love?
Or is this just a game?
With no alcohol involved

It makes me feel tangled up
Cause I don't know what to believe
Cause with no alcohol, it should be true
With no alcohol

But the I love yous' keep coming
And I'm confused
Cause I feel like I'm the one
Who doesn't know the truth
CLL Jan 2014
Love and like
Two different things
But then again they're kind of alike.
But different at the same time.

You can't love without liking,
But you can like, without loving.
Confusing to some of us.
Cause when do you know
Which one of them that you feel

It should be easy
Shouldn't it?
Knowing how strong your feelings are.
But in Love and Liking
Theres a closeness to the meaning.

Love and Like
Close, but not the same
So look inside your heart
And see what feeling is running through your vein.
And then you will know
What is love
And what is like
Jan 2014 · 538
Realisation
CLL Jan 2014
The scariest part
of my 4am thinking was realizing.
Realizing not only do I have feelings
For you
Oh no, you own my heart too

And I'm not gonna admit it
At least not to you
Though my best friend she knows it
Asking if my feelings are true

But I have gotten to this point where
Where I'm no longer uncertain
Just knowing the simple truth
That my love is all for you

But then again we aren't even together
So why do I love?
Love someone so much I know
Know you could break me and tear me apart
Just by the thought of someone else having you
Or of you loving someone as much
As much as I love you
*I love you
Jan 2014 · 542
Make me forget
CLL Jan 2014
Everything felt so right in that moment
So why did you have to take the magic away?
Tell me that you didn’t want me
That kiss was magical, so sweet and gentle
But now the words ”I don’t like you like that”
Is all I can hear inside my head
It’s getting me to my breaking point of tears

I cried, you cried
But what does that matter
I know you weren’t the one whose feelings got crushed
My heart, you made it flutter
Before you stepped on it
Until it broke.
It just doesn’t feel the same anymore.

But somehow I still like you
Even though I know I shouldn’t
My mind tells me no.
But my heart says there’s a hope
Please just tell me no.

Make me hate you and not love you
Make me forget these feelings I have
Cause it hurts too much to know I love you
While knowing you love like me
Not even close to that.

Lets just be friends
Lets forget this memory
Lets just pretend it meant nothing at all
Lets just say my heart has had enough.

— The End —