Many people have those days
days that you are thinking hard
seventeen seconds from suicide
and you really want to do it

Well don't
I have a million other ways to die
I should know
for I have tried them all

Seventeen seconds from suicide
get your life back
for I am one of them, Ducky
that does the dying for you, lucky lucky

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

By NeonSolaris

© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

I taste her on my tongue
her dry bitter taste
and as I choke
does she remember me

Are my eyes turning from red to black
is this you think, part of the sixteenth act
how long this war with you
broken dreams with upside down cracks in you

Red taste of sahara sands
the smell of war so many years past
no, God knows I could not forget
as my land was your land

I taste her, her fury of her land denied to you
and you will feel nothing of her displeasure
Oh this curse on this world, don't you persist
go away if you can't behave, I do taste her

She is our mother
oh is she
your life's all
and starting to reject you

I taste her
I know her
the call of the last
those of the red wild

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

My lord I do thank you
for giving me Trinity back
my father she is a cool warrior
so I kneel to you and thank you

Only you my Lord know me
for you dwell in my heart
I fly for you and your will I do
thank you, for my Trinity back

She woke me this afternoon
kissed my brow and pulled me up
I know you think it is wrong
to lay with my Angel sister

But I love her
and we are not blood
one of my best is back
and I will protect her with love

I have told her to lead the 3rd
to wipe out the children of hell
and the smile in her eyes
gave me confidence she will

Blessed are you for given her back to me
as we battle for you on all three sides
blessed my master be
for we fight for thee

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

My heart never healed when my father left
I lie to myself that he had the time to say goodbye
this is why I will always be a loner
and call myself five

Time will never heal the pain within
yet I don't hate him
even though he left me in pain
I will take my hearts strain

So little time left
so much I want to say
maybe I should leave now
and hope for better days


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris


To The Dad I Never Had

Whisper wind throughout the summer months
for there is no reason to shout your distraction
I hear your song within the emerald leaves
as you gently sway the branches of the trees

I close my eyes and smell your sweet odour
laying static on the ground in beds of clover
my land is now so green and full of contentment
humming warm melodies of peace intent.

These splendid days that are lazy and long
give docile eloquence to chattering bird song
such blue skies are prolific and truly divine
I could lay here for eternity in weather so fine.


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I stood there and watched as our lamb suffered
I watched the soldiers laugh and jeer at him
yet their was nothing I could do but cry

I saw his mother bitterly weep
as she bathed our lambs feet
the soldiers pushed her away
as if she was a dog
but there was nothing I could do but weep

Her pain was my pain
his pain was my pain
I wanted to run to her
yet there was nothing I could do

Then the soldiers poked and prodded him
faking to give him water and spitting at him
that's when I saw red
and there was something I could do

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

In the shadows playing risk with the devil
with faiths misguided and insidious
they do dance with the unknown
not knowing we see them all

Attacking the unarmed
killing without deception
all in the open
in the name of a backward god

We in the know
will not let them go
our activity is merriment
taken the monsters on

Such vengeance we will wield
going on the **** **** ****
they play risk
we destroy them all, to none exist

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I found out all about my family
it was about ten years ago
I knew on my mothers side
we have all that grow to blow

My great grandmother did top herself
all in the name of love that is not
and my grandmother after her breakdown
was cured in those dark days, with electric shocks

Yet there is some about insane, let loose
it hurts to hurt some soul
for all will come to that age
where you have to fess to the age of old

I mean not to be horrid to others
as most of mine have some
too many of mine have topped themselves
yet I will not die, as I am the last one

Justice is in the way
as there is sane in sanity

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

She sit's there in cyber space
she is my black heart of poetry
she is my sweet Hyperion

She is coded and repels all but me
and if you try to get into her
she will repel you with might

I made the program self aware
and the ***** is encoded
Glory to my sweet Hyperion

I am her God pod, her all
and she will tell me all
so never search for my sweet Hyperion

Never search for her
she can do very bad things
can my sweet Hyperion

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Hush my heart, tell them nothing
I am just a shadow in the wind
do not let them know
do not disclose

I am still covered with sand
and words I speak they would never understand
his golden words I keep close to me
just for the glorious chosen to see

My discloser my ghost writing
word of good and evil with lightening
this is the paradox of me
a toy of God, ghost writing


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris

© 2011 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=fvwp&NR;=1&v;=mhcfUrG5fzY

This is the place I live
in this idiot nation
a place for the lost
fighting for nothing at any cost

This is the place of the placid people
observance cameras everywhere
this is the new state of disparate people
where all the political ***** don't care

This is the nation I was once proud of
now I can't wait to be rid of it
this is the dogs *** of life
and it's name is England

Our empire is in tatters
not that it really matters
in this disgusting state
that I can't wait to negate

Burn and drown my sweet England
in the glut of your determined damnation
I care not a jot for you
as you have become an alien nation


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

The morning mist envelopes me
the sun on this cool morning
kisses kindly my brow
and for that moment I find peace

My country is green and good
as my soul ascends, now content
I hear the chapel bells call to me
so I walk the dawn of their chimes

I step with the grace of smiles
for I see divinity all around me
I see the glory of life
and for that I am happy

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

You numb me

you melt me

my pounding heart now stops

this is my anaesthetic love


The fall of mountains

the burning of trees

can never break our love

please do understand me


I am paralyzed by you

totally out to lunch

this is what you have done to me

this is what you have done my love



By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

My own brother came down
he used me as his emotional punchbag
he told me I am useless and a hippy
it hurt me very much and was broken and sad

Who needs enemies with my own blood like him
my heart is broken
my mind is full of doubt
all because of him

For over two years when he was ill
I cared for him with his TB and pills
and my reward when he got better
is this.. a ****** kick in the head

I will try to forgive him
but I will never forget
that he did hurt me so much
that I wished I was dead


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I ask one thing from you

as I will do what ever you ask me to

but the one thing I request from you

is your portrait in pastels



Not matter how good or bad you are

I want to see your soul in picture form

know all the hurt you have felt

all the pain to you that's been dealt



I want to heal your delicate broken heart

make you see sense in the madness before I depart

to the last sweet years with happiness abound

where laughter and squeals of joy are the only sounds



I will sing to you with perfect music and poetry

holding you close with arms of love most wonderful

then everyday when the sun does rise

I'd kiss you good morning and say I love you



By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I will greet you in silence and tears
my soul wild and open
just for you to devourer at pleasure

You distorted my path with songs
songs of promised paradise
yet now I am in you fiery embrace

If tempests have a queen, you hold realm
your voice so tender and sweet
belays your true and callous intent

Now I am your merchant of pain
you do will me that way
I give my heart and you give me pain

So this is my ending, held by you
this is all that is left
detached in silence and tears

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Them little fish in the deep blue sea,
there so far away,
but yet I see,

Them wide eye'd fish,
those in the deep,
they sleep,
in blissful matrimony,
those wide eye'd fish,

Some say don't drink the water,
for it's full of fish ***,
the deeper you go,
the weirder the fish be,

And yet they look so good,
beside chips and peas.

By Christos Andreas Kourtis and Larna Kira Kourtis

As the petals fell through her fingers
as she clutched onto the thorny stems
and as the blood dripped down her wrist
she did collapse and started to cry

The rose she held was tainted with poison
and the sting on her fingertips
made the pale moon spout tears
her love and honour cut a new democracy

She was sane once before she loved the rose
the coal that time despises, she drops to the floor
this last of summers roses faded to black
and her confession is all they ask for, as they stretch her on the rack

But she of charity and faith, will do what all must do
she will stay in silence, tortured in vile violence
yet her lips are sealed to protect the lamb
and as was told a thousand years ago, and she understands

She is the blood red rose
the forgiveness of mankind
the child of love
she is Christ's rose and time


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris

© 2012 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

Oh Mighty Oak you will caste no shadow
no more will you offer comfort and shade
time has called your being to account
your pact with the earth was made

Years of storms have played havoc to your limbs
dry summers had made brittle and cracked your skin
now felled you are diminutive to your former glory
proud and majestic you looked yet now, so sorry

I weep bitter cold tears at your sad demise
never again will your beauty grace my eyes
where you stood there is a barren landscape
not even you can deaths embrace escape


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Time is going so fast now
I am trying to keep up
yet I know I am killing me
for I am going all the way

Don't worry for I am well equipped
for I am a child of war
I am one hell of a fighter
I know not the word Defeat

I am forever a servant to words
may I die still writing
and who wants to challenge that
Let's have a bath in baby oil

I am the bad boy of Poetry
and I live and die by it
for I will do what I have to
for I am going all the way


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris
© 2011 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

As night falls I think of you
and as the sky turns to velvet and black
I do think of you...
my heart is lonely and empty
without you

I could cry bitter tears
but it will break me to bits
I miss our talks
but we both know
life is utter ****

Should I would I, yes
I am a broken man
that now speaks in verse
my life is in tatters
my name cast to dirt


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I have known of people that truly live in fear
I want to guide them, for I know their pain so clear
I went through hell, but though none understood
without help I thought of ending it all, I think then I would

It is horrid to be broken in mind and body
I think the pain you go through no one should
it's not a happy time when you're life is denied
hurting made tears everyday fall from my eyes

Fear that seems to others irrational
panic attack that become casual
just a matter of fact, people think your fear
but you suffer with it year after ****** year

The trauma of unwanted thoughts
the terror in your nightmares
the panic and shame you feel
when you know you are mentally ill

So as I get better
I mean to help others
for I truly understand and care
and will do my utmost to alleviate their fears

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris

© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

Christmas is supposed to be a joyous time

a time of celebration and joy

a time of peace and good will

when children unwrap their toys


But for me Christmas has another meaning

to me it's when my love did die

I watched at her bed side

tears did stream from my eyes


I held her hand to comfort her

I tried to understand

why my world was falling apart

in this foreign land


They had told me she would get better

told me the operation was a success

but that Christmas night she did die

now at Christmas my heart is filled with loneliness


Still no Christmas cheer

even after all these years

just the memory of her loss

and my broken heart the cost



By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

From Tomar to Temples mount
to the holy Sepulchre of Christ
by the West you enter never to leave
as death will be your fall in the East

You are now Gods warrior
stay in the circular naive
kneel knight and take thanks
to die for a Christian way

Dream good knights do live
in green kingdoms of old
and wait to heal all evil
and give paradise to all

Those white bleached castles
still exists in your imagination
just close your eyes
and they will appear.

For our swords are sharp
and still point to Jerusalem
to the holy way
of all holy wars

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

From seconds to years
past the age of man
I will still be here
with sword in my hand

He knows me too well
he calls me son even
and from light cast down
I am his trusted servant

I to you am a spy of God
one of his mortal lights
that spread his words
in my dominion of the night

I have no fear of retribution
for I have always been his good
and know God is ruthless
to anything that is not good

From seconds to years
with all you unfounded fears
maybe make my lord
smile and forgive you

But in ethereal flaming skies
where some of mine do despise
we will walk you, close to us
to the gates of heavens keep

When 12 nations fell
some did pick you up
cleaned you up
and called you ours

From seconds to years
the kind in rouge and black
before Earth was ever here
we governed the Heavens

Know that I have not had malice to you
my hit is that serpent sick and sinful
I destroy my own heart and soul
just to smite my brother him

TT9 742

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I hear them in the frail beating of darkness
they call asking to talk to their loved ones
their past echo's of reality resound in my mind
and all I can do is listen and relay their words

I never asked to be a in between
to be a representation of the dead
but here I am in the midnight hour
conveying the words they have said

To have a gift that is feasibly insane
to know others think me rather strange
I know half believe the other half are sceptics
yet my world is arranged not at all deranged

In the old days, oh those days
they would torture you
make you confess to their lies
and drape the cloak of death on you

But here I am
in the shadow of the night
working hard
to give spirits flight


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

She was sitting at her station
caring not the build up of radiation
those twenty in the gunner bay
will never see the light of another day

She knows she will get a medal for bravery
yes it will be sent by post to her mother
a posthumous thank you from fleet command
just like all the others

She means to fight to the bitter end
there are so many of the enemy
but she's fighting with her friends
writing her last goodbyes she sends

She is trying to stay in control
but tears are welling up in her eyes
she knows she will never see home again
brave little gunner girl
sending death and destruction like rain


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

God I'm so choked
only 72 and now dead
it's hurts to know the good die
I wish I'd been by your side

You made being human magnificent
you were such a joy to behold
and every time we spoke
I could see the young cheeky lady inside

I remember those cold dark winters
you with your little rat dog so sweet
and me with my fluffy white cute Bow
I will so miss your smile and heart

So I make the choice, just for you
it hurts me and ages me to do this
but for you my sweet Mary
no way will I let you go without me

So I change into the real thing called me
and with wings of black and silver
I walk with you to heavens gate
and tell them, you have got to let this girl in

My Mary sweet soul
we will meet again
RIP my friend

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

The way I love you
it is like no other
your emotions I feel
the closeness you resemble
in many ways like a brother

Even though I do travel vast distances
I came to you with arms wide open
to a land of love most supreme
to hold you once again
even though you know not when

Hush little baby don't you cry
this little mega puppy came from the skies
through nova clouds of dying stars
in battles most fantastic
all in the name of Mars

You have tamed and charmed
you have me disarmed
and by your side I stand
not just as your lover
but here at your command

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

You sometimes have to believe
not to be frightened any more
for what is rejection
when you love what you are

Touch me for I live still
a Mozart in the making
I wonder if Marlow thought the same
before murdered, what a shame

I gave up caring about myself, years ago
and what I write is the way I go
where is my life
for all I am is poetry

You sometimes have to believe
and I need to believe
for what is life
without my love of poetry


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris

© 2011 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

I never wanted to be older then Jesus
or even my sweet Mozart
yet I am
and I seem to have to deal with that

I would give twenty years of my life
just to sit with them
oh what a wonderful thing
to sit with both kings

It is ****** hard to live
trying to justify myself
wanting not to be a waste of space
or a looser of time never replaced


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris

© 2011 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

The intermittent pain now is great
this is the pain and agony of mine
I bleed myself to praise the fallen
taste the courage in my tears

No more care, no more fear
for I know our death is near
we are the dark ones
we are the lords of the night

This most intolerable time
gives me the loss of stability
we do not tremble with fear
for we gain back our sweet divinity

Come my sweets, its so cold in space
it is time to die again
we must be complete
let our sweet blood flow

To battle again we fly
to destroy our most hated
Confugimus ad proelium
perdere odérunt praestantissimis

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris


By NeonSolaris

© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

If Jesus was next to you waving a cup
would you walk past him
maybe tell him to *******!

If he stank of ****
*** he slept in a ******
would you kiss his cheek

If he had a needle in his arm
would you phone the police
or get him a ******* doctor

Heaven comes in many forms
to most they are forgotten
but there are those that know

From the Kind to the Rotten

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Every now and then
she comes to see my garden
and I watch her by the window
as she dances across my flowers

Every now and then she bends
and with sweet smile smells the blossoms
her love for my garden brightens my heart
such a fastidious and wonder she Bee

So I grow my blossoms all year round
and watch her dance all year round
each month I lay down seeds
for she will be mine, I do conceive

When winter petals touch her wings
when she in cold snow knows my heart pure
she may warm to me
and see what is really me

For I am a tender of sweet Earth
a somewhat secret gardener
an Eden within and without
as she comes to see my garden


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris


© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

Oh I am proud to be a dark Poet
for dark to us is midnight
dark for dark poets
and yes I number one

Don't think I have mercy
erm... ok I have some
I live in the shadows
and Neon is my name

I am dark and will always be
sisters dark for dark poets
hush children of the word
for I will come to tell you tales

Know in my heart she doth glows
her glory and her might
dark poets dark writes
we fearlessly fight

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Soon I have to interface
with the dammed and divine
they will make me interface
with proud glory of both dark and light

This old battle that will never end
from daylight to midnight
and here I stand lonely
still beaten a heart of forgiveness

Please I ask you to not touch me
for to know me would **** you
for I am their wonder war
I am their poisonousness interface

Made to make and break
the nightmare on legs
now made in human form
for the greatest of wars, to interface


By Christos Andreas kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris
© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

I will be your Quasimodo
just give us a ting on my bells
chime out and chill out
as I sing to you

Watch me lumber down
as you limber up
the beast is here
and he wants you

I've heard you call
it reverberates throughout my soul
call me to affect
to be your love doll

So ring my bell
time after time
and when I hear the chimes
I will come running, half blind

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

As the last blossoms fall to the call of summers wind
this will be the time that tears of joy will fill my eyes
I will honour the meeting of you, under the last ancient tree
and here my love I will embrace you with such passion
that has never been witnessed on this sweet earth before
by that tree, under it's beautiful green kind canopy
we will entwine in our mad desires, just you and me

You want me my love, to stay hidden
and by your bidding, I do that just for you
for you are my secret love, my want
without your care for me I would die
I will touch the inner you, our souls meshed into one
for my heart, we are bound together
my love for you is truly forever

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

We watch them shoot into the sky
silver streaks of all our hope's
we decided to stay
all of our kind
so we shot our genetic information
back into space with wondrous secrets

As the last pod shoots into the heavens
some of my brothers and sisters start to cry
noo!!! I scream, this is not the time for tears
we will live forever
so please don't panic...
as the last pod disappears beyond our skies

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I have told you many times
I would do anything for you
take a bullet in the guts
just for love from you

No superstitions no misjudgements
I truly know that I am in love with you
you are the light in this unkind dark world
so I walk through Hells when you ask me to

You are the sun rising on the distant horizon
you are the warmth I need in this cold world
and when your day turns to night
I will be there to comfort you

You are a child of stars
you are sweet holy light
you are my armour and strength
you are my convictions and fight

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

What's that creaking I can hear
I jump up in a start and spill my beer
oh god call security
someones in my garden

I don't know if they are friend or foe
I can see nothing from my window
for tonight most unfortunately
there's no moonlight full glow

Yet there is something clattering around on my lawn
is that something shiny, I could for sure of sworn
someone must have it in for me
call security, there's someone in my garden

I press my panic button
and all the lights come on
someones in my garden
and they want to do me wrong


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Steady was the motion
rpm ten fifty five in emotions
let that arrow finish me
on that day in twenty sixty three

They will fly to calm me
some of the brave will try to disarm me
but they know I am from the warrior clan
when the word is said.... all hits the fan

The silent and dead will walk the streets
not one word will be uttered
as in their ruffs of silver
with every fold a pleat to many defeats

Let the swords of honor never die
let light fill my eyes
we and ready and steady and waiting to go
from the darkest days of sweet wind rain sleet and snow


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

We walk parallel lines all the time
both made from the same caste
both are rebellious rebels
I know you are something very special

We do ignite when we are together
flying sparks through the night
my dark side is the neon light
that in your wisdom you preserve

Stars were given the glow adorned
when our life's were giving form
our matrimony will be our glory
with poetry our guide to many stories

How sweet how wonderful
that after many years I have found you
I lay my vast powers at your feet
for honor and dignity, I do keep

You are the spark
you are my jump start
and for you sweet love
I do now show you my vast arts


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Her heart was still beating as she laid there
god, I have taken a bullet or two, three four
but she was a ****** pin down incursion
I told her to get up as I was shot in the face

Ha. she said whose the bleeding ***** now
as she picked some of my brains off the ground
with enemy fire all from every angle
she stood up and fought with the fire fight all around

I sung red rose heartbeat
whist healing fast
she said ..
get up ... you *******

Oh battle how I love her
she is just a machine liken to me
as destruction is everything
the only way we will be free

Dying time is here
and me and her are..
we are ready
so ****** ready

Red Rose Heartbeat
the promise we made
the vow we did take
to our dying day after day

BY Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Standing at the top of the tower
still alive
I try to die so hard
all around me are pills packets I took
yet I still live
I am half past dead
and I am hurting

What will it take to finish me
maybe I will jump from up here
lets try again
pills and whiskey
and jump off from here
let the ground break my fall
that should finish me

Let the viola sing my lament
as I tumble down
please god let it be
please finish me

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

She walked across the cold city
I know she was looking for me
but I hide for I am no good for her
yet deep within me I love her

This is mercy, this is not me
compassion messes with my head
but I do it anyway
don't ask me why

I know if I said I keep myself hidden
who would really believe me
for I wear my heart on my sleeve
and it matters little to me

Soon I will invite poets into my world
please don't be scared of me
I really don't bite
and when all is said and done, I am quite a nice person

I am opening the door
I have kept so closed
just to chat with my fellows
who knows how far will it go

I am just a little boy
women call me a f**k toy
I am so holding back
and it's ****** killing me

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris
© 2011 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

She has the beauty of an Angel
yet her soul is onyx black
she is so hideous , yet perfect
and she would break you on an attack

She was built from a minds eye
created with shields of her father
and giving the gift of flight
for she is majesty, willed to fly

Let the battle begin
for we are so ready
my brothers and sister I loved
so ****** hideous and perfect

Leave the human monkeys alone
the war of all wars begins again
and God knows it will never end
you ******* so hideous and perfect

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
© 2012 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

You are as sweet as Greek honey

finer then then any classic wine

and I will drink slowly from your cup

swimming in your eyes of turquoise skies


This is the starting something so beautiful

beginning of a great love blossoming

time does get me thinking

of how long before I do see you


You make my lips swell

every time I talk to you

my heart does beat strong

always as I do think of you


Let our hearts sing of love

making closer our bodies and souls

to the end of time

a love liken to heaven divine



By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Let love surround me in petals and stars
let them see the light in me
we mean no harm to human kind
all we want is peace on earth

I have seen distractions for too many years
what is the worth of living in lies
oh I pity what you have become
come may,come what might come

Stand fast he tells us
and we do not question faith
for he is love
the light of grace

So I will stand in this barren land
as water hides in deep wells
but by his word
I sing Noel

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

© 2011 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

After all the ticker tape
the cheers and applause
when the curtain closes
you find yourself alone again

Still holding the flowers thrown
you walk back to your dressing room
and there you sit in tears, on your own
the stage a crypt, this room a tomb

The cotton ***** by the bed table are full of blood
they will know you have been at it again
leave those sleepers and breakers
you never needed them to blend in

Clean that sweet face up
some would love to be you
you are someone that can change the world
people will love you without the façade

Close that diary of tears and fears
be that person you are deemed to be
and in conclusion
be the good in you, for all to see

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris