To all the world
All my friends
As I close in
Near the end
A tight rope stretched
Forced to strain
And deep inside
A lake of pain
I drowned the sorrows
Trapt inside
Now all there is left to say
Is.. I'm sorry and goodbye.

Looking down on me
As I go under
This murky water preventing you
From reaching out to me..
Just watch me drown
I understand
I wouldn't want to
Get my dress wet either.

They say actions speak louder than words
Yet words cause emotional injuries
That can never be cured.
You can get roughed up..
But that makes you tough..
If actions do speak louder than words..
Why do words hurt so much..

Don't feel much like talking
Or hanging out at night
Don't feel much like laughing
Pretending everything's alright
Don't feel much like doing anything
But lay awake and wonder why
I work my hands to the bone
And just want to ******* die.

Can no longer stay awake
But sleep is inevitable
There you are again
God please..
Do not ever want to..
Close my eyes again.

Smash through my walls
Like the wrecking ball you are
Leave me open and vulnerable
Allow the world to eat at me
It took so long to *****
That which I was hiding behind
Then through the darkness
I thought I saw a light
I lay my guard down
For just a second
And there you were
A cataclysm of emotions
I thought had died long ago
Plows through my barricades
With no mercy
I close my eyes hoping..
It is all just a mirage
That I am still safe behind
My impenetrable fortress
But nay,
I open my eyes..
And all I ever tried to forget
All I felt.. the memories..
your smile..
Looking around..
Everything I had built..
Lost..
Because I trusted you again
And as you walk away
Here I lay
In a pile of brokenness
Struggling to rebuild
Whats left of my serenity.