I am searching for my heart's content.
I find comfort while I drown in lament.
All the days wasted and the time that's spent.
Keeping my hopes up when it came and went.

Don't keep hanging on just turn and walk away.
What is meant to be will be and happen it's own way.
Yes I've been hurt and the instinct is to retaliate.
But think about the cost its really worth.

It's not worth it to be shallow and cold.
It's not worth it to keep hanging on.
Falling in love is like falling from grace.
The stronger it is the more bitter the taste.

I will not let the things of this world phase me.
Even though the world around me is all I see.
It is what's inside me that I strive to keep.
And to let it grow so I no longer weep.

Everyday for me is an uphill battle.
The stress of everyday makes my soul rattle.
But I have to live with it until the day will come.
And then I can breathe easy and I will not feel numb.

Numb to all the nonsense and looking for something to reach.
When reaching what is inside of me is all I need to teach.
To find my building blocks and build a solid foudation.
And to renew the life inside of me and make a new creation

Innocence seems like a thing of the past
Nowadays it makes you look like an outcast
Needing to search for things that are pure
Obstacles get in the way that's for sure
Connecting the dots to a much simpler life
Every attempt to break away from the strife
New life blooms deep down inside of my heart
Creating a waterfall not knowing where to start
Eleveating to a level that you can never part

Heavy on me is the burden I have carried.
Every circumstance and situation has varied.
After all the hurt and pain has subsided.
Rendering together my heart that was divided.
Trouble always has a way of finding me.
Over every obstacle that was binding me.
Freedom of the heart is achieved through the pain.
So you can keep from going down that road again.
Today will be a good day and everyday from here.
Obliterating negativity and peace now becomes clear.
Never to go down the path that brings the hurt.
Ending in the complacency that brings rebirth.

The devil's hand is heavy on me.
My head's underwater and I can't breathe.
He's raiding my mind and making it bleed.
Please pray for me in my time of need.

I don't wanna give you the wrong impression.
I just need somebody to talk to.
I am in need of a spiritual lesson.
To make the Creator my only obsession.

To let him speak to you.
To let him speak through you.
That's the way he wants it to be.
That is how you set your soul free.

I am overflowing with emotion.
This hole in me is as big as the ocean.
Lord I give it all to you the truth be told.
You're my only hope, the River of my soul.

It's clear to me that I can't depend on myself.
When I make my own plans they always fall through.
I get the wrong kind of Idea and the colors turn blue.
And it consumes me until nothing else is true.

I need to be patient and not to rush things.
For the devil is always seeking to destroy it.
But I'm on the right path and there's no turning back.
To fill my heart with love and grace and never to lack.

I'm now learning not to live with a heavy heart.
To nail it to the cross and make a new start.
It's only the beginning no need to fall apart.
To take a new step in the quest of my heart.

My feelings for you have never changed.
After all these years they remain the same.
When we met I was in the midst of my storm.
But I will be patient in this time of reform.

I have to be strong because my heart is at stake.
I will hold my hand out as long as it takes.
To have you back one day I will always stay true.
In this whole wide world there is only one you.

Life
She was For Me
Even Before
It Began
She Knew
And Had Decided Her Victor
It was Love
Married to Truth
Handed to Her Daughter
Life Married To Beauty
For No Other Life Could Hold the Flame Higher
Or The Cross Bolder
Than The One who
Could Say NO
And Mean It From The Place of Goodness
No Internal Transformation
Into The Song Yes
Was This
BUT A Power Based NO
So
GOOD
AND so Powerful
THAT all the World
Had to Stop and Wonder at its White Insistence
So Bold
It Would Blacken Itself for The Black Flame
So the Black  Could Know
Itself as Good
So Powerful
It Would Turn Itself To Ruby Red
So The Red Flame Would Know
Itself as Good
So Powerful It Would Turn Itself Clear
So The Clear Flame Would Know itself as Beautiful
So Powerful
It Became Just What It Always Desired
Truth
Beautiful and Loving Upon  All Time and Space
It  flew White
And Red White and Blue
And Rainbow
Powerful and Beautiful
It Would
Look out and Sing To All the Others
Look at How Well You've Done
And How Beautiful
Look!
A Party is  Coming
To Our Home to See Us
A Good Man
God's Man
So Good is Hos Majesty
He Is Lifeless in His Essence
His Commitment To Faith on Earth
as Love and Freedom
Blessing
He Will want to know
And We will have to be Clean
very Clean
Before then