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Fry Oct 2020
Is a simple sorry
Supposed to fix
The month of no words
From someone who was meant to be
Family
Fry Oct 2020
I just want to cry
While you hold me
Fry Oct 2020
Hi grandma
I do miss you
And I’m sorry
I should have
Picked up the
Phone
Fry Oct 2020
Everyday I see her or think of her I think of all the horrible things she’s done in our lives
But the one that sticks out always is my mom
Screaming ****** ****** at him and throwing a fork into the door
As he closed it trying to run away
Every morning waking up and seeing the fork still there
And my brother still gone
For a while not knowing where he was
Till I found out he was safe at my Grammys
One day the fork was gone and my brother eventually came back
He always came back to make sure I was okay
But the dent in the door even on good days I’d still look at it and not be able to move on from that day
I had seen my mom hit him
I seen her call him a *******
Yell at him
But never feel so angry
At the child she chose to have
That she willing to hurt him
In a way that would affect more than a few days
Her bruises are easy to hide
“I easily bruise”
“I get random bruises from running into things”
We could make up so many excuses
Stay there as her shinny trophies
On the stage next to her
Ready to preform in all her shows
Everyone remembers us as the best kids but he was always the one brushed off
He reached his age limit
I was still young enough to be the trophy to walk around with
The perfect kid
Who listened and stayed at attention always
Ready for your every command
Even at that age it felt wrong but I couldn’t  understand why
As I got older people grew up around few got glimpses at who she was trying to hide
The demon that she’s let take control
Most ignored some slowly distance
Now there people I can’t remember the names of
My mom would be proud of me for that
Some stuck around picked up on details and painted a picture showing exactly what that demon is
They were left behind
Never aloud to contact us again
Now her veil is gone the few staying close
Are the ones I fear
She thinks she can bring back the old friends but she forgets she now has someone pulling puppet strings
Or maybe this is truly who she’s always been
I just like to think I had it better before the day the fork hit that door
Fry Oct 2020
The numbers increase but my image has gone down
Five...from how close I was before
Ten...from my goal
Maybe it’s meant to be this way
Maybe I’m meant to feel this way
There’s seems to be no options
What else can I do
...
No one will ever respond
Fry Oct 2020
Why did I let those words
Pour out of my mouth
You didn’t want to hear them
You didn’t want to know that story
Yet I couldn’t stop telling you
I never got to tell anyone that
Sorry I forced you to listen
But thank you
It may seem small
But I had to tell someone
Fry Oct 2020
A familiar topic
Sewed into the fabric of our family
I knew it ran through me
Yet I never thought
You would be the cause
I let you do this to me
I can’t keep blaming you
No matter if you pressured me
I chose to take those sips
I chose to let you control me
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