Discarded like it was hers to give
Something that could never die
Even if we never spoke again
I don't want to leave it
That would mean
I could never have you with me again
I know I ended it
And you weren't healthy
But I just miss you
Maybe it's cause I deserve the toxic waste
You will bring
But I just feel like I need to make sure your
Okay

It's killing me to see you this way
All I can think is ways to fix it
To help go back to the old ways
So you are the same as before
It's crazy
A few numbers can change
Your whole opinion
On me

I was the special one to you
It didn't matter who you were
I was just happy to be your rose
Received by random chance
But now I'm wilted
No longer Being watered

White clouds filling the room
I blame you for what you did
Filling yourself with ecstasy
The same way
With substances
Why is it different when I do it?

That's all I want
A world manipulated
By the red dye of rose petals
Falling off the last
Flower

That question you asked me
Now ponders in my mind
Is it my fault
Or is it something in my head
I try not to question it
But it feels like your pulling away
If you are
I understand