It’s too full
Thirty eight hours
The record
My personal best
Why can’t I run that race anymore?

Your the one person who is supposed to always give me it
From the beginning all the way to the end
Why am I looking in other places?
I create ways to cope
Your love is absent
So that means my food has to be
Your love is like a knife in my chest
So that means i have to bring a blade to my arm
Your love is so painful
Because it is never there
You only play theater when others are around

Across the country
There is a safe haven there
No one can hurt us there
You said
I should have never believed you
There may be a war happening
At home
But you are killing me in silence

One word misspoken
Leads to bruises that never heal
Yes it's no longer purple
But my mind still flashbacks to that day
You promised to never touch me
But now make me forgive you
For it being harder than you meant
That never takes away from the
Bruise you still created