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Feb 2014 CG

Would I Be Better Off?

Feb 2014 CG

Katrina Wendt

Would I Be Better Off?

You know
I think if I could make myself not love you
I might
But I might not
And I don’t know which would be worse

2014

Feb 2014 CG

PARANOID

Feb 2014 CG

aviisevil

PARANOID

Time stands still as the approaching footsteps cut through the quietness
She stands in the corner ,  her every part now drenched in darkness

Every thought that crosses her mind is now decayed and rotten
Every door that stands between 'her' and 'them' is now broken

She can even hear them whisper but the words are lost over her heart beat
How could she be so careless , she knew better to not fall asleep

She knows they want her and they're just waiting for the right time
Nobody else can see them but she knows its not just in her mind

She knows better to not trust anyone , everyone else is blind
They took them all away , anyone that left her behind

She waits now , silently , for them to come near and show their face
She's changed now , slowly , in the mirror there's a smile on her face

__

"i think someone is watching over us"
-no there's no one in the room love
"i can feel them lurking in the shadow"
-i don't think so, every door is shut
" i had a bad dream last night"
-did you take your pills on time?
"i couldn't see their faces in moonlight"
-don't worry , everything's 'gonna be fine
"and the front door was left open"
-was that a part of your dream too?
"every picture frame was broken"
-are you sure , it wasn't you ?
"i know it wasn't just a dream"
-but there's no broken frame anywhere
"I'm sure of what I've seen "
-there must be something some where
"i know you don't believe me"
-i want to but i know its all in your mind
"i know they can see me"
-but there's 'gotta be some sign
"its right there but you can't see"
-I've to leave I'm running late
"you know , we can never be free"
-have to increase the dose you take
"so you're 'gonna leave me alone"
-there's no one here , it'll be alright
"I'm so scared of the unknown"
-I'll be back before the night
"don't leave me , they'll **** me"
-stop being so paranoid
"come here , be with me "
-hush now , just be quite

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"they came for me last night"
-I'm sorry i had to stay back
"are you even listening to me"
-i think you've gone mad
"please, believe me , all i say is true"
-i can't live in these lies
"oh , now they want you too"
-what's happening to your eyes?
"i can't let them have you"
-oh , just stop it NOW
"you love me , don't you?"
-I'm not really sure now
"i thought you will trust me"
-i tried but it's now out of control
"please, be with me  , help me"
- you know what , I'm not sure
"I'm so scared , don't leave"
-you're just  insane
"so you don't believe"
- can't play your games
"i can't let you go"
-stop being a freak
"there's too much you know"
-yeah I'll tell them all that you're a freak
" come , i want to show you something"
-no,i really don't want to see
"for the last time "

".....than you can leave"

___

"do you like my new friend?"
-STAY AWAY FROM ME
"see how sharp it is at the end "
-DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH ME
"i can let you go , its not safe"
-PLEASE...i'm sorry...just let me go
"don't worry , have faith"
-they'll know it was you , THEY'LL KNOW!
"I don't care , i'm doing this for you"
-PLEASE, YOU DON'T HAVE TO
"I cant let them feed on you too"
-we'll run away , somewhere new
"oh , do you think they won't find us?"
-PLEASE, I'm so scared
"nothing will ever be enough"
- DONT COME NEAR , don't you dare
"and what is that you will do,if I do?"
-I don't know, just don't
"I can't let them take away you too"
-PLEASE, I WON'T
"they'll never have you , you're mine"
-PLEASE, PUT IT DOWN
"they're coming, don't have much time"
-are you 'gonna **** me now ?

-i know , you're 'gonna **** me

"stop being so paranoid "

-GET AWAY FROM ME

"hush now , be quite".

Notes (optional)

Jan 2014 CG

Timid

Jan 2014 CG

Daniel Kenneth

Timid

Pleasant surprises never come to me and
Pessimism is how I learned to survive
So forgive me if I show doubt my darling
I haven't felt this happy for a very long time

Jan 2014 CG

here's why

Jan 2014 CG

T Stevens

here's why

Good morning gorgeous!

You asked me why I broke up with her.
I've been thinking about what to say without sounding
like a disrespectful ****.
Like you I've discovered it's easier to figure it out
if you write it down.
You're seeking and respect honesty so here goes.
I could not get you out of my head yesterday
and went to bed thinking about you last night.
I watched Tyson peck at the wood branch in his cage.
He bit me like the one he's named after bit Holyfield.
He loses interest in toys I buy him in minutes.
Reminds me of my ex she was the same way.
She never listened when I spoke and it was like I never did.
I lost patience with her due to her always being late.
Last time I took her out she was an hour late
with no good reason but couldn't decide what to wear.
She was adult but felt like I was involved with a immature kid.
Plus she's impulsive in a bad way.
She used the cards I let her use for emergencies
to gamble online, bought online and hid what she didn't need
and took her friends who were immature like her
out on the town at my expense.
Drove me nuts because she had difficulty paying attention.
Sometimes love isn't enough to over come her kind
of deafness or her thinking it fun to put aluminum
foil in microwaves.
She was the queen of drama and procrastination.
Her place was always disorderly and she swore to me
when we met she was a neat freak.
I don't mind a little daily life messes it happens.
Her chronic lateness made it a last straw.
On the night I was to introduce to my folks
she was late and they left my home without meeting her.
It's been over two years since I ended the misery
of her in my life but she's still bitter.
Unlike you she's stuck in hate mode and will
be there until someone else buys her
lies and manipulations.
Could say more but I believe you will
see the full picture.

I wrote this for you Betty Ponder.
I know you know it's about you. : )

Jan 2014 CG

Dark Blue Eyes

Jan 2014 CG

Sir B

Dark Blue Eyes

Today.
I looked into some
Crystal clear blue eyes
Yes. They did remind me of you
But I decided not to dwell on that

And.. I have also realized that
Loving someone..
Isn't the same
I realize that you read
These well-penned verses
But, you are missing the point
These aren't all of my emotions.

just...
Most of them.

This is driving me crazy, even before it started. Knew it would be a failed plan either ways, I think i have a good relationship with failing and doing things the are proclaimed impossible and un-do-able

Jan 2014 CG

Something Like Nostalgia

Jan 2014 CG

Abbigail

Something Like Nostalgia

How I adore your nerve
when you kissed me in your closet upon sheets made of legos
and all of your childhood dreams.
How easy I am for you to draw when you play on stage the song that you wrote me,
The one that feels like rock climbing by the river,
Like naps in the summer when I drool on your chest and you don't mind,
Like kissing you until the very last minute of my curfew,
only to break it for the miracle that is your lips.
How alluring is your breath on my neck,
Your voice in my ear when you told me that you loved me
and you didn't stop smiling,
even as the years went by and I did.
How I craved, longed, begged for time to be still
the time you took me to the highest hill you could drive to,
You called it my mountain.
"At first, you look at it and it's so small,
but once you notice it, it's all you can see," you said.
How my stomach floods with waves of nostalgia and a taste
of everything I've ever had to live without,
With complete and utter spell-binded devotion at the simple familiarity
of your smell.
How addicted I am to your laugh when you're happy and
the mastered impression you do of your mom.
How weak I am to your intellect and your appreciation of literature
and real music,
Your enthusiasm for art and the "name that note" game you force upon me
as you stumble onto the classical radio station.
How in love I am with your romance that is as childish as my attachment
to my baby blankie and my mother's childhood walrus that you never ceased to insult.
Our pajama day that we decided over our prom,
When we turned on John Mayer and slow danced in your room.
Your idea of a date consisted of fake wine and me.
How incredibly warm are the coldest of nights,
On the side of your dirt road as we lie in the snow that is too cold for comfort,
yet holds us there with the fear that one day will not look the same as this one
and I would bear any amount of cold winter to keep one more moment of yours.
How I cherish the way you latch my pinky with yours when we walk
And the face you don't know you make when you play guitar.
The rooftop where you kissed me for the very first time and the string rings
we wore to remind each other we were still there.
How incredibly and unfortunately devout I am to all that I remember of you.

Jan 2014 CG

Seduction

Jan 2014 CG

shaffenstein

Seduction

Libidos high,
Thigh to thigh,
Fingers intertwined.
*******,
Perfection,
Under clothes we slide.
Quick to breathe,
Meeting sheets
As we depart from our chairs.
Nearly starved,
Back arched,
Hands pulling hair.
Sweet memory,
Reverie:
You all over me.
Quick kiss
To the hips,
Devour my body.
Make it ache,
Earthquake,
Start to tremble with lust.
Naked breast
On your chest,
Tick tock--COMBUST.
Rise higher,
Entice her,
****** desire.
Take me,
Embrace me,
A lover's empire.
Tongue to tongue,
Move as one,
Tangled forms we grasp.
Seduction,
Eruption
Sweet lovers' ******.

Jan 2014 CG

anxiety

Jan 2014 CG

kt

anxiety

it's the pain in the gut of my stomach
like maybe i should say something
but i'm better off if i stay quiet.
it's the burning sensation in my throat
like i'm about to choke up and i need
to swallow before the tears come.
it's the way my hands lose grip
because i get so nervous around people
and i constantly need to wipe them.
it's the fear of going out with friends
because they're probably not laughing
at me but they probably are.

Jan 2014 CG

silver lined glass.

Jan 2014 CG

Heather

silver lined glass.

Her back like a sunset sitting crouched in a cold tub,
terrified and disillusioned. I watch her from the doorway,
unable to paint over her purples, yellows, and blues.
I watch her trembling deer legs tumble over the linoleum
and all I can think of is that last thing he said to her as
she slipped away.

"How could we have disappointed each other this much?"

I was there, watching her petals wilt, her body slipping into
a vase for him every night in the bar as he looked at a simpering
Los Angeles girl over his beer glass.

Sometimes love comes in like the roll of a fresh spring breeze
over a mountain, sometimes it's like a knife twisting in your
gut, but sometimes love can make you believe he's worth
tearing yourself up.

I pulled her up from the bathtub, crumpled and wilted and tired
and heartbroken. I brushed away the tears and smudged eyes,
and let California's sunshine shimmer on her skin, I opened
all the windows in the world for her,

just to let the right love in, to sweep up the insecurities,
and only leave strength in its place,

and as she tried to thank me, I put my hand on her
heart and said, "You've got two eyes, two legs, two arms,
but only one heart. And someone out there has the pair."
I held her hand to my heart, "But that pair will stop beating
then moment you let yours stop."

And I watched her wash her face, and heal the bruises,
her smile returned and wobbled, and finally I stopped
looking into mirrors to remember what pounded so steadily
and so strongly in my chest.

Jan 2014 CG

Just tell me you'll face the world with me and I think I will be alright.

Jan 2014 CG

The Masked Sleepyz

Just tell me you'll face the world with me and I think I will be alright.

Bathed in darkness and blue light from the monitor,
I realized I loved you,
danced with the black and integrated in ink,
I realized I loved you,
it wasnt until tonight when I say on my bed,
I realized I loved you,
when I held my breath during every pause,
I realized I loved you,
you are far away, but I watch the moon as you do and at that moment,
I realized I loved you,
I wanted to say it to you but the words slink and slide like my tongue has turned to sand,
I realized I loved you,
holding hands with my own fate and accepting the fact it happened,
I realized I loved you,
and I am alright with that.

I am not much of a pros or repeating one line guy but I thought I would give it a try...I havnt een on so I will try to catch up to everyone's badssery that I have missed! I hope you, my dear reader, enjoy this poem.