among the terrible things
whilst not breathing and taking breaks to cry in my car
which doesn’t even exist anymore
you stopped to look hard into my eyes
you stopped and stared right into my soul
i swear in that moment, you could read every thought in my mind
you could hear every song that swept through my ears
not sure what it is that captivates me about you, but maybe i won’t ever tell you
maybe you’re my favorite distraction
maybe you’re my favorite daydream
maybe you’ve caught wind of some ****** up heart strings and decided to leap into a bright eyed mess
but for now, something for you, because you’re making me smile a little bigger
maybe you’re a secret in my mind
maybe you’re the highlight of my month
maybe i’ll never tell you but for now
this will do

your words make me smile bigger and harder than anyone else ever has; i love you and i hope you don't forget that
among the christmas lights, i must confess that on most nights the twinkles only remind me more of how grey everything can be
but when you're by my side... i don't think about anything like that

you are the smooth whispering sound of every vinyl i own
you are the sun on the snow
you are the light that makes my plants grow and all of my cliches don't feel so plastic and packaged as they did with everyone else

when you aren't home, there are days that are just a little to hard to keep going. days when my bed keeps me in its arms.
i heave a deep sigh and you ask me repeatedly what is on my mind,
i have to refrain from keeping the melancholy slipping between my teeth because i hate to bring you down.
i tell you the best thing on my mind: that throughout all of the troubling times this year has brought us, i am the most lucky person in the world to have you by my side.