Father, you left me,
Drove away without a thought,
And a small part of me died,
While my tears would not stop.

Questioned what was wrong,
With me, or with my appearance,
As I thought was I not handsome,
Was I not smart enough for you?

Maybe if I had been taller,
Or, if I had had some special talent,
You might have hesitated some,
Before you left me in the dark.

Maybe, if I had more friends,
Or had been more helpful to you,
You might have stopped and then,
Shut the car off and stayed longer.

Had to now prove always,
That I was loveable,
I was someone who needed,
To be important to others.

Went the extra mile,
When others didn't,
Tried so very hard and hard,
To be wanted and loved.

Father, you left me long ago,
As if I was insignificant and nothing,
And I, still trying to be wanted and loved,
Work harder than the others ever will.

Walked past life on my way to immortality,
Caught a glimpse of humanity along the way,
Staring directly into my mind and soul,
While I stumbled and fell and lost direction.

Got on board the eternal train to nirvana,
Held on tightly, hoping that I could find,
Another town, another face more friendly,
A place to rest my weary bones and heart.

Isn't this what we call living, being in the world,
Knowing our essense and finding where it belongs?
If we are all matter broken into a billion specks of light,
How do we know when we have finally reached the pinnacle?

Got off that spiritual train and started walking,
Stepping slowly onto the ground of knowledge,
Swinging my elongated body into lifetime motion,
Going faster and faster as my steps would allow.

Made it to a plateau where the grass seemed greener,
Looked up at the brightest, bluest sky you could find,
Breathed in the air, so clean and fresh to consume,
And asked is this where I am supposed to be?

hello

                                    is anyone still listening?

                                             if you are there,
                          
                                         then let me know,

                                    and we will have a cosmic party

                                   sound ok, then let's get started

                                                   hello

Someone said my monkey's dead,
But confusion hit their head,
Made them think that this is true,
I'm in a funk, what can I do?

Then they soon told my neighbors, yes,
Put my monkey to the test,
Called the papers just long enough to say,
Yes, my monkey ran away.

I searched high, and I searched low,
Dropped a rock upon my toe,
Hit my head on a doorway hard,
Couldn't find my monkey in the yard.

Traveled to the mountains nearby,
Looking for monkey made me cry,
Saw the clouds come floating by,
A speck of dirt flew in my eye.

Checked the traveling circus troup,
For details on missing monkey scoup,
Learned that he had traveled through,
What am I supposed to do?

Boarded a boat set for the Indian Ocean,
Got sea sick from the crazy motion,
Tried to eat, but it all came up,
Couldn't drink the swirl in my cup.

Once in Africa, deep in the jungle,
Searched for monkey and took a tumble,
Found a panther hiding in the bush,
Felt flat hard upon my ****.

So, no monkey, not anywhere,
Does the world so truly care?
Waited patiently in a Star Bucks shop,
In came monkey and my coffee I dropped.

Called him by his first name, Charles,
Saw him stare and then he snarled,
Ran so fast for the door, he did,
What a silly and audacious kid.

Ran pursuit down a cobbled stone road,
Saw my monkey drop his precious load,
Screamed at him to stop and say,
Where he goes on this very day.

When my breath was heavily panting,
Stopped my call and my ranting,
Figured if he so desperately was going,
No more to care and no more knowing.

Monkey, monkey where are you?
Are you hiding in the zoo?
Will you ever be around?
You're a silly, slippery clown.

they came to **** the silent ones
to carve their ugly piece of history
   to stab the soul of our humanity
    until no glimpse of life remained

who came like thieves in the night
  to pull the covers off worldy beds
   to hurl their misery like atomic fall out
     until we all knew now we were dead

where paper defenses stood not the time
  the innocent lamented with no support
   and blood flowed endless down the streets
     until no life was left to bleed

they came dressed in their business suits
  had technological manners in things they said
    and masses of people fell fast in the line
     for hidden agendas too soon to know

and then before the world took notice
they left behind a world in ruins
  and spots of life were left buried deep
   within the lost ones crying out in pain

they came and cursed all that of divinity
held close to heart the one in Hell,
  and ripped apart the humanity fabric
    till tears of acid fell from darkened faces

but one who stood the test of time
  the one who died for all to live
   rose up and called for a heavenly father
    who split the clouds and rained down hope

the ones dressed smartly in a devils design
screamed out for mercy, but none to find
  and a man and women came forth to witness
    that once again our spirits soared

in this harsh ending there came a light
that shown so bright our eyes could see
   and everyday a new beginning
    from ash into eternal destiny

Good night sweet prince,
The motions of the day are done,
It is the time when this or that,
Are placed into the memory vault.

The morning magically appeared,
You sang the song and ran to find,
That half the day was stolen away,
By time you knew the afternoon sun.

You shook your head mystified,
When all at once the wall clock said,
You better pack up and homeward go,
Before the traffic makes you mad.

And so, you eat your dinner last,
Again stare blindly at the tube,
The news is shocking and boring, too,
When it is time to tuck yourself away.

So sweet prince do not lament the time,
Because the morning will soon arrive,
And on the treadmill you again resume,
To sing the song you've  yet to find.

One last time, I hold your hand,
Knowing that tomorrow will never come,
I've given all a man can reasonably give,
But you are lost into another time and place.

There were the days when we did laugh as one,
When everything seemed so fresh and new,
When I could feel you breathe the life into me,
And I was proud to tell the others you were mine.

But sometimes others darkened swift our lives,
Told lies and led deceptive forces to destroy,
Then after all was left were memories no longer real,
And someone cried and carried such an empty  heart.

When I awoke and no longer felt  your body warm,
Or, smelled the sweetness that is all but only you,
My world spinned manic  out of cosmic control,
With tears that fell like others a million times  before.

So, one last time, please let me hold your hand,
And say the words that meant so much to me,
To gaze upon your face and altered countenance so,
While you walk swiftly unto another we both know.