I saw you



but just pretended



that I did not.

You sometimes think
you're the best,
Too bad you do not know,
How long you still have to run,
How long you must still go.

You boast, too proud,
Your big mouth eats yourself
Feeling the best among the others,
outstanding among the rest.

One day you went to a battle,
Unprepared but confident,
For you think you can handle
Any kind of events.

But now that you have suffered,
I hope the lessons you have learned.
You still have a long way to go,
Still a long way to go.

You're the understudy,
waiting to be the star
who'd shine brightly
like the original main character.

You wait at the backstage,
Chanting the lines with her,
As she performs in the theater
Where she's being adored.

But one day, if you keep
on dreaming,
The spotlight would be yours,
Just keep on believing
The spotlight would be yours.

It's odd and messy,
So colorful but did not compliment.
You spent sleepless nights
Just to finish this work of art.
You made this for our anniversary,
And yet, I joked around and
laughed at it 'cause it's so different,
too colorful and kinda weird.
Then, I gave you my sweetest
'thank you' kiss. :)

I'm your friend,
(not special)
but everyday I'm with you.

I've got few minutes left,



and my clock went dead.

You asked me a question,
I kept silent for seconds,
Thinking what to answer,
My ears rang again.

My heart beat faster,
You asked this question before,
And my answer was a lie,
Yes, I lied.

Your voice, it's calm but cold,
Wishing to hear the truth that's untold.

My tears, they're about to burst,
When you made me feel like
you wanna be quenched from thirst,
Thirst from the truth and of the reasons untold,
With this you told me you'll be consoled.

I lie,
I lied
and still I have to lie.
For I know, the truth will have your heart die.
But the thing is I don't remember
What I answered you the last time.

If I'll keep silent for a very long time,
I know you'll be wondering why.
But, if I'll speak, what if
I'll tell you stuffs that won't coincide
To the the reasons I told you
from the last time?

I was almost dead,
I'm dead and
I will be dead,
If truth would be uttered out of my mouth,
'cause I know you can't bare what you'll hear,
And would decide to leave me just as I fear.



I spoke, and again, I lied.