As he waits for the school bell to ring
He counts from ten down to one.
Looking at the clock near the widow pane
Excitedly he fixes his stuffs on his side.

He then grabs his backpack when clock strikes five
And hastily runs at the corridor side
To wait for the angel of his life
Who he secretly fantasizes in the inside.

At the moment he hears the door creek,
He fixes himself and lean on the red brick
To have a glance on the beautiful chick
That he got attracted to since last 7 weeks.

Down to earth his heart melts
With the stunning beauty of his angel
And the smile, that beautiful smile of hers
Brought himself in the paradise he longed for a long time.

But one day, on the same place
and at the same time,
The angel of his dreams did not appear before his eyes,
And that made him wonder why
His angel is out of his sight.

He waited for a couple of hours,
But, she, never he'd seen,
He decided to go home,
He just went home.

But while on his way he passed by a store,
Went inside and bought a drink,
Shocked as he is, he began to cry,
When he saw the dead person's picture on the
newspaper's headline.




She truly became an angel in another life...

You carry him in your arms,
Giving love and protection.
Everyday you give him warmth,
both of you have great relation.
You show him concern that
you never showed to me,
My ego was touched by my
awakened jealousy.

Is he that important to you
for you to abandon me?
Why mother, am I not enough?
Everyday of my life I'm
suffering from the agony
Because of that dog of yours
who's more valuable than me.

Looking at the picture we took in Bohol
15 years ago, I was still 3years old and you were 5.
We were still cute little children
who raised our brows while looking at
the opposite direction, with hands crossed
and avoiding each other.

You were wearing your blue t-shirt
that I've hated for the entire year
'cause you always brag at me how
your mama forcibly bought it for you.
I just got jealous though 'cause when I did what you did,
my mama didn't fall for it.

But then again we were cute little children
who hated each other, who argued all the time
especially when our kindergarten teacher
made us paint different objects everyday
with you as my partner.

Those moments, when we were still children,
this picture, makes my face painted with
the unforgettable smile right now.

This time, we took a picture again,
But a different one from before.
This time, we stayed closer, given our best shot
and showed the most beautiful smile we could
ever show.
This time, your arms are around my shoulders
and my head is leaning on yours.
This time, the hate has faded and is replaced with
love, love and only love.

And comparing these two pictures
from our childhood stage
and teenage stage makes me realize that
the best enemies could also become
the best lovers in the end.

Two organs,
both delicate and important,
they're best friends,
and both are good advisers.
But when it comes to love,
both are best enemies,
for brain always wants to leave
but the heart always wants to love.

Heart pumps blood to brain,
Brain sends impulses to the heart,
both co-function,
and yet, have different reactions.

She's more confused now,
"Which to follow?"
she always asks,
but she ends up always being ambiguous,
for knowing that she must leave him
but feeling that she loves him even more.

Later, brain would seem to be overpowered by heart
'cause though brain is the commander,
the heart always has something in it
that's hard to resist even how much neurons
is sent by the brain to feel the opposite.

And when she's unable to control,
both important organs
will be damaged,
and then she loses it all.

Man,
I gave you my heart.











You just br ke it.
                  o

You strum the guitar strings,


                             but they just got broken.

I was lured by the
enchanting words you told me;
you're a great tamer.

I trusted quickly
And I got fell in your trap;
I could not escape.

Now that I'm captured
I do not know what to do;
'cause I fell in love.

And I hate myself
for being in love with you;
she's the one you love.

Nothing makes me feel more secured with your loving embrace.

You bit me several times,
to give pleasure to yourself.
I always think for many
reasons, but I always ended
up with a blank stare.

I tried to escape and hide
from you, but my heart
always tells me, I must stay.

It's the battle between my heart
and my brain.
Which should I follow?

What a stupid question!

Yes, I'm so **** and stupid
'cause I know I have to
get going and run as fast
as I could since I still have
my chance to do so.

I must save myself
and forever let you go.

I saw you



but just pretended



that I did not.

Help me I'm


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IN LOVE..



Will you catch me?

We're fighting today.




                            I ain't scared anyway.





'cause tomorrow, I know, we'll surely be okay.. :D

You ran so fast
And disappeared right before my eyes
I searched for you,
But ended up finding nobody.

My heart desired a heart that loves,
a heart that cares more than a lust,
It didn't care of a happy start,
My heart's a filthy, selfish heart.

It takes and breaks someone else's dream
It binds the shadows,
It makes you scream,
My heart is wicked, dark and stingy,
My heart's a filthy, selfish heart.

It steals, it breaks, it makes you cry
It destroys relationship,
It makes you die
Just to get what it desires
My heart's a filthy, selfish heart.

I                 j umped
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To follow the footsteps of you.

Protected in the shadows
A flower so beautiful is hidden
Became dry and withered,
The flower is dying out of love.
The sunshine who can't reach his love,
Keeps on searching from up above,
But the flower could no longer bloom,
Taken away from the one she loves
Forever she's doomed.

A song always plays on my mind,
But I forgot the melody of it
Only the lyrics stayed behind
And I feels so weird about it.

It doesn't happen all the time,
This even is the first time.

I kept on pressing the piano's keys,
Hoping that I'd hit the right notes,
But I still failed, I failed.

Then I tried to play on the guitar,
But it got worse, it's even harder
than what I thought.

But God knows I once heard of this song,
From a lover I knew for so long,
But I just forgot the melody,
I could not remember,
It's now buried in my forgotten memory.

I'll just play another song.

I'm your friend,
(not special)
but everyday I'm with you.

Your hair is white now
and your skin, it's getting dry and wrinkled
but for me, your still the most beautiful woman,
grandmother.

Your bones are brittle now,
and your joints, they're aching,
but for me, your still the strongest woman,
grandmother.

Your ears can't hear now,
and your eyes, they're no longer 20/20 in visual acuity,
but for me, your still the best listener
and the best person who sees and understands my true feelings,
grandmother.

Yes you're old now,
and your days are almost up,
but for me, you're still young and would eternally live
in my heart forver,
grandmother.

I love you!

His heart was full of anger,
ravaging his calm and kind thoughts
for what he saw in the night sky
was indeed a painful disaster.

The roses in his hands,
they're as red as the blood
that stained on his perfumed t-shirt
when he squeezed the rose's thorns.

His lover, he saw from afar,
locked lips passionately with another man.
It was their anniversary, their third to be exact,
and his whole world was doomed.

He walked toward them,
about to punch the guy.
However, a familiar voice called
his name from behind.

He turned around with tears on
his eyes;

yes, that was her,
his lover..
The twin sister of the woman
he saw awhile ago.

I went out to look for stars



                                              but...



­...it rained.

You asked me a question,
I kept silent for seconds,
Thinking what to answer,
My ears rang again.

My heart beat faster,
You asked this question before,
And my answer was a lie,
Yes, I lied.

Your voice, it's calm but cold,
Wishing to hear the truth that's untold.

My tears, they're about to burst,
When you made me feel like
you wanna be quenched from thirst,
Thirst from the truth and of the reasons untold,
With this you told me you'll be consoled.

I lie,
I lied
and still I have to lie.
For I know, the truth will have your heart die.
But the thing is I don't remember
What I answered you the last time.

If I'll keep silent for a very long time,
I know you'll be wondering why.
But, if I'll speak, what if
I'll tell you stuffs that won't coincide
To the the reasons I told you
from the last time?

I was almost dead,
I'm dead and
I will be dead,
If truth would be uttered out of my mouth,
'cause I know you can't bare what you'll hear,
And would decide to leave me just as I fear.



I spoke, and again, I lied.

Your power consumes
the weakness inside of me;
in your eyes I melt.

Your sweetness attracts
the hidden feelings I keep;
I'm losing control.

Today is the day
my love for you awakens;
Now, I'll give my all.

Each day I listen to the
songs in my playlist,
But all I could ever think of is you.

And everytime I eat in my favorite
restaurant, still I'm reminded of you.

Every corner of the street,
even inside my house and in my room,
still memories of you remain.

I've no escape.
Your memory haunts me.
And everyday is like a hell...

I now realized,
I can't really live without you!

He tells me to do this and to do that,
I follow his orders no matter how fool I become
I just can't let my body follow my brain,
It's like a string is attached in every part of my body,
And he becomes the ruler of my entire movements.

He tells me to do this and do that,
No matter how hard it is for me,
I have no choice, I just do my part.

But freedom
is what I shout!
Freedom
is what I want!

As you can see, there are no marks in my body,
No evidences that I've been ******* with strings,
No evidences that I've been controlled by my puppeteer.

But why can't I say no to his commands,
Why can't I not follow everything he says?

As you can see
I have body like yours,
As you can hear,
I have a voice echoing in this place like yours
And as you can feel in my chest,
I have a heart that beats like yours.

Am I puppet?
( no )
I'm not a puppet,
I am a human!

But if I'm not,
maybe I'm just a puppet trapped in a human's soul.

When I stole your heart
I didn't wish to return it;
forever it's mine.

Fill me;
I'm thirsty for your love.

Fly me;
I wanna reach the skies above.

Kiss me;
I wanna feel your lips.

Love me;
It's my ever long - time wish.

Stay with me;
I'd be lost without you.

Take me;
Anywhere you wanna go, I want to be with you.

Just make me yours;
And I'll give everything,
my everything to you,
to you only and
no one else but you.

A cool breeze blowing,
Our love overflowing
On the heat of the fire
beside the fireplace
We share our
comforting embrace.

A long time I waited,
At last you're here,
Giving me the love
I longed for so long,
Putting a melody to
a long - forgotten song.

We danced under
the moonlight,
With the beautiful
rhythm of the nature,
I feel so happy everyday
and every night,
'cause you're already
here by my side.

But why does it have
to end like this?
I wish I never would
wake up,
'cause this is the only time
I could feel you again,
My long - lost lover,
I'm awake again.









I woke up.

Suppressing the truth,
leaving everything to the unconscious mind,
I still lay on the bed by your side,
continued losing my dignity, hopes and dreams,
I stay beside you just to make a living.

Sacrificing my own happiness,
still managing to make a smile,
when I'm with you, I hold back my tears,
just to make you satisfied,
I fulfill your wish.

Killing myself and losing everything,
You clench my neck, I choke to death,
I grasp for air to make a living,
I **** myself to survive.

You're afraid to commit mistakes,
afraid to be corrected.
That's why until now you're still
a flower that never had bloomed.

You have the potential and a bright future
But you're ashamed to show the world
The gift you have inside of you,
You're being so absurd.

You're supposed to become a beautiful flower
That others would want to pick,
But it's just that you don't utter
The words you wanna speak.

Do you want to stay like that forever?
A flower that doesn't bloom.
You're still young and clever,
Don't make yourself doomed.

Reveal to the world who you really are
And you'll be molded perfectly,
Then you'll realize someday
that you've  become a shining star.