You no
every time I wake I do my make up
Fake smile on
Looking all happy
Being friendly
Thinking my life is perfect,

For those people to not know

Hurt
Anger
Depressed
Jealously
Lonely

What are you then if you are those, does it mean you would never see the bright light of your gardien angle.

Everytime I look at you all the pain comes rushing down my vain

the hurtness, jealously you know rejection,
Hating my self like why can't I be like the rest of girls at school why do I have to be different,
Thinking to myself if I wasn't different would you love me back.

My star my buetifull star you have kept me still alive even when I can't see or talk to you.

I'llvalways remember that in my life your are the silver, the silver that is keeping me alive, alive so that I could fix my problems, problems that are always running in my head over and over again, again so that I can tell my mind it's wrong, wrong for making me sad hurt angry and depressed, depressed about me and my life, life to see a better future with my star

The moments I think everything flashes before my eyes,
Pain, regret, loneliness and the one that has taken my life angryness,
Angry because I'm hurt
Angry because of the negatives in my life
Angry because i can never be like her
Angry because I'm jealous
Angry because of life
Angry because I can never be the one that you want
Angry because no one would know
Angry because if I die right now I can never see your face