the clock constantly reminds you
of the time wasted
and it daunts me that our time is slowly
but unnoticeably, running out
though it would be a pleasant serene bliss
to waste each tick and tock

                         being present with you
*c.r

i'm not there for when you wake up in the morning
                                      you're eyes crinkle because of the sun
                                      you hum quietly whilst walking
                                      you laugh so hard your stomach hurts
                                      you smile in return of a compliment
                                      you bite your lip in act of nervousness
                                      you wake up from a nightmare
                                      you cry as you're having a bad day
                                      you are truly happy
                                      

i also won't be there as you take your last breath
and i wouldn't know if it was a sigh of relief or pain.
*c.r

if imagination was what was left of me,
i wouldn't mind

though if imagination left my soul,
i would lose a piece of me
as imagination occurs
to when love is false
and i don't want to forget you
*c.r

if i were to love another and it wasn't you,
i wouldn't love at all in the first place
so let me be the cold hearted,
let me guard up my walls
surrounding my heart to keep it protected
though one day, if it came to a great surprise
and you tore down those walls one by one
you'd find the key that unlocks my heart.
*c.r

you see her sitting there
smiling at people
listening to what they're saying

but you have no idea
what goes through her mind

this shock of wave
from a tsunami tide of thoughts
daunts my brain
with questions of life
no one can answer
unless they're
dead.
*c.r