Little girl in her own world
And the world is different from everyone else's
New discoveries
New paths
And then,
A new personality
So then, a hidden secret
I never understood what changed
I thought i was so normal
Something there just wasnt right
Something the family noticed just wasnt fine
I was able to see, but nothing was clear
I was able to hear, but it was all static
I was able to breathe, but i kept hyperventilating
My mind was so naive until i became friends with the devil
And when i tried to escape, it blinded me from the light
All the darkness was thrown in front of me;
I was too small to look for the light
But then i was too short to switch it back on
And then the walls caved in on me
The size that i was;
My bones have been broken from being crushed with fear
I didnt have the time to grow out of this sickness
And then all the questioned were asked..
Why are you like this?
Watch your attitude
Why arent you eating?
Your going to become anorexic
Why are you slamming the door?
Your going to break it
Why are you throwing things around?
She can hurt someone
Why are you yelling?
Your scaring everyone
Why are you hurting people?
Keep your hands to yourself
Why are you talking to yourself?
Your so weird
Why are you failing in school?
Your going to fail the grade
Why did you become distant?
You dont talk to anyone anymore
Why are you a *****?
Your going to lose your friends
Why are you getting into fights?
One day you will fight with the wrong person
Why dont you sleep?
Take a sleeping pill
Why are you hyperventilating?
Why are you anxious?
Why are you angry?
Why are you violent
Why are you promiscuous?
Why are you always drunk?
Why are you suicidal?
And these questions couldnt be answered until i allowed myself to take control
I never knew what the word crazy meant until i actually read the word and matched it to my mind
C-crying my eyes out
R-restless and never tired
A-anxiety attacks forced me to hyperventilate; anger turned into danger within myself
Z-zoning out and not responsive
Y-yelling and screaming with rage
Im still growing up
Im still trying to control it all

The stars are only there to look pretty,
Not to be our friends
The dreams are only keeping the brain calm
Not to keep us positive
The pennies only make the water *****,
Not to bring us a future
The candles on a cake is an old trick,
Each year was forgotten
11:11 is just a coincidence,
Not for the time to make us believe
Eyelashes just bother us,
Not to be happy if one falls
Wishbones just break easily,
Not to keep us strong
The moon just makes it all dark,
Not for the night to **** our nightmares
But God is still in the sky,
Lets see what happens before we die..

Suddenly i couldnt breathe
Suddenly i couldnt speak
Suddenly i couldnt hear
Suddenly i couldnt see
I couldnt breathe because i was hyperventilating
I couldnt speak because i was choking
I couldnt hear because my ears were ringing
I couldnt see because i got blinded
I was hyperventilating because of the anxiety
I was choking because i was being strangled with words
My ears were ringing because i heard too much *******
I was blinded because i didnt want to see the truth
The anxiety
The words
The *******
The truth
They wont ever change

White as snow;
Her face is so tender
Eyes that sparkle;
Like the crystal blue sky
Red like an apple
Her lips shine bright
Black like a silhouette
Her hair is so dark
Wicked, but there was still beauty somewhere else
The mirror of an evil queen talks the truth;
And ruins her each time
The evil in her eyes,
Stare at the innocent princess
Death was waiting
Death was sleeping
Working hard to please the queen,
The weapon of terror had him scared for the life of an innocent child
The huntsman sadly agreed to her dreams
In seconds she was frightened when she saw him lift the axe,
And then she didnt understand why...
"Run" he said
"Why" she responds
"She wants you dead"
Into the forest;
The character- like forest
She runs
She hurries
Her heart beating fast with fear
Shes so confused
Shes so afraid
And then her fragile body gave out;
Fallen to the ground
So tired;
So exhausted
So shocked
The day light came
And so she was awake with cute animals of the forest
The air breathes into her lungs as she gains oxygen once again
Up she gets
Off she walks
It was like nothing happened
Her new friends hint a house waits for her company
Into the house
Exhausted; she finally gets to sleep
Until an unexpected door
Opening frightens her suddenly
7 men
7 little men welcome her stay
Her story had sadden them;
And agreed she stayed
Insisted she stay forever
A smile was always on her face
But deep inside shes broken
And its so awful when someone;
Your family; wants to **** you for beauty..
Days pass
Nights pass
Shes nowhere to be found
She finally found out the truth behind it all
The queen with the evil intentions will stop at nothing
Mixing potions,
Reading a book
And then when she drinks,
The liquid eats away at her beauty
The black dark image of an old lady changes her appearance completely
And then for her final magic,
The innocent apples were tricked into a ***
A red fruit had drowned in poison,
To feed an innocent body
To work the men went,
So to the house the old lady missioned
And the kindness in the princess' heart couldnt say no,
To opening the door to an old stranger
A lie was told next
A big lie that goes wrong
"These are magic apples" she smiled
And then snow white was so amazed that her wish was not going to come true...
The music in her stomach
The light in her eyes
Her watery lips were begging for a quench
As she opened up,
The whiteness in her teeth started to go brown.
As she took her first bite,
She felt so strange
"I feel strange" she worried
Weakness; shes so weak
A faint covered the floor and held her body
Her fragile body had fallen
She laughs
She rejoiced
"Now im the fairest in the land"
Not for long she had the happiness
These men were ****** when they saw what happened
The mountains were just screaming for her to come
She ran
They ran faster
The storm got stronger
Her body became lighter
And then suddenly to the ground she fell
Death was actually waiting for the wickedness of the land
Now another body to worry about
To cry
To pray
To dream
Into a glass casket,
They just couldnt hide her
She lay there broken,
Fragile,
Weak,
Lifeless
Not even the tears of 7 sets of eyes awakened her
And a miracle was going to approach
The prince of magic was shocked
Its over he thought
But then he opened the glass
His mouth met her soft red lips
Only seconds later they all had to wait
Her long lashes moved
Her big beautiful eyes opened
Her lips smiled
And then her body gained all the strength
The hugs, the kisses
A beautiful princess was back into the life of her loved ones
The horse is the ride,
And now the path leads them off
Happily ever after
Happily in love

A spoiled handsome prince
A beautiful enchantress in disguise
A spell that would last forever
It was a test
A rose was an exchange
He turned her away, and had to remain ugly forever
Until he loves
Until he changes
He remain; a beast forever
Depressed & confused
His heart was so cold
He needed love
Before the rose got old
Far away a beauty appears
Her big hazel eyes had such good intentions
Her lips shine as she sings
And a brunette long hair waved around as she dances
Full of life
Full of kindness
The opposite of who she will soon meet will frighten her
A sudden trap,
The beasts heart exploded
Papa is trapped,
But she gained strength to free him
The deal she made
The shock of life
Her life,
Prisoner forever
Seconds to minutes, they stare at eachother with silence
Minutes to hours, they fight constantly
Hours to days, everything was finally stable
Days to nights, the heart became warm again
The sound of her voice calmed the nerves;
Calmed the castle
The touch of her body turned him weak;
Made eyes bigger
The two that danced;
The two that sang,
The two that slowly turned hate to love
Bitterness was he;
Who turned into kindness
Miserable was he;
Who turned into happiness
Scary was he;
Who he turned gentle
And then suddenly,
A disaster
A magic mirror never told a lie
Run;
She needed to run
The beautiful dress;
She needed to change
The tall friend; the love;
She wanted to leave
Papa is sick
She needed to leave
His emotions were mixed
Torn
Sad
But understanding, he let her go
The ROSE;
She had left behind
Home sweet home
Not for long,
Not for peace
And now they wanted to **** the beast
& the castle dark with fear;
Protection could only be so long before its broken into a thousand pieces
And then finally a nightmare got created
The door opens
The arrow pointed
A man, who was a real beast inside had struck a restored heart
So silent;
It was too silent
Her body exhausted so she threw herself at him
"Please dont leave me;
I LOVE you"
And then the last rose petal had fallen down to die
Seconds were approaching
And then his sweet heart stopped
Her tears became apart of the rain
Into the puddles, she shed
There was a deep depression in her eyes
There was no more hope inside her mind
Silence turned to noise
A struck of bright light,
And then some more
A struck of bright lines,
And then alot more
and as he lifted into the sky,
He was unzipped out of that hideous costume
It was an amazing site
The glowing skin of a transformed figure
Eyes more crystal blue then ever
The body of a newly updated prince
Heart finally of gold
The wind pushed him close
His breath opened his lips
"Its me"
And then he waited for her response patiently
& then she was speechless until she realizes the truth
They're eyes connected deep within their minds
Deep within their souls
The happiness struck her suddenly and softly her vocal cords pushed the words of excitement out of her red lips;
"It is you"

I met a liquid
Then i met my other side
This is a story
When i made myself sink
This is a story
When my only hobby was to drink
I was too sober to focus
And when i was intoxicated,
I was aware
But aware to harm
Aware not to care
I peer pressured myself to change
And brainwashed my heart to bleed
The pain;
The darkness.
I never saw the light until the bright liquid opened my eyes
I fell in love
My first love ever
I just knew i didnt need anyone else;
Anything else
I didnt mind the taste, or burn
Because i never felt a thing
As it traveled down my throat,
It cured my screams
As it traveled through my lungs
I was able to breathe
As it traveled through my veins,
All the pain was gone
But as it stayed within my body,
Thats when i lost control
I didnt care
I didnt think
I wanted more
This was an obsession
I became a danger to myself and other people
I didnt care
I didnt think
I wanted to feel all my pain disappear
And so i wanted to be taken advantage of
Drank to make all my pain go away
Drank to forget
Drank to bleed
Drank myself to sleep
And i loved a bottle more then i loved anyone else

Sometimes its hard
Sometimes it stops
Other times i forget
I just cant breathe
I want these walls taken away
I feel like im closed inside a cell
And gas has been released to choke me
Its too much to handle
Its too much to remember
How do i control whats controlling me?
Im moving too quickly
Im going insane
I feel like my neck is being strangled by a chain
I cannot escape
I cannot release
The air is going nowhere
Its cutting off my circulation
Feels like a bag is over my head
And i cannot getting off
Now im suffocating
All the heat is in front of my face
I really cannot breathe
My heart is beating faster
My body is shaking
Im so dizzy
Im going to just drop to the floor
Im trying to give myself CPR but its not working
How can i give air if its escaping from my body
Im failing;
Im losing
And im so tired of this game
When am i allowed to breathe?
Something is stopping me
Or someone is stopping me
I look and the mirror and i see my hands on my throat
Now i know whos trying to **** me
My lungs are getting weaker
My throat is getting tighter
My mouth is getting smaller
Im trying to win this fight
I think i have forgotten how to breathe