When strength was taken from me,
I lost my mind, body and soul
And when i found myself, it was only because i was looking into a
mirror
My heart was shattered from my mind
So i was never able to love myself back to life
Forgotten who i was,
The new person had been confused
Forgotten who i was,
The new person had been brainwashed
Forgotten who i was,
The new person had been angry
Forgotten who i was,
The new person became dangerous
So much pain,
I wanted to end myself
I didnt know how to undo the hurt that i had within my body
Nothing made sense
Nothing changed me
My weakness was lost forever
The tears washed away the pain only temporarily
And then it all came back again
I never questioned myself
I only bossed myself around
And then i abused myself
I just couldnt take it anymore
Something had to be done

I was blind
I was deaf
My lungs were broken
I was weak
I wanted to stay away from the pictures that i used to see
I wanted everyone; everything silenced
I wanted to stop breathing
I wanted to lose myself
You gave me your eyes so i can see
You gave me your ears so i can hear
You gave me your nose so i can breathe
You gave me your mouth so i can speak
You gave me your strength so i can lose my weakness
You looked into my heart and opened the eyes of a prisoner;
Trapped inside her own body
You listened to my stories and undid the deaf inside my head;
So i can listen to everyone excluding myself
Mouth to mouth
You breathed air into my lungs and brought me back to life again

Play the moments
Over and over they rewind in my head
Over and over i want them to come back
Pause the memories
I stop and think and see everything that used to be perfect
Everyday is a question that can never be answered
Stop the pain
I couldnt do it anymore
I couldnt deal with it anymore
I couldnt **** myself anymore
I had stopped myself from suffering with a new start at life
Refresh the happiness
Pushing the weakness away,
I grew so strong
Pushing the evil away,
I survived all my fears
Pushing the devil away,
My soul is safe
Everything is starting to finally make sense

My body was created and then torn apart
Like a puzzle that noone was able to put me back together
Through my skin,
I bled myself to hyperventilation
Through my body,
I drank myself to sleep
Through my soul,
I cried myself to dream
My head was left
My heart was always right
My arms were heavy
My legs were light
My eyes were always burned
My nose was plugged
My mouth was always stretched
My ears were always clogged
My pupils had been scratched
My nasal cavity had been pushed on
My vocal cords had been cut
My ears had been popped
My fingers and toes had been hit
My hair hasnt been strong
My face had been squeezed
My body had been numb
My body had been torn apart since it got created
Noone was able to put me back together with the pieces of my puzzle
When i was bleeding,
I wanted to bleed some more
When i was drinking,
I drank myself out the door
When i was crying,
Noone heard me

Screaming
She doesnt know
Angry
Because shes spoiled
Crying
Because mommy is in the shower and left her all alone
Hurting
Her little cousin
Scared
Of the dark
Screaming
Just leave me alone
Angry
I can do what i want
Crying
Mommy is in the hospital and left me all alone
Hurting
Herself
Scared
Of the darkness that started inside her
Screaming
Theres no control
Angry
Everything is being thrown
Crying
Mommy was taken away forever and left me alone
Hurting
Herself deeply
Scared
Of the sickness that will forever stay

Shut everything,
Everyone out
Im giving up slowly
The past is slowly haunting me
Its spinning my body im circles
And so im dizzy everyday
I had fallen so deep into the trap of fear
And then i wonder what im doing here
Am i ready to move on
Am i ready to change
Or will my moods only keep changing
And then i remain unbalanced
If i undo the medicated life, im crazy
If i remain on the medicated life, im still crazy
I can and will never win
Will i ever win back what i once had
Or what i once wanted
When will it end
Never
When will i stop fearing
Never
When will i stop crying
Never
When will i start learning
Never
When will i be normal
Never
When will i breathe on my own again
Never

Trembling with mood swings
Im screaming
My throat is broken
& my cords are snapped open
Shaking with fear
Im crying
My eyes are burning
& my pupils made me go blind
Shivering with anxiety
Im hyperventilating
My nasal passages are completely blocked
& my lungs had collapsed
Dizzy with noises
My eardrums had shattered
& my ear canal has been cut
Numbness on my body
Everything had lost its strength