So happy all of us together;
Because you were around.
You looked so beautiful;
& so happy to be with us once again.
I was happy that you came back.
All of us,
So surprised;
But it felt so real.
Felt so normal.
So comforting to be with you.
The conversations where we left off last,
& The stories we spoke of.
Your company made us all stay together.
Made us all reunite again.
Fun & games;
All the girls in one room;
Laughing about everyday life.
And then it happened once again;
You had to go.
Questions were asked.
So you told us you needed to leave forever once again.
To go back up to heaven;
& then we all suddenly drowned in our own tears.
After you came back,
I really thought you were back forever;
& never leaving us again.
So you went around to everyone of us;
Said your goodbyes.
I broke down in tears;
Told you not to go again.
But you said you had to go.
My tears suddenly washed away all my happiness;
And then you tears started to fall.
And you never drowned like we did;
But it all ended;
& you were gone.
I woke up so depressed.
I woke up so confused.
I woke up crying;
& then I balled my eyes out.
I felt like i was in another world.
A beautiful dream with you back;
With a sorrowful ending with you disappearing once again.
My head is still pounding;
I just stayed up all night feeling different.
I just felt like I suddenly got worse.
Now everything is going to get worse.
This dream really ****** me up;
& Im still crying.
Im traumatized once again.

I am the stranger.
I am the enemy;
Whom I fight with everyday.
Kills me to see the person I am today.
Kills me to see the person Ive become.
Kills me to see what I look like.
Kills me to see what I really am.
I cant turn my back on myself,
Because I dont wanna walk away;
When I can just destroy myself.
I wanna break the mirror,
So I can break myself.
& on the other side, is my soul trying to escape.
Now Ive taken my fist;
And punched the mirror.
Now Ive taken water;
And wet the mirror.
Now Ive taken the hammer;
And smashed the mirror.
My fist left me bruised.
The water made me drown.
The hammer broke me into a million pieces;
& now I lay bleeding,
Broken into pieces;
On the ground.
The only way I go blind from seeing myself is through the mirror.
The only way I break is through the mirror.
Because without the broken glass,
I still have to live looking at myself.

I was taken advantage of.
I am now fallen apart.
Cant focus
Cant think.
Cant speak.
My head pounds as I think.
My throat hurts as I speak.
And my heart slows down while I try to breathe.
Im just certain that my strength has been ****** out;
& I was injected with weakness.
I feel like my bones have been filed down to dust;
& that my skin has turned its colour.
Im feeling so weird.
Im not myself anymore.
My mind cant hold anymore information;
So everything is escaping,
And Im choking on all the letters when I try to make words as I try to speak.
My body is shaking,
Because I cant hold myself up anymore.
& everytime I walk,
I fall to the ground.
Im slowly breaking.
Im slowly falling apart;
Because I have lost all my strength.
Noone can save me now.
Noone can fix me now.
Everytime I look in the mirror,
I ask "why have you lost your strength?"
I get a reply saying "you've done it to yourself."

Listen to me guide you to my body;
I wanna whisper something in your ear,
& then act it out.
Listen to my plan;
Agree with what I ask of you;
& shut the door behind you.
Listen to my rules;
You have no choice but to obey me.
Just listen to me;
Allow your lips to read mine.
Just listen to me;
Allow us to caress eachother's body.
Listen to me;
Let us increase our energy levels.
Listen to me;
Let us open the bed.
Listen to me;
Let us strip eachother's clothes.
Listen to me;
Pick me up, then push me down.
Listen to me;
Let us finally heat up the room.
Now listen to me scream with pleasure.

Let us **** the wall;
Come into the room;
& lock the door behind you.
Let us **** the silence;
Tell me what you want.
Let us **** the distance'
I want you to come closer.
I just wanna feel you,
& I want you to feel me.
Let us **** our clothes;
Remove eachother's shields from our bodies.
Let us **** out weaknesses;
Allow our strength & energy to take control.
Let us **** the cold;
We need to start heating up the room.
Now let us **** the lights;
In the darkness is where we **** eachother seductively.

In the middle of it all;
Im unable to break through.
Ive been pierced deeply,
& Ive learned how to bleed.
Its tight around my body;
& Im squeezed so hard.
Like Im in my own web that Ive created for myself;
Because Im so trapped.
Im unable to breathe;
Because the thorns are so sharp,
As they pierce me deeply.
Im just slowly losing blood;
Im just slowly losing myself.
Cant move.
Cant scream.
Cant escape.
My veins slowly split into pieces;
& my bones suddenly crack in half.
Im torn apart;
As my heart breaks apart from my body.
Im spinning fast.
Its getting me dizzy.
Its getting me dripping.
& soon Im going to drown in my own blood.
They are too deep inside my skin.
Im deeply pierced on every inch of my body.
& I think its too late to catch my breath;
Because Im choking while Im pierced in the neck.
Its too late to try to escape.
Im caught.
Im trapped;
& I cannot get out.
Im on a bed of thorns.
The wind shoots me with thorns;
& Im held hostage in thorns;
& I cannot escape;
Because they have a hold on me.
Im in the web of danger;
Im in the web of thorns.

A dark cloud appears above my head.
The light has disappeared before my eyes.
& Im left in the darkness;
Nowhere to run,
Nowhere to hide.
All Im hearing is thunder;
It starts to call my name.
The lightning blinds me suddenly as I try to escape.
Im so lost;
& dont know what to do.
Im so confused;
& dont know how to respond.
Im so scared;
& dont know how to behave.
Dark clouds keep coming my way.
Thunder tries to turn me deaf.
Lightning tries to blind me.
I dont wanna be followed anymore.
I dont wanna be chased anymore.
I dont wanna be seen anymore.
& then it starts pouring;
The water drowns me slowly;
Because the force is too strong.
& I cannot keep myself up.
The blue happy sky felt all my pain;
& so it turned its happiness into depression,
Black & dark;
As it cries & tries to water all the problems away.