You've been there forever
As long as anyone can remember
I remember seeing you at birth
You reached your arms around me
And swallowed me with all your girth
You passed my days as an infant
With acceleration it seems
For those days I cant remember much
But you were always my mean
As expected, You were always there
And I cant say that I'm mad
But I cant say that I'll say the same
On the days that you act bad
You'll be right here one day
But I cant say the same for the next
For all I know is someday
I'll look to you and say "what the heck?"

“The horror, the horror!”
Nothing or everything
Not simply something
The pain of what?
The people?
The disease?
The world?
Imperialism…
To what do we owe this horror
Mistreat, and mistake
Seize and learn
Lets all take a lesson from Kurtz
We are all people
White, black, tan, brown
No matter what
It doesn’t matter
We are a kinship
We are all brothers
Sisters, Fathers, and Mothers
We are all families
We are all people
The Heart of Darkness

Betrayed by a kiss
Lied to by a hug
Left out to dry by a gaze

Enchanted by touch
Encouraged by time
Lust struck by sight

She's that girl
We all know the one
The one we all thought
We knew we had won

my honesty will make you cry
my honesty will make you think
my honesty will make you realize
why silently, on this night i drink
to hope and dreams
i toast to thee
for as a goddess
you were to me
i'll stop my generosity
i'll become that *** you adore
i'll make you realize why, oh why
i was not one to ignore
yet sadly on that lonely night
not for me but you
i'll be there at your beacon call
and travel the night through
at your door step i will pause
i'll think my fears and sorrows
i'll recall your favorite line from me
my hearts yours to have or borrow

Not for years has it been clear
My mind of thoughts of meres and nears
Misses and mistakes, my mind was raked
looking for answers of how to make
sense of the fails, reasons for doubts
i'll give you all my many to pout
Mistrust and misguiding seems the key
For the reason my mind has never been free
They've taken my longing for ones they shouldn't
If asked to repeat, i swear i wouldn't.

Your a saint playing the villain
In this, a prefect story of fiction.
Your a crooked cop.
When your supposed to be protecting mine
You only protecting yours
Your a tenured teacher
Escaping so soon
With your first class still in the rear-view.
Your a corrupt politician
Elected by the people
Yet holding a hand out for more.
Your a beautiful woman
Who stole something precious
And never bothered to give it back in the end.

Its over.
Its done with.
Im squashed.
You've washed
Your hands,
Of me,
Completely.

Your his.
You are.
I know,
I've lost,
This fight.
It was,
So empty.

One sided,
This fight.
Can't trust?
What lies!
I know,
You fibbed.
You lied!
You cried!
But why?!

Your honesty.
Less humiliating.
Your lies?
So embarrassing…
This truth?
So motivating

Thanks

But I shall bask in sunlight
As to absorb all the energies of the universe
And I shall bask in moonlight
Hoping that it will only nurse
My heart to wellness
My mind to fullness
My soul to loneliness
And when all is achieved
I will be whole
And able to absolve my innerness
Of everything she had stole

in the presence of a true entity
holy enough to cause an identity
to question the likeness to a goddess
and a goddess to question her god
as this being be beautifully odd
and oddly irrelevant to me
whether i choose to believe
what i already know
is but a skinned knee
or a stubbed toe
lessons learned through acts of life
acts of menace
or acts of tryphe

Round and solid
Clanking at every collision
Full of a single passenger
Looking to escape through any means necessary
But when the ship is empty
One may wonder who's driving,
steering
controlling
Guiding this ship to a recycled future
This glass bottle is nothing,
but a spaceship tonight.

The day my life went empty
Is that day that I had gone
But not for long
Did I stay gone

I fought like hell to keep in close
But you were caught up with your very own rose
One so wrong, but you couldn't see
That he would never compare to me

I know you weren't happy
It showed in your eyes
That day that we met
And you let out a sign

You want me to fight
You want me there
To be by your side
When in lonely air

A safety net I was
To catch a heart so kind
Kind, but confused
At the very same time

It took sometime
For you to come around
But when you did
My heart was all of astound

Stuck where it is
The wind be so cold
It's leaves have but left
This tree is to old
With oldness comes time
With time it's left lone
For others to find
But no one to hold
These rings they will grow
As time will sure pass
And nothing will help
Til snow turns to grass
And grass means warm weather
Now things may get better
Coming from cold
To non-lonesome weather

I'll be there
no matter what
no matter where
no matter when
no matter why
no questions asked
why?
because i love you
and you should feel this love
its really something cool
something so amazing
i almost feel like a fool
my heart jumps that second i see you
my words slur
and my eyes become glue
as this radiant being
so beautiful i say…
so radiant…
so beautiful…
…………………….
I say……

You took my grandmother
You took my friends
You've taken the people
Whom I really depend
You've taken my heros
You've taken my idols
You've taken the people
That make me smile
You've taken people
You've taken plants
You've taken animals
You've taken ants
You'll come for me one day I know
That day, I promise, I'll have something to show
For I wont live in fear
And I wont live in sorrow
I will not live in fear of what may come tomorrow
I'll live life to the fullest
I'll make him see
That he, Death, has nothing on me

My words are so maniacal
My phrases so decipherable
The places and the races
Are spaces you and I should go
But then am i reliable
If you and i should die before
We return to an ever resideable
Earth thats so excitable
Tripping over syllables
Will i find the will to do
What it is that needs to be done
I don't know if I can go and
Try to be responsible
When we're dancing on the sun

I've had many thoughts this day
About you and me and love
We all seemed to meet at once
And I regret none
What I do regret is what I know will come
The ripping
The tearing
The thunderous key stroke of an ***** so vital
So powerful and profound
It makes us weep as young infants and as old adults

I hope you have fun
I really do
You shot me down
And lied to me too

Fed me lines of mistrust and longing
Held me like something was really wrong
****** at my emotions with nothing but a glance

But in one fell swoop
One turn of the head
You said so much
About me and you

When are you going to see what i do?
We're perfect don't you see!
Im everything you ever will need!
I'd give it all, I truly would
Do you not believe me?
Do you not believe my groveling?
I know its sad but something inside me says its necessary
Something tells me your not the girl thats going to be affected

But
Today i know where you are
I know what you're doing
I know who your with
and no matter what you say
I know you lied

I hope you have fun
I really do
You shot me down
And killed me too

To the liars, cheaters, and stealers...
Who steal time from those who don't deserve
Who cheat death of what he doesn't deserve
And who lie.... But only in the arms of those who do deserve

It came to me in a dream one day
The perfect words that I can say
But did they work, You may ask
And in my sulk you can bask
As I tell my tale of never ending sorrow
But yet I still look forward to tomorrow
For I know tomorrows a risk worth taking
And even the next day is in the making
For as an old dream dies
Two may rise
And neither are worth ignoring
For they could feed
All the hope you need
And lead you to a life of soaring.

A week and days is all it took
to see that you and I
We work like a book
The cover of the story
thats all they need
to see that you and I
We work for thee
Thee being each other
Thee being us
You and I
We dont even fuss
The pages of this book
They turn with such ease
Its like the person writing
Doesnt even think
The words just come
The story is written
The Words fit the page
Just like a mitten
I feel bad for whoever is holding the pen
Cause in my eyes the story will never end
They just dont understand how we work so well
They just dont understand how hard I fell

Go away
Just go away
Leave me now
Forever stay

Your in my head
My conscious sleighed
Forever remembering
Every word you say

Every second we spent
Every rule we bent
Every life I wasted
Is the life I meant

You'll look away when I ask you the question
I'll ask you whats wrong and you'll say nothing

And Though I know, I hurt you so,  
My heart will cease to stop me

I'll walk out the door, your eyes will fall
Looking to the floor, now awaiting a call

The call wont come, and you know why
You just have to wait till he hears goodbye

This brings but a tear into your eyes
For without his heart, yours may die

I Love You So Much
I Hope You Can See
Your Love Really Is
All That I Need

When You Tell Me You Love Me
I See In You Eyes
What The Dieing May See
When They Look To The Sky

Where They Are Heading
The Future Is Clear
Just As Mine Is
When I Look Forward Years

Our Lives Will End
That Is A Sure Fact
But Our Love Will Be There
Every Time We Look Back

never have i written so fast
as the day that i met you
when our gazes met
and my eyes stuck like glue

to a beauty so elegant
so bold and outrageous
you made me feel small
next to someone so gorgeous

i never thought i had a chance
i guess thats why i didn't
for when i did
i made it so i couldn't

Writers block holding my fingers together
As the pens and pencils run for cover
The paper fled a day ago
Following my words on a path unknown
On their way to a place unseen
Where words and phrases are only free
Not held to rhymes or dynamic means
These words are free to be what they be
I've tried to lure them back to me
With sadness and madness and silly things
But they've held their distance
And made quite a resistance
And all i can do is wait in patience
As i sit at my chair do i even dare
To find where all has gone
For all the effort i have put forth
Has resulted in absolutely none

Memories don't live like people do.
They feed off of reminders and mental cues.
They can't remind you of themselves when they want.
They can only hope enough sensation is felt in a situation
to remind their owner that they exist in their fields

Get up
Get up
Live your life
Get up
Get up
See the light

This world is ours
Yours and mine
We are the stars
In our own minds

Reach as high and far as you can
Reach for the stars and take a stand

Your life is yours
This night is ours
We do what we want
The memories are scars

Not scars of hurt
But scars of forever
They for sure will last
They will never be never

i think your amazing
let me tell you why
just being with you
you give me a high
a high on life
thats next to none
if i had to choose
you'd be over the sun
i think you are beautiful
i think you are soft
i think in your eyes
i can get lost
i think i need you by my side
i think i need you along for the ride
the ride of life which can end soon for few
but it can end right now
as long as im with you

You're always on time for a fire.
Even in the driest days.
When danger is no further,
Than a word of mouth away.
The fuel, Your self-consciousness.
Consciously more and more a weight.
It starts in your conscience,
When consciousness meets present day..

S h e   d o e s n ' t   w a n t   a   m a n
S h e ' s   j u s t   t o o   a f r a i d
S h e   w o n t   t r u s t   m y   p l a n
H e   k i l l e d   h e r   a n d   h e r   b e a u t y
C o s t   m e   m y   h e a r t   a n d   h e a d
L e f t   u s   b o t h   s t r a n d e d  
L o o k i n g   a t   h e r   i   c a n   t e l l
T h a t   w h a t   w a s
W a s   g r e a t e r   t h e n   a n y t h i n g   t h a t   i s
B u t   b r i c k s   h a v e   b e e n   l a i d
S t e e p   w a l l s   o f   u n c e r t a i n t y   e r e c t e d
W h y   d i d n t   s h e   c a r e   t h e n
T o   l i s t e n   a s   I   t o l d   h e r   d o n t
I   k n e w   t h i s   w o u l d   h a p p e n
T h r o u g h   b r e a k i n g   h e r   h e a r t
H e   b r o k e   m i n e  
A n d   m a y   h a v e   r o b b e d   t h e   w o r l d   o f   a   m o d e r n   d e i t y

At the edge of the world
With a mind full of fright
A lonely kid waits
For when it feels right
To tell all his stories
To make sense of all wrongs
He's waiting on life
To reveil all its calms
Answers that matter
And make sense of the past
A blast that may be
Something that lasts
Someone, something,
Somewhere, somehow
Who knows what will happen
Who knows a new now

Head in the clouds
Mind on the road
Heart on my shoulder
Body getting old

Words become slurred
Arms become weak
Effort becomes tough
Outlook becomes bleak

Persistence creates opportunity
Opportunity persuades my drive
To maintain on this track
Anyway, I will thrive.

The thing is
You're constantly on my mind
The thing is
I know you're one of a kind
The thing is
You've hurt me so bad
The thing is
You're mind makes me go mad
The thing is
I don't know what to do
The thing is
I'm incredibly mad about you
The thing is
One day I know you'll see
That the thing is
You and I
We were meant to be

What do we really know
What we really see
What about this darkness hiding deep inside of me.
Do people see me in their future
Will I waste away in worry
Does she know what I am thinking
Does she see that its all becoming
Just a little bit of blurry.

In foolishness I live
As I know not where I head
Nor how I shall get there

On the heels of grace I follow
Yet tomorrow no one knows
Where we will be at the time

The hour for which we search
Is a road less searched for by most
And can tame the mind to ease

On the heels of the hour
As roads combine with kindness, grace, and enthusiasm
We witness a journeys end

epicly, epic

Beaten, battered, and bruised.
I often wonder what's my life to do.
When I'm down on my luck.
This frown, it really *****.
A mountain is in front of me.

Laces pulled tight.
I'm motivated to give all my mite.
I'll conquer this mountain
Again and again and again.
It's appearance consistantly consistent.

In a life so inconsistent.
One must be more insistent.
Putting one foot in front of the other.
Never dwelling on their druthers.  
While other may count me out.

I'm trying so hard to remember not to think.
To remember not to remember
So on this paper I will ink
The sense I make of this feeling
The sense I make of all these fails
How senseless these words are
How long since they've become stale
I'll convince myself they mean something
The evidence clear to none
How forgetting all words spoken
Is a pain that's never done.