there was a stillness in the air.

no leaves rustled.
no frost crackled.

no air stirred.
no birds sung.

i didn't blink.
i didn't breathe.
i didn't feel my heartbeat.

there was a stillness in the air
to echo the lull within my chest.

no tears boiled atop my open eyelids.
no sobs escaped my tranquil lips.

there was stillness in the air.

She's pretty.

I bet she's really nice, too.
Someone you can count on,
someone to help you through.

I've never met her,
and I don't really want to.
I don't want to get to know her.

What do you want me to do?
Fight for what I never had?
Fight for you?

I'm better off watching,
although I don't enjoy the view.
Not at all.

I wanted to love you.
I was ready to fall.
I was ready to give my all to you.

Now here I sit,
pining for something new,
other than this thought,

She's pretty.

There is one thing
I miss about you

the way you held me.

There is one thing
I miss about winter

the way you kept me warm.

There is one thing
I miss about our apartment

the way it smelled like you.

There is one thing
I miss about that year

the way I was always smiling.

There is one thing
I miss about being in love

the way I was in love with you.

you never took a second look
you never looked back

I was giving you a chance
a chance to let you love me
a chance to let me love you

but you threw it away
you threw away a chance

As the snow softly falls
drifting on the breeze
is a whisper
telling my secrets
repeating them back to me

Secrets
images of us
kissing in the cold
you holding me tight
keeping us both warm

Snowflakes on my nose
you kiss them away
I taste them on your lips

I can't stop thinking about you
why can't you be mine?
why can't we love?

All of a sudden
your face came to mind.

The feel of your hand
on the small of my back,
the feel of your lips
tickling my neck.

The sound of your laugh
Haunting!

The smell of your skin
Intoxicating!

All of a sudden
your face came to mind
my heart broke
again
and I realized

just how alone I am.