All the stars in the southwestern sky
couldn't add up to all the tears I cried.

When you walked away that February day
after three years we had shared
on a day meant for love
you proved to me you'd never cared.

When I saw you that chilly November night
nearly two years after that fateful break,
you had turned into something I hate.

Silence encompassed the space we occupied
and once again my heart cried,
shattered in front of you
I realized
I will always love you.

Its in a song
in every line
in every note

Its in a chorus
in every beat
in every crescendo

Its in a song
on the radio
on an album

The way I felt about you
Its in a song
Everyone else sings about it
But you wouldn't believe it

Should I hate you?
For all the things you've said,
I should hate you.

Should I love you?
For all the smiles we've shared,
for all the secret glances,
all the dreams,
the kisses,
I should love you.

I want to love you.
I want you.

You think I'm crazy.
I should hate you.
I love you.
I shouldn't.

In my sleep,
dreams,
we are civil.
We are friends.

We laugh and smile like we used to.
We talk and share secrets.

You are no longer my enemy.
Someone I loathe

hate

In my sleep,
dreams,
we are not lovers again.
We are friends.

And that is all I ask for.

In a room of hundreds
it is you I pick out,
it is you who stand outs from the rest.

Your jacket
Your hair,
dark
mysterious

Your face
Your smile,
innocent
young

It is you,
in this crowded room,
I want to be close to
I want to get to know you.

Hold your hand
Kiss your mouth
Be your girl

Be the girl,
in this crowded room,
you want to be close to.

Now
          when I hear our song
I don’t forget to breathe
I don’t choke on the memories
I don’t drown in the tears

Tonight
          when I wish on shooting stars
I won’t wish for you
I won’t count our days apart
I won’t close my eyes to dream of your kiss

Tomorrow
          when I wake from sleep
I will unwrap my body from the blankets
I will go out into the world alone
I will survive without you





I can’t remember who you are
I can’t remember who I was with you

Being close to you felt warm,
felt safe.
Being close to you felt right,
felt real.
I still feel your memory,
I still feel your kiss.

The tears that still fall are all I have left of you.






Now I don't know where you are.