Cut my throat and
stab my stomach and
kick me in the ***** and
gouge out my eyes and
drain my blood and
tear open my ribcage and
peel apart each sticky-red vein and
pour molten lead down my throat and
lacerate my skin with knives and
break my bones and
stop my heart all while
pouring salt, vinegar, acid on my wounds but

never,
never,
never

tell me that I don’t know
how it feels to
hurt.

You're staring at me from the picture frame
My brain is inflamed with your name
It's repetitious
Almost fictitious
You're thought vapor
Remnants of a forgotten caper
But your always there to some extent
Like an ancient apocalyptic event
You were chaotic
Absolutely exotic
A mystery in every sense
With an air tight defense
Against any interaction
Any social transaction
You were cold and unblinking
No emotions just pure thinking
At least on the outside
But there was something you couldn't hide
A glimpse of fire in your eyes
Something that you despised
I dug at it like a half starving miner
Attempting to penetrate with bad one liners
But I was rejected
Completely misdirected
But I kept at it
Like an alcoholic with a bad habit
You were defiant
Completely self reliant
And I was addicted
Recently afflicted
With this ailment
Resulting in the complete derailment
Of my sanity
For the sake of your vanity
I followed you like a hound to the the trail
But to no avail

If the world could look
Into a mirror
We'd be in a better place
Instead of here.

But people are dumb
Dumber than you and me
Their heads so far up their ***
They can't even see.

If the world could hear
The cries from below
Below the riches and materials
Then maybe they'd know.

But people are deaf
Too deaf for you and me
No matter how loud we shout
This is how it'll always be.

If the world could care
There would be peace and love
There would be no pushing
And no one would shove.

But people are bitter
Too bitter for you and me
Their face in a grimace
No one deserves to see.

The world isn't perfect
The world isn't pure
The world isn't mine
The world isn't yours
The world has a future
You and I can change
We'll be the beginning
Of a new chapter's page.

Is it wrong to be a skeptic with a vengeance?
My super power's logic with a twist
Like a cold dagger drawing warmth from your heart.
No poison until you finish your vegetables.
I hope your afterlife is as pleasant as you say,
But how could it be with you there?
My faith is chemical induced, like yours,
Only I have better drugs.

The night is never really quiet,  
You hear the breeze even
as it shifts all around you.
It is the memory of the day
recalling all that has happened,
Nothing stirs. Memory ebbs.
No shuffling of feet, no voices
talking without speaking.
No traffic rushing up
and down the streets,
among the palm trees.

Absence keeps us alert,
with only certain things to hear,
The movement of the trees,
a slight tug of the waves
of thought, breaking on
the shore, only heard in silence.

I hear the heavens getting angry at me
They said to me, "follow us, for you have sinned"
I have lost control
I've lost my soul
And they're letting the rain pour
I await the storm to drown me
I'm stuck in this world, like a prisoner of war
The heavens want to wash me away, this I can forsee
No longer can I pleed
They want me gone.

Where were you when I learn to talk?
Where were you when I learned to walk?
Where were you when I learned to ride a bike?
Where were you when I learned to write?

Why did you leave?
Why don't you care?
Why don't you love me?
Why were you never there?

Why do you love them
And not me?
Why are you their dad
And not mine?

You were never there
I never had a daddy
You never cared
How could you do this to me?

I don't miss you anymore
But I did back then
When I was only four
Did you miss me then?

I'm over it now I guess
Though I am still mad
How could you do this?
When I just wanted a dad.