My hearts strung up and paraded around your place
I'm bent to your will
I'm bent to your need
Crying for you while you cut the strings

He held me close while the town exploded
and whispered comforting coo's in my ear
We laughed while the cars burst into flames
and danced in the tear gas and beer bottle glass
The war raged on and all we could do
was smile at each other and think
This could only happen once
Only once could we find love in such a horrible place
Only once could we walk away knowing
this was the day that changed everything

I leave my heart out in the open
letting anyone toss it around
lending it out to anyone who wants it
and well, I never learn.
Time after time they bring it back damaged
bruised and cut and beyond repair
each time I say 'never again'
take in my heart, nurse it back to health
mending the veins and letting the bruises fade
After some time though, I think 'one more time'
and put my heart back on display
only to have it broken again.

You've knocked me down and out
Shot your gun and pierced my soul
Forced me to my knees to pray and plead
That I'm not the only one that feels this way
Like I'm drowning inside but I'm fine on the out
Dreaming about a day I'll never wake up
Making deals with the devil so I'll get what I want
I've lost myself, I've lost my mind, I've lost my soul;

We're just seventeen and we're going ******* hard
Hanging downtown, pulling out our fake cards
Sneaking out on weekdays, life is such a chore
Babe you only live once so go crazy

We fall in love for a night then do it all again
Burning cars to the ground and it's only 10
Lying on the street covered in glitter and glass
Streaking in the park and never going to class
Babe you only live once so go crazy

I miss how much I cared about the future
Concerned about how the world saw me
And how I saw myself
But lately I'll admit that I've grown too numb
To care about the person others see when they look at me

I miss how things were,
When I thought I knew what was next
When I thought tomorrow was guaranteed
And could tell myself that things will only get better
Without blatantly lying through my teeth

I miss your laughter, still echoing in my halls
But its too late to say that I wanted you to stay
Here I am, wishing time to turn back
So I could tell myself to hold on just a little longer
So I can stop being filled with so much regret

The demon's wife
Looks good
In white
Because she's always made to
Wear black

"Do you want to play a game”?
Said he,
On the verge of deceit

"Is it the one where you pretend to love me?"
Said she
Like a feral cat in heat

The milky sounds of his drunken slurs,
Only prove such love is fake.

With all the layers of paint
To hide the broken face
Yet enough to crack and peel away
To the raw layer of flesh,
Infested, Infected.

My mother did use to say,
"Nothing that fades is ever great".

What if tomorrow you wake up and I'm not here anymore
If the person you turned to couldn't turn to you
And became just a memory
Fading faster and faster.
In a few months you can't hear my laugh anymore
In a year my voice is gone
And years after you won't even remember my face.
I'll just be that girl who said see you tomorrow
Even though I knew tomorrow would never come

fading away
and losing hope
grip
on everything that ever mattered.
i'm ******* losing myself
to the void.
that big ******* void
of nothingness.
i can't stay here
and i can't leave
either.
but i can be swept
somewhere
else in my mind.
Where am i going?
That wonderful void
i dread so much.