And if i were ever shot ,
id kiss you with the last
breath in my lungs. I'd
apologize for staining
your lovely hands with
my different shades of red.
And before i'd let out my
last sigh i'll tell you how
much i love you before i
die* ~

He kissed her a kiss
so seducing and deep.
A kiss that swept her
off her feet. A kiss that
lit up all the lanterns
she had inside. A kiss
that let her soul
shine during her
darkest of
times* ~

Whistle to the wind when
you miss me and i'll come flying
to you the way pretty birds
do. Whistle to the ocean
waves that you miss me and i'll
swim across the atlantic
just for you. Whistle to the
autumn leaves that you miss
me and i'll fall effortlessly at
your feet. Kissing them both
and making my way up to
your lips using  your ribs
to climb up on as if they are the
staircase that lead to sweet
heaven* ~

The sky is dark.
And the clouds
are crying. But it's
ok for them to break
from time to time.
The rain is falling
washing their pain
away. And earth
feels cold again
today* ~

Don't let the beating
waves drag me away.
Don't let the waves part
us apart. Don't let the
ocean's salt erode
our bones.

Hold me like a pirate
does with his treasure.
Hold me like a lover with
pleasure. Hold me the
way lost people do with
rain drops in the sahara
desert.

Keep me close to your
chest.

Let me rest my tired
body against your flesh
and bones. Let me rest
the way clams do when
they wash up on
abandoned
shores.

Tired and exhausted.
Lost and not found. But
yet they try not to
breakdown.

As they keep buried in
the golden sands with
their shells shut on the
pearls that rest upon
their rose pink
tongues* ~

Dressed in black smoke.
Burning in flames.

Words were trapped in my
throat , making me not able
to cry or sigh.

My colours faded away into
the black and grey. I was
left alone with nothing to
say while I was drenched
in my own misery and
pain.

The room was getting dark.
My life was falling apart. My
heart was torn to shards.
Poison filled up my veins.

The ventricles of my heart
tangled up. But you, you
showed up and untangled
every knot.

And that was how we fell
in love.That was how I was
rescued and saved* ~

He came everyday to
play a game of cards
with me. And tell me
stories about the sea.
He'd adjust pretty clams
in my hair. Sometimes
we'd play the game of
truth or dare. His love
made me forget about
the curse that followed
me everywhere. The
curse of having a
mermaid's tail* ~

I want to crawl under
his skin and cocoon
Inside his brain , grab on
to the ventricles of his heart
and swing from within as the
moonlight creates dim lights
in the dead of night. I'll shut
my eyes and hold on tight to
you for a lifetime. Come closer
love and i'll promise to cradle
you with these weak weary
delicate arms and nothing but
the purest kind of love. To protect
you from the storm that's raging on
under your skin and inside your broken lovely bones* ~

Standing on the edge
of death. Feeling nothing
but pain in my chest.
Blood drips from my
eyes. The veins have
froze in my arms , legs
and thighs. Bitten by a
zombie. Infected by it's
germs. Feeling the
adrenaline rush and a
storm in my bones. I've
been cursed and ******.
And left without a plan.
All i think of now is eating
you. Starting with the
brain in your head and
ending up with your
feet and toes* ~

He winked at the owl
flying in the sky. It
looked at him while
it was in a rush trying
to cover its cheeks with
its wings to hide the
blush. He holds beauty
like no other prince
charming and that's why
I fell in love with my
darling* ~

I tried not to let it show.
The scars and damage.
My wounded heart , broken
ribs and soul. The sorrow
and pain. The thought of
not being the same as they
wanted me to be. Society
was to blame. Took a mattress instead of a boat. Off to the
river I went to make it float.
Had nothing with me but white sheets and a pillow. Left my
books and music back home.
I watched the fish swim from
down below between the river
black and silver grey stones. Wondered for hours in my
thoughts. Was this decision
right or was it wrong. To
runaway miles from home.
Or to let the voices in my
head take full control. Laid
back on my mattress and
looked above to God's velvet
red skies. The sun was setting
down. It was so calm and quiet.
The waters created good
vibes along. Felt like this
was some kind of meditation.
I never felt this better with
out my antidepressants
medication before. Shut
my eyes and wondered
through the empty
hallways of my mind.
They were pretty much
like dark corridors.
Shadows of the night
followed along. Shut
my eyes and listened
to the soft melodies
of the gentle currents.
Thought of staying
out in the river some
more and row back
later to home when
I feel ready and
strong* ~

Wash my soul with ocean
water and salt. Heal my
body from the pain and
hurt.

Kiss my suicidal thoughts
away. Fight my demons in
the dead of night and stay.

Promise me things will be
alright. Drench my body
with your waves.

Whisper the words of you
are rescued and saved
across my chest.

Turn the knobs on the small
of my back to make sure the
doors of my past are well
shut.

To make sure that I will never
go back and get lost* ~

Miles away. Cities and
oceans parting us. But
i still feel your touch. The
way your lips lock over
mine the shivers you send
down my spine. The
pounding of your heart
against my chest. The
brush of your hands on
my naked flesh.

Miles away
but that's ok. At least we
get to text and call everyday.
Till the days pass quick and
I see you again. Till the
ocean waves part and I
walk through to reach you.
And when I do I'll be kissing
you.

Frenching every inch
of your body. Caressing
your skin. Waiting to start
new stories and memories
waiting to paint the bedroom
walls with different shades
of gentle love and sin* ~

My smile erupts
when i see your
face . Doesn't  
matter about
the time or
place. You
make my blood
rush in every
vein as i sit down
and blush. My
heart rains with
tears of joy when
i know that your
the boy who fell in
love with the chaos and
agony bottled up inside
of me.Your voice
gets me in a
trance whenever
i get the chance
to hear it. Hold
me tight and wrap
me in your arms
because that's
the only thing
that protects from
any kind of harm.
Nibble on my ear
and wipe away the
tears before
they begin to fall.
Crawl under my
skin and start to
sin. Make my
feelings shake
from within and
let the shivers begin.
Darling I crave every
little inch of your flesh.
The sound of your heart
beat is my favorite melody.
I whisper to the moon that
this love lasts for an eternity.
Because deep down inside
i know you and I were
meant to be* ~

Days spent broken and
bent. Hurting and torn.
So close to falling and
hitting the floor. Having
a fear of shattering to a
million pieces. Hearing
demons screaming
around. Afraid to look
down and seeing my
shadow , cause it probably
looks like a clown. Holding
on to hope. Refusing to
leave earth. Trying to
drown the nervousness
out of the depth of my
bones. I will ache and
shake. I will drop my
knives and blades , because
this was not how I was
raised to behave. I will
refuse to be a slave to
my suicidal thoughts. I
will block my demons
from my thoughts. And
look for a way to untangle
the knots around the
ventricles of my heart.
And breathe with relief.
Cause I deserve a chance
to exist. I deserve a life
full of love and strength.
A life full of soft
melodies and
endless
faith ~

He gave me a ladder
to climb. To touch the
velvet skies up high. And
catch the silver moon. He
gave me a ladder that lead
to heaven where the angels
play their harps and flutes.
Where they twist and twirl
in pretty white gowns. Where
they flap their wings as their
voices rise up while they
sing about all beautiful things.
I'll wait for you and set a table for
two he said. We'll dine and
have a glass of wine from
freshly twisted vines. While
we dangle our feet from the
fluff of clouds. Laugh loudly
till our heart beats become
in sync. And sprinkle glitter
and gold after midnight. Where
the world is silent and every
one is asleep. Where the
young hearts are up telling
each other stories of love.
Where the girls and boys sigh
as they read romantic poems
about you and I* ~

I sewed a dress with
nothing but the best of
musical notes my own
ears have ever heard.
I sewed it from the
melodies that fell
from his maroon
coloured violin* ~

A girl who speaks to
him in the language
of poetry and love.

A boy who speaks to
her in the language of
the angels in the
heavens above* ~

Whiskey , cigarettes
and skull designed  hair
barrettes. A rusty old car
and the sunset view with him
by my side and his hand on
my thigh. That's all that we
need to get high while we look
up to the blood red sky*~

I don't want to be
invited for coffee
or tea on our next
date. Invite me
on a cup sea.
And tell me
romantic
poetry* ~

Under velvet skies i'll close
my eyes and dance.

Standing in the blue waves
of the sparkling sea.

Dancing in eternal movements. Shaking my hips and *******
for you.

Jumping up and down the
way dolphins do.

Moving my chest up and down
as the coins on my bra reflect
the sunshine.

Watching eternity flow from
my fingertips as the sweat
drips from between my
*******.

Lifting up my skirt to tease you
as I dance and move.

Seducing you in ways while the passion takes place inside of
your pants.

And the music of the gentle
waves makes you want to
get up and dance with me
along the shore.

Making you want to twist and
twirl with the girl who's under
the belly dancing suit.

The suit with beads and pearls.

The suit with golden coins
aligned on the bra cups.

The girl who's beauty can
drive one blind in a matter
of so little time.

The girl who enjoys dancing
for you* ~

Rise with me from
the ocean water and
salt. Lift me during
the sunset and dance
along the shore. Lift
me high enough to
touch the velvet skies.
Kiss me ******* the
blue ocean's shores.
Twist and twirl while
our toes caress the
golden sands. Help
me make all the shells
watching us blush and
awe as they shout out
for an encore. Kiss me
while we're both wet
from the gentle waves
splashing against our
exposed tanned skin.
Dance with me my love
till the sun sets down
and the night
begins* ~

Inject my veins with love and warm summer heat. Whisper to me something sweet. Your love is sweeter than any sugar beet. Undress my soul with those shimmering eyes. Mend my every broken bone like a doctor in disguise. Stitch up my wounds for they are still fresh do me a favor and caress my flesh. Darling you are made of a collection of beautiful atoms. Don't believe them when they say you look like scary phantoms. I'll shut my eyes and see you as I drift in distant sleep. Stay with me tonight so I don't weep. Promise you'll scare the dark shadows away and don't let them creep on my bedroom walls. I'll hold on to these moments in between for an eternity as I hear you whisper to my heart this is the beginning of a beautiful serenity ~

Craving you like cotton candy
blue. Like flower petals craving
the mornings dew. Like a child
wanting to watch piglet and winnie
the pooh. Oh baby its true. I miss you
the minute we say our goodbyes and
shake hands. It almost feels hard to
survive. My heart drops and shatters
the way meteor rocks fall from the skies
above. The air seems to get thin when
you leave me for a few seconds, minutes
or hours. It’s hard to breathe without
your hands on my chest. I need you in
every fraction of a second present in every
hour. Sit with me darling and spend all
your nights and days by my side. You’ve
become my happy little pills. My sun my
moon and all my stars. The goose bumps
and chills on my skin. And the light in my
eyes. The love we share will never be
known from those who surround us. You’ll
be like my secret favorite kind of drug.
And the cigarette I smoke when no one is
watching us from behind. Take my hand
now and run with me through the night.
Through the neighbors sprinklers on their
front lawns through their wet cement
pavements on the side of the road. Run
with me in the woods. Kiss me under the
moonlight and the fern trees tangled
branches. And in that moment ill scream
out with the last breath in this chest of
mine when the hour is night and the hollering
of the wolves fills the dead of night it’s true
I crave you like cotton candy blue. Like
flower petals craving the mornings dew.
Like a child wanting to watch piglet and
winnie the pooh* ~

My baby is feeling sad
and blue today. His tummy
hurts him too. I feel his pain.
It's spreading through my
every vein. It's in the ventricles
of my heart and moving to my
lungs and brain. The typewriter
in my head is writing love letters
to make him feel ok. My eyes
want to cry tidal waves to wash
his hurt away. Get well soon babe
I promise you'll feel fine in a
matter of so little time. I love you
I love you is all that my tongue
could really say to him on such
a sad blue day* ~

Written with Nannette Wakefield and I :

Rose petals in the tub
are waiting for you and
I to jump in. Waiting
desperately to caress
our skin.
The night has come and
door bell never rang. Your
phone turns me to voice
mail. I'm all alone crying
on the bathroom floor.
Minutes after I get a
text that your with
someone else.
I cried as I took a few pills.
In the tub I went with my
night gown. The water
covered my every inch.
as I planned to drown. To
drown my sorrow to drown
my misery and shame.
As I was feeling low and
cheap I wanted to shut my
eyes under the running
water and sleep. So much
pain had filled my heart
and lungs. So much hurt
flowed along the blood in
my veins.
I heard echoes under water
of your name. I heard the
promises you've once told
me while I was in your bed.

How could a human heart
be so cold. How could you
kiss one's innocent lips and
play them like a magic trick ?
How could you fake love just
to please yourself and sin ?
How could you expect me
to cope with all of this ?
As I begin to sink slowly
down into the tepid water
I feel so disappointed to
have put my trust in you.
I feel so betrayed and
isolated and alone.
I start to feel the affects
of the pills I had carelessly
taken and then I start to
reawaken.
Who the hell are you to
make me want to end my
life when its you that chose
to cut me deeply with that
sharp knife.
You will not win.  And as I
see a petal float across
my face my heart seems
to be brought back to life
and race.
I sit up still groggy with
the effects of the pills but
with a new sense of my life
my purpose my will.
So don't come begging
me once more. Because
the girl you once knew
and loved does not live
at this door ~

Let me rest upon your
shore. The waves have
been dragging me down
lately and beating my body
against the rocks. I won't
deny that i can't take this no
more. Lift my head up from the ocean's cruel waves so i don't
drown. Take me to a better place
like in the story of PeterPan
because this one is making me
frown. Oh darling paint me
a smile if your talented hands
can. Paint me with the colours
you have on your bedroom walls.
Use pretty shades of pink and
green as if i have make up on to
cover my bruised lips and the
scars on these hips. Paint me
close to you with my head
resting upon your shore* ~

I dance to the melodies
of your heartbeats. I get
high on the love it pumps.
I carry it in the palms of
my hands and treasure it
like my own , to protect
it from any coming
storms and winter's
blistering cold ~

Your sad and blue.
Seeing you like that
breaks me too. Hold
my hand. I can't fix all
your pain. But i'll walk
with you through your
flames. I can be your
clown and flip that
frown upside down.
We'll walk together all
over town. Under the
stars and night sky.
Till you let out all the
things you have bottled
deep down inside. We
can hug and cry. I'll do
whatever you want to
make you feel alright.
Trust me we won't lose
a thing if we give it a try.
I promise you'll feel better
in a matter of time. And
before you know it we'll
burst in colours and
giggles too* ~

Do you ever wonder
if flowers cry the way
clouds do up in the
sky* ~

Lock on the door. Lust and desire
fill their minds. “Kiss me poetry kiss
me on your porcelain floor kiss me
against the wall” she says. She begs
for more she begs to feel his fire all
over her skin and from within. Fingers
in the curls of his hair. Nails in his
skin, love fumes in the air. Her skin
slapped on his. Reaching down inside
her thighs to her knees he pauses as he
switches directions indenting his fingers
into her flesh. This couldn’t get any better
than this. But reality was harsh and cruel
for it was just a daydream she made up in
her head while sitting alone in her room.
But soon he’ll make her dreams come true
as he promised to kiss her in the light of the
day and the light of the moon* ~

He whispered words
of love to the moon.
Minutes after I found
flowers growing out of
my scars and wounds* ~

Sometimes I feel I'm going nowhere
I'm moving but I just can't find the way
Surrounded by a million faces
They all say they're my best friends

Take another drink to hide the sorrow
But the morning came and nothing's changed
The concrete skies are rushing by me
And this road is getting old

I light a smoke up but not
to get high. My head is filled
up with thoughts of why. The
skies look the same and the
people around are becoming
lame. Sometimes i feel that i
might go insane. I go to the
bar and get another drink.
Whiskey i think is good for
washing these feelings away.
Especially on these lonely
Saturdays

I heard the radio play your favorite song
Made me think of all the things we used to do
There's so much we used to talk about
And now to endure the pain I must scream and shout

I wonder if i do will you
hear me like the neighbors
do ? The skies are turning
sad and blue. And that's
like the way i feel from the
inside too. I touched my chest
yesterday and felt the cracks
that you left on this heart of
mine. You bled me dry and
left me alone thinking of
suicide with tears on the
bathroom's porcelain floor.
These eyes cried for several
nights. You left me living in
misery and walked out with
not a single goodbye. It's
time to move on. Time to
move to the light. I might
find someone better than
you who's sweet like Winnie
the pooh , Eeyore and Piglet
too. Someone that'll love me
and kiss my scars. Someone
who won't leave me with thoughts
of wanting to die. Forgetting
you seems like the only cure
and right thing to do

But the most important thing is to keep moving on
through. Because as the sun rises this morning it
seems like the best thing to do

His smile can cure cancer.
He's the prettiest shade of
handsome. Probably if he
asks me to dance with him ,
from excite i would't know
how to answer. A collection
of beautiful cells , stars and
atoms , that's what he's made
of. Skin stretched perfectly
over his lovely bones and
wide manly shoulders. Curls
looking like wild flowers hanging
up in his hair. He's the most
prettiest man that God has ever created. He's a flawless doll above
us all. Sometimes one could say he's like poetry but i won't deny he's better than what the poets wrote back in
the old centuries. Starting with Shakespeare and ending up with Edgar Allen Poe.  A fine piece of
art is what i could say to define
his kind. But above this all he's the love of my life because he's the
fairest of them all* ~

Drink up and
gulp. A cup of
tea. A cup of sea.
A cup of all the
things we could
possibly be* ~

Air ?
I feel it
Your voice ?
I hear it
Passion ?
It's filling up
my broken
bones.
Cocoon ?
Turned into
a pretty butterfly.
Light ?
I see it and feel
it pouring on my
face.
Fingers ?
Caressing my
skin.
Love ?
It was the only
thing i believed
in.
You ?
You saved me
from myself and
heard my desperate
cries on those
dark lonely nights* ~

Just like the song says
"The only worship is in the
bedroom. And heaven is
when I'm alone with you."
There is no sin in love. I'll
forever cherish you in the
golden silky sheets of my bed.
I'll bow down to the light coming
out of you. Your all that i put
my faith in. Your the one
who makes me feel safe.
Heaven's gates open every
time you hold me tighter
in your arms. The tighter
you hold the lighter i feel.
Falling free and drifting
in the winds. Like pollen
grains and pigeon feathers
in the season of spring.
Like angels falling with
their pair of wings spread
out beautifully and free.
The wrong feels so right.
And I'm willing to love
you in the sunlight. I don't
care if they sharpen their
knives i don't care how
they'll tighten our nooses.
But i won't give up and
listen to the sad blues
they'll put on before they
hang our heads up in the
sky. Just promise you'll
hold on when they announce
a war on our love. Now
listen carefully to me no
living soul can tear our
love apart. No demon nor
evil will split the love we
carry inside of our hearts. You're
my beginning and end.
And our love is Invincible.
and incredible.That's how
we'll forever be. Just
you and me. Tangled in our
bed sheets. Nesting and resting
in our home all alone. Exchanging
kisses while the moonlight
touches our delicate milky white
skin after midnight. Me
loving you is all that our
society will ever see* ~

Lips shut. Pin in.

Words trapped.
Metaphors drowned.

Body drenched in
unread letters.

Ink spilled all over the
room. Black stained
the white sheets and
curtains too.

Time stopped. Noises
went off.

The heart got mad. And
the soul went sad.

I was taught to never
speak my own thoughts
out loud.

I never was proud of
letting them lay both
hands on me.

I never was proud of
letting them silence
me starting from the
age of three.

Been quiet for a very
long time. Kept all my
words bottled up inside
that throat of mine.

Life wasn't easy or fine.

But the time has come
to set myself free.

To unlock the pin and
brush all the chaos off
my bruised purple
coloured skin* ~

Baby feet going thump
thump thump.

Baby feet going jump
jump jump.

Baby feet running up
the grassy hill.

With no breaks to pause
and gasp for fresh air.

Baby bunny flops his little
ears to the left and the right
as if they are a helicopters
fan.

Ready for take off up high
in the skies.

Holding tight on a dandelion's
stem.

With his tail white as milk
and soft as silk.

Baby bunny drifts away in
the summer's warm winds.

Over the river sides and
green hills*  ~

Nothing to lose,
No love to prove.
Only my words to confuse.
Let our words move to a groove.
For a world will see.
What the written word can be.
Stronger than the might of a sword.
To stop you people getting bored.
Listen out loud.
Yes, all of you in the crowd.
It's time for peace.
Put down your guns.
And let the violence cease*.

Therefore I’ll watch the clouds 
drop down the rain. As I dig out 
the best of words from inside my 
veins. Spread my thoughts using 
nothing but a poets feather and ink. 
While I try not to blink as to watch 
the people of the world drop down 
their silver swords. and harmful guns. 
I’m not saying we should all act pure like 
nuns. Now let’s start off from where we 
begun. Nothing to lose, No love to prove.
Only my words to confuse. Believe or not 
I’m writing these words without even 
sipping on ***** or listening to jazz and 
blues ~