Red.
Red was her dress on the day you met
And the blood that sped up in your veins when you made eye contact
Red were her lips the first time you kissed her
And her cheeks when you told her she's the most beautiful girl you've ever seen
Red were the petals you spread on your bed when you made love to her for the very first time
And her nails when they scratched your back as she held you tight.
Red are the roses you gave her when you asked her for her hand
Red is the fire in your heart you still feel every time you touch
Red is your love for her
Red.

I am not perfect
But I am not fake
I'm really crying
I'm not acting like I ache
I am not pretending
I don't need your views
I'm crying 'cause you hurt me
I don't want to be the news
It's not for attention
That's not why I cry
I cry because I'm hurting
And you're the reason why

It hurts how people stare.
And I know I shouldn't care.
But it's the way they make me feel...
Like I'm not even real

I'm often delusional
I always assume
That in a world of tight spaces
they'll always make room
For the one undeserving
Who makes most mistakes
I always assume
That all that it takes
Is one more shot
One more day off
Because tomorrow I'll go back
And it will all pay off
But then there's all of the make ups
There is no restart
I'm not just delusional
I'm falling apart

You took me away
From my awful dark place
You painted a smile
On my melancholy face
But then you dragged me away
Kicking and screaming
The best part of my life
like I was only dreaming
And now all I can do
Is turn around and imagine
That maybe you’ll be the prince
Who saves me from the dragon.

Our fantasy worlds were endless
With creatures, and castles, and more
Kings and queens from other worlds
A Crazy-town galore.
Then with one stomp of your tiny foot
A million worlds disappeared
Even the planet where our hearts held hands
Is no longer here.

I’m racking my brain,
I don’t understand,
he’ll look in my eyes
and he’ll hold my hand
I’m searching my mind,
but it’s so far away,
words cannot explain
the things I want to say.
Moments get awkward,
and times they get tough.
and sometimes texting just isn’t enough.
he’s like a tattoo
forever like a scar
He’s hours away.
But that’s never felt so *near.

Would it scare you if I told you I still loved you a lot?
Would you tremble? Would you cower away just at the thought?
Do you miss me? Do you want me even though I'm far away?
Do you fear me like I fear what you would say
If I asked you to your face if you still loved me too?
Do you fear me? Do you still love me? Please say that you do
'Cause I don't know what I'd do if you told me you've moved on
Do you miss me? Do you want me even though I'm far gone?

Lungs are frozen
Out of breath
Hurt, sorry
Never rest.

They’re running, sprinting, flying past
I can’t carry the weight of my over-sized ***

Trying to run
I’m done
This is it.
Because, of course,
I’m too fat for this ****.

I call myself a feminist and you cringe
If you've got a problem, Sir, just build a bridge.
I'll cry you a river if you'll get over it.
I'm done dealing with your stupid ****.

Fighting with the world
Over what is right or wrong
Knowing that you’re right
And that you have been all along.
Arguing a lot
Over what should and shouldn’t be
Some one’s always wrong
Although it seems it’s always me
Fighting over problems
Problems never to be solved
And never admitting to failure
Until all the fights are resolved.

Some people seek their solace in a bottle of ***
Some people wait for happiness that surely won't come
Some people find their destiny just wandering down
A road of broken promises where loneliness is found

But they find it
They find comforting sorrow
They find 'em
Finding lost tomorrows

I just can’t make it right
So everything is wrong.
Fine.
I just can’t fix the pain
So everything hurts.
Fine.
All you bring is problems
And nothing is ever solved
Fine.
I just can’t mend my broken heart
No one can make the pain go away
Fine.
But I won’t let you make it worse
I won’t let you hurt me again.
Not Fine.

I don't know if it's strength or weakness that keeps me fighting
I just know there's a fire that's slowly igniting

But deep in the winter it's gone with the wind
What will I do when the lighting is dim?

Please don't turn out the light.

Give me five more minutes of summer
Give me time to prepare
Give me a little more time
I'm not ready yet; I'm scared

Give me five more hours of summer
Give me time to rest
Give me time to be free again
And let me be my best

Give me five more days of summer
A work week that's free of work
Give me an escape
From everything that hurts

Give me five more weeks of summer
Hell, give me fifty-two
Give me time to spend
On me, before I suffer through

Give me five more months of summer
Please, just set me free
Give me five more years of summer
And please, just let me be.

I may just be confused,
but hell, I’ve always been
maybe I’ve been lost,
in the state of mind I’m in
It’s seems to be the same,
but still the difference is clear
that it’s not just a coincidence,
that we are ever so near
Maybe it is fate,
That this book has opened here
To a page that’s clean and empty,
but the words, are plain & clear
Laughing at the darkness,
for it’s all just one sick joke
The sun is only hiding
behind it’s starry cloak.
Standing here together
but feeling so alone.
Because no matter what I do,
My flaws are always shown.

You used to be perfect,
until you thought that you were
You think you’re amazing
You think you’re a star.
You used to be sweet
Like candy like cream
But now you’ve been ruined
But I know you’re better than you seem.
You have a heart,
I know it’s still beating...
You still have some kindness
But sadly it’s fleeting.
I thought you were perfect
But you’re conceded and vain.
I’d never fall for you
No, never again.

Forever is a long, long time
But if I were with you I think I'd be fine
Forever is whatever you want it to be
So tell me, will you spend forever with me?

What is life without perspective?
How do you set your mind free?
It takes no detective
to use your eyes to see

Open those eyes
Experience today
Take your time to realize
And free yourself to make your way

Make your way into happiness
Living and learning
Find the answers for which
You have been forever yearning

Forgive me, Father, but I'm no sinner
Crossed the finish line first but I'll never be the winner
And it burns like fire and stings like dry ice
To be a god ****** virtue disguised as a vice
To be an ant in a farm full of cows and sheep and pigs
To be kindling in a fire, burning like a twig
Forgive me, Father, if I'm not who I should be
But I'm not a sinner for just being me

Forgive me, Father, but I'm no sinner
Crossed the finish line first but I'll never be the winner
And it burns like fire and stings like dry ice
To be a god ****** virtue disguised as a vice
To be an ant in a farm full of cows and sheep and pigs
To be kindling in a fire, burning like a twig
Forgive me, Father, if I'm not who I should be
But I'm not a sinner for just being me

The words on my lips are too sweet to reveal
So I beg for your pardon as my poem is concealed
The rhyme and the prose, I'm too scared to say
So it fails to see the light of day
The words they lust but will reach you not
But they will live on. They'll live on in my thought.
There are words that I want you to know
And I'm sorry, I'm sorry
But I can't let them show.

*Forgive me

You want me to kiss you
You've made that clear
But what happens after?
You go back to your dear
The one that you love
The right one for you
In this situation
I don't know what to do
I want to kiss you
I've made it clear
But for the time being
I need to escape from here

I've always had four words I wanted to here
but now "I love you too" is my biggest fear

You told me I was fragile
I had to agree
I knew that eventually
you would hurt me
You said you would never
But nevertheless,
You hurt me more
than I ever could guess
And now I am crying
Like never before
Crying since the day
You walked out the door
*And I couldn’t miss you more

Is this the friend zone?
Or is it just hell?
Do you even notice?
I could never tell.
Is this the friend zone?
Or am I lost?
If this is what love is
It comes at too high a cost.

I know you think it's funny
But try not to laugh
You put me back together
Then you tore me back in half
You made me feel perfect
Then left me to cry
I know you think you're funny
But why?

We haven’t talked in a long while
And I’ve never had I bigger smile
I’m getting over you.
I haven’t seen your icy eyes
Ever since those sorry goodbyes
But I’m getting over you
I haven’t stopped thinking about the words you said
About that wonderful day, that day that I dread
But I’m getting over you
“We’re just friends” you broke my heart
Or maybe it’s been broken from the start
I can’t get over you

I'm trying to tell you a story
To let you know you're wrong
To tell you that you're beautiful
Whether or not you feel you belong

I'm trying to make you acknowledge
That, darling, you're perfect to me
The beauty in your heart
Is really all I see

Why so insecure?
When did you stop following your dreams?
Why don't you see your life
Is worth much more than it may seem?

I'm trying to end this story
Though there is much more to tell
So tell yourself the truth
And stop saying that you're well

*Just please, get well soon

My artwork is clutter
My novel is ****
My poetry's raw
And that's pretty much it.
That's all that there is
That's all I can do
And all this time I've been blaming you.
But the fact is
That's not what hurts the most
It's not that you are gone
It's just my soul's become a ghost

Everyone’s gone
and I’m left with you
But it won’t be long
Before you’re gone too.
Nobody cares,
No, not anymore
Are you even there?
I cannot be sure.
I can’t even talk
Without them walking away
But what about you?
Will you? Will you stay?
I get no response
They won’t answer my words
Is it just them?
Or is it everyone in the world?
Now everyone’s gone
and I’m left with you
But now that they’ve gone
You’ve left me too

This isn't about you
I'm leaving without you
I'm leaving alone

You should've thought about me
When you left without me
Left me without a home

You said goodbye and walked away
Said you didn’t want to go
But you turned around and I started to cry
but I couldn’t let it show
Was it easy for you?
To break my heart?
To say goodbye and leave?
Am I overreacting? Or am I just being naive?
You said goodbye, this is the end
and you went back to her
You wiped my mind from everything else
Now everything’s a blur
*And all I can see is you.

He never even said goodbye,
Gone with the wind so thin
I never even stopped to think,
what it would be like without him.
He never even said he’d go.
Left with such a bitter surprise.
I never even stopped to stare
into his icy blue eyes.
He never even said it back,
never told me he loved me too,
I never even backed away
From all the crap he put me through.
*And now he’s gone.

Goodbye. The word that pains me so.
Because it tells me that I must let go.
But he'll never know...
Because my feelings will never show.

Don't ask me stupid questions,
don't feed me stupid lies.
I'm sick of all the torture,
I'm done with your goodbyes.

For the first time in my life, it's like I can't put my feelings into words
I'm out of time and out of breath, it's not my turn
If I knew anything, it was how to talk
I could rhyme before I could walk
I could yell, I could whine, I could rant, I could sing
But now it's as if I can't do anything.
My goo-goos and ga-gas were melodic and sweet
But I'm all out of words. I've been beat.

I'm trying to survive
This life without you
I'm just a blade of grass in the dew.

Drowning in the mornings
Shrugging it away
Staring in the night
Stepped on in the day

A simple organism
Dull and afraid
A speck in a field
I'm just a lonely blade

I stated my grievances
3 for each class
Each handful of problems
Each pain in the ***

I stated my grievances
But thought of the perks
I couldn't find a piece
That didn't really hurt

So I stated my grievances
Shouted them loud
I'd love to discuss them
But I'm *not allowed

Can't you give me a break
After all I do is ache
From all the things.

You ignore the tears I cry
Pressure me to fly
Without wings.

You treat me like an adult, when my mind's in a cradle
The stress that I face is a disease that is fatal
But you want me to do well.

You say I can do it when you know it's too hard
You've made me feel stupid, you've left me scarred
Still you can't tell.

The inferiority, the pressure, the stress
You lie and say I can do it if I try to confess
I can't take it anymore.

You've made it harder, harder to believe
You've made me want to storm out, to leave
And I'm halfway out the door.

Hands tapping on the table
Twiddling your thumbs
Thinking, watching, waiting
For what is yet to come.

Fingers interlocking
Smiles so wide and grand
Happiness envelopes me
When I hold your hand

Hands speaking their own language
With gestures, touches, and signs
But hands mean the most to me
When you're holding mine

We build our bridges
We tear them down
We wish for kisses
We get frowns
We accept it
As though it's all we deserve
Because we know we were meant to be seen.
Not heard.

We build our cities
Live our lives
We hide our struggles and our strifes
They don't want to hear it
So we don't say a word
Because we know we were meant to be seen.
Not heard

And we take it
We listen to them
We **** it up
Again and again
The stories that we cannot tell
For we were meant to be seen and not heard
In this hell

I make music, I make noise
They try to tear me down
But they can't speak over my voice
They try to quiet me
But listen to my words
I was meant to be seen
*and heard

**** me now
Please do, please do
I'd rather face hell
Than face the likes of you
I don't want to see your face
Kiss your lips, feel you close
Because the heartache pills I'm taking
Are more than my dose
It feels good for a moment
Then the guilt fades in
For a minute it's bright
Then eternity is dim
I know what you want
You want that moment of lust
But I want you to love me
But instead I must
Let go of all of the things that we had
What once could be happy
Just always ends sad

**** me now
Please do, please do
I'd rather face hell
Than face the likes of you
I don't want to see your face
Kiss your lips, feel you close
Because the heartache pills I'm taking
Are more than my dose
It feels good for a moment
Then the guilt fades in
For a minute it's bright
Then eternity is dim
I know what you want
You want that moment of lust
But I want you to love me
But instead I must
Let go of all of the things that we had
What once could be happy
Just always ends sad

He looks at me
I fake a smile,
I run and hide and cry a while.
He looks at me
fear trickles down my spine
but again and again I tell him I’m fine.
He looks at me
like mind control
Staring me down and eating my soul.
He looks at her
like she’s a work of art
He’ll love her, and he’ll break my heart.

He looks at me
I fake a smile,
I run and hide and cry a while
He looks at me
Fear trickles down my spine
But again and again I tell him I’m fine
He looks at me
Like mind control
Staring me down and devouring my soul
He looks at her
Like she’s a work of art
He’ll love her, and he’ll break my heart.

Help me
Engage me
Love me
P**lease

Her lips were full; her curves more-so
Her sensitive skin was blushing
This siren's song grew louder but
The world told me "no touching"
Her lips were red but bitten white
Her eyes were still and unblinking
She made the air feel ever hotter
Too hot for rational thinking
Her lips formed words and melodies
As my eyes traced her bone structure
I wanted to kiss her; she wanted it too
But society yelled "don't touch her"
Her lips were beautiful I wanted them so
But she would always be forbidden
An act so sweet and innocent
Is an act never to be forgiven
Her lips grew nearer; mine did too
'Til our mouths were nearly brushing
This siren's song grew louder, still
The world told me "no touching"
Her lips kissed mine so calm and chaste
She saved a damsel in distress
But storybooks don’t tell the tales
Of a girl and her beautiful princess