Sometimes she hid behind her laptop screen
Or maybe she'd hide in her sleep, in her dreams
Wouldn't face the world outside that hall
Wouldn't go downstairs for fear she'd fall
She slept in late and went to bed soon
And only found comfort under the glow of the moon
But the moon doesn't glow
It's just a reflection
Just like the soul
Of the girl aforementioned
A girl hidden in a place where the demons couldn't see
That girl was afraid and that girl was me.

Take me back to Tennessee in the Garten of Kinder
The border of the south where there's barely a winter
And when there was, the snow was stolen
From the boy next door who wanted some snowmen
Take me back to the eggs on the floor where she slipped
But she was okay after Mommy's forehead kiss
Take me back to the little things that made it all okay
Take me back to that fight we had every other day
Because we loved too much to keep up a fight
So we took some breaks for one day or a night
Take me back to the "friends forever"
Forever eternalized:
*Misremembered

I'm not afraid of the future
I'm just afraid to repeat the past
I am afraid of the unanswered questions
And I'm too afraid to ask.

I'm just afraid of the missing link
Of the chain I've been climbing so long
I'm just afraid of trying
Because I'm afraid of being wrong

Make me into a rainbow
To lighten the day.
Make me into the showers
That bring tulips in May.
Make me into the sunlight that helps the world thrive
Make me into the medicine that helps one survive.
Make me into the spring or the summer or fall
Make me into a megaphone
*And listen to my call

I'm not leaving
I'm not waking up today
I'll stay here
And sleep this ******* world away
I'm not leaving
Not getting up and getting out
There's no reason
There's no benefit of doubt
I'm not leaving
I will not face this ******* life
I'm just tired
Wake me up later tonight

Please just leave me alone
Leave me here to rot
You think that I am fine?
Believe me I am not.

Please just leave me alone
As my sanity demolishes at last
Please don't make me cry
I've cried enough in days passed.

Please just leave me alone
I'm begging you, begging you please
My mouth says it again and again
But my mind keeps screaming
*don't leave

You dip your toes into the water
Before you're off the diving board
You play the scale before the melody
You learn to shoot before you score

You say hello before you kiss me
You say goodbye before you leave
How do I know that you'll come back?
You've got to show me before I'll believe.