Dragged by the ankles and kicked while I'm down

Falling
           and
                Falling
                          and
                               Drowning
                                               by
                                                 now

Pushed me into the water, the lava, the hell

Pushing
             and
                  Pushing
                              and
                                   Killing
                                           Myself

Saved by an angel whose touch is a curse

Why
   Couldn't
                They
                        Just
                             ****
                                   Me
                                       First?

I don't want to go forward
I don't want to go back
But I can't stay here
I know that for a fact.

I just want to go home
Escape the present, the past
Terrified of the future
Coming way too fast.

Mom, my head hurts
My stomach aches.
Mom, I'm losing it
Mom, can I go late?

Mom, I forgot my homework
I just don't want to fail
Don't make me go back
Mom, I'm feeling frail.

Mom, I've got the chicken pox!
Mom, I have the plague!
Mom, I can't walk
Mom, I broke my leg!

Mommy, mommy
Don't make me go
I'm completely falling apart.
Mom, I refuse to leave
Every where I hurt.

There's no excuse, no reason why
Everything just *****.
I know I need to learn something
I just don't give a ****.

It's not like I'm learning anyway
No answers for which I've yearned
On one hand, I can count
The values that I've learned.

My mistakes don't make me stupid
My mistakes are cries for help.
So help me, *******.
Don't put me through hell.

I'm scared to get it wrong
So I don't try to get it right
I don't want to deal with you
Instead of sleeping at night.

Your standards don't define me
Every cloud has a lining
Just sometimes that lining's obscure

I'm not defined
As that blurry grey line
And I will not be ignored.

I don't know if it's strength or weakness that keeps me fighting
I just know there's a fire that's slowly igniting

But deep in the winter it's gone with the wind
What will I do when the lighting is dim?

Please don't turn out the light.

Oh, the things I didn't see
Blinded by the mystery
Searching for your hidden past
That you keep behind that stupid mask
Do you have a problem with trust?
Did you say love when you meant lust?
What have you got to hide?
Behind your icy eyes.