love has no limitations
or rules to abide by,
no age limit,
no gender specifics,
no culture restrictions,
and no expiration date,
love is simply love

sometimes i wonder
if i've ever crossed your mind,

maybe i'm only a quick thought,

maybe you might think my hair looks pretty, or that my eyes turn green in the light,

maybe it's just a fleeting glance,
so quick it makes you dizzy,

maybe i'm just a "I think I've seen her before"

or "she was in that class I had"

or maybe you've spent hours wondering what my favorite movie was or what it would feel like to hold my hand,

And maybe,
maybe you've never
thought about me at all

i wish i could scream,
let every alcohol-soaked emotion out,
i wish that i could shout
until every tissue in my throat tore apart,

because i see you everywhere
especially places i'm not,
and it kills me, it ******* kills me,
because all i want is to be yours,
but that will never happen,
and i want to lay down and give up,

i don't love you,
i need you,
but you will
never need me

i love it.

the pain,
the absolute torture,
of my heart ripping itself up,

at first i hated all it entailed,
but now i **** up for fun,
because the shockwaves of aching
is what keeps me up a night,

it livens my body,
i walk around in pieces,
yet i've learned to live with being unfinished,

and maybe it won't get better,
but at least i've learned to love the pain

i'm watching a movie
in which you're the
damaged soul,

and i'm the stupid
girl who tried to
fix you