I just had a dream
She gave me the kiss
That changed my life.
I can still feel it on my lips

My silhouette
You tie me to my core
You get me everything
My everything

That which burns brightest
Burns fastest
But you keep me burning
My everything

I see darkness in light
you see light in my darkness
I love you
My everything

Do you still think lowly of me
My love
Do the heavens lie to you about me
Am I not capable of making you happy
Am I not supposed to see you smile

Can you hold me please
For the world is against us and the in between
Can you please come close
Let your light chase my demons away

Could I chase away the fear in you
Hold me tight for it will be okay
They won't bite princess
For you are a goddess

Kiss me
Stick with me
**** him
And don't let anyone define who you love.
My love.

Hey Neptune
Why you so blue
Don't go outside
You might get a flu

Hey Neptune
You so cold
Not your fault that love don't come to you
Don't cry you changing your hue

Come closer Neptune
No need to get lonely
Mama's smiling at you
Believe me, she's proud of you

You are beautiful Neptune
Don't cry, the atmosphere's pretty coz of you
Take my guitar, play those tunes
For love has left you

Don't be sad
I'm here for you
I know it feels safer away from you
But let me be with you either way

Thinking my way to sleep

Hoping the darkness of the night and the howls of the wolves don't consume me

Hoping I don't destroy the silence of my mind with my cry

Hoping all never goes well as it did before

The song playing
Makes this moment satisfying
Chikwere makes me think of you
Holding your waist
This moment ain't a waste

Accidentally you step on my shoe
I look with a smile
And see the spotlight in you iris
If only
This could last forever

Am cold
It's winter
But my heart ain't warming me up like it used to

Ten blankets over me
Crying over you
Yeah i said i understand
Well that was my tongue spelling words

I hope all shall be well
Every other sign leads to nowhere else
But my hopeless kingdom
Of pain and no dawn

It's over
Finally it's over
Yet am stranded in these snowy streets
Between you and me

Coz every other sign leads to nowhere else
But my hopeless kingdom

hey you
sorry i had to **** you with hatred
just so empty on the inside
don't blame me
blame the stars for being so pretty.

weird, right?
that everything is not all fate
destiny is a scam
and i hate you

If only I could take out my head
Wash my mind in the shower
Leave it out to dry
And have a whole day without using one
Then I would be okay
No thoughts for a whole day
And that's peace to me.
Not figuring out a thing

is there a problem
is there a problem with my midnight lights being on

i am scared of the dark
that's why i need them

i love the dark
that's why i write out my demon's speech

but i need the lights on
so i can write down my dark soul on paper

in the midnight dark, i need my lights
so i can write down what is on the inside

in my dark inside, i scribe
with my dark pen, and coffee by my side

i'm sorry i need my midnight lights on
i am terrified of the dark

Found her
Loved her
But never met her
Except on photograph

I did everything to leave my kingdom
I did everything to leave my cocoon
I broke down the wall
For you I exposed myself

I'm going back to rule
I'm going back to my pain
I'm building my wall higher than it was
And I am concealing myself from you

@nukethelizards

I took the road to the mountains
Just wanted to be alone
Yes, we live in the highlands
Never afraid of wolves and porcupines

"Hello, you there"
"I need some ****"
The pain I could feel creep into me
I need this smoke real fast

With my bike
That I pushed instead
I prayed it could get foggy
Mummy and daddy use it to their advantage anyway
To hide scars
To fight each other and call names

Yes, this trip was to get away from the world
But before I could, I had one more thing to remind myself
How it felt to be high
High up here
High on everything, that's awful

Snatched my last pinch of white powder
And thought of everyone's betrayal and wonder
When they found out that I had been a pretence all this time
That I was never the boy they admired
Just a ****** up boy
Who used women
Who had to run from home
Who used to live in his car

It was not my fault, was it?
I never wanted this
I lost the girl that I love
And papa killed mama
But who cares anyway

Smoke through my nostrils
And white patches of the powder around my lips
Reminded me how much more the world hated me
I know you can't understand
Coz you were different at age 23
Or you will be better by the tree

Don't cry, coz friends never looked at me that way.
Just bury me once I'm done looking at the orange sunset
Once I'm done with this blunt

Sunday
They call it beautiful
Sunset
Refreshing
But I'm still cold
My heart icy
Angels departed
Spirit low

To many thoughts
Deaf to my preacher
Blind to glowing faces
Sadness surrounds me
I don't wanna go home
I don't wanna leave the house
More peace in my cocoon.

Noise I hear
People dancing their sorrows away
I prefer mine stay
They somehow keep me pushing
Pushing to write more of these poems
Fill my diary with emotions
Get drunk on Fridays
And just chill away from the world.

I just need you to tell me.
I think I am beautiful.
Do you think so too?

I could kiss a million boys
But believe me when I say
I dream of your lips every night

I thought being an engineer was the coolest job in the world
So I wanted to be one
Everyone praised me for this, telling me how rich I will be

I thought having girls at your disposal was the best life
Boys praised me for this, so I danced to get more
At the end I became the saddest *******

I thought praying and preaching
Repenting all the time would me make feel acceptable
Wanting to look good
So I fought for the preacher's seat
I just became the miserable thorn in the ***

Now, all that makes me smile and fulfilled
Is the tone of the note
It cuts me through
I just wanna play and play

What is wrong with this world?
The very person I do not wanna see
The universe has just ensured I spend the whole day with her
Couldn't my wish be fulfilled?
I wanna move on but the universe decides to **** it up.
She was my life, never fair
Now I hate my life, because I love her too much

If I go to the land of no return, will you miss me???

Day in day out we fought
You do know I loved you though

One year later and I can't still forget you
You were the light of my life

I never knew why I deserved this
I still cringe at the pain for taking for you

I never knew it was sin
I never knew I would be punished for love

I hoped we would get along
I hoped we would be on three same page

I knew you loved me
I don't know if you still love me

One year later and am still trying to get over you
Many girls I've dated, but they couldn't stop me from thinking about you

I don't know why I deserved this
I don't know why I suffered this

I loved you then
I love you now
Pretending to be happy
How can I yet you were my happiness

I miss the day we would argue

She took hold of me
She was bleeding
I saw her get cold
Yet she still caught hold of me

She tried to keep me warm
Even as she turned lifeless
You will be okay
I could only watch the smile

I never intended not to protect her
She took the blame for me
Now I got to be strong for her
Too much weight on me

She just watches over me
Every night she kisses me
Every night I watch her little fire
Rekindle my insides

Broken
Hurt
Heart

Chapped
Faded
Lips

Broken
Damaged
Bones

Wish­ I could feel her hands on my wounds again.

Hot
Dense
Death

Is all that is left of her

Beautiful
Chocking
Empty

Is all that is left of her

I miss you Venus

The slow gradual non stop progress of time that is slowly guiding us all to an inevitable demise.

But lately
What I've been crying most about
Is myself
The person I used to be and lost
And the person in the present
With no clue about his future

@nukethelizards

My spirit's broken
Tortured and destroyed
Can't keep love for a second
A minute, how have I tried

Can't tell my friends
My pain and empty state
In several superposition states
I morph from one me to another me

Who am I has a different answer every day
Tried to be better but I **** at everything
I miss my Hennessy
At least she knew what I should say

Wrote poems about Mercury
Can't go to the movies
Pick up any girl from the club
Pretend just for the night

The devil is a liar
So am I,
I'm okay I would lie
But trust me,  I'm okay