Somtimes I ponder on the thought of what could have been
On how different things would be
On how you out of all people, you have always placed a smile on my face
I ponder on what could have been
I ponder on the differences
I ponder on the future that could have been happening
I ponder on the now that would have changed our lives but the things I ponder on didnt happen
The differences are different
The future is already arranged for something else
The now is already happening
But the one thing that remains always is the smile that you placed on my face
My love
The thing that keeps me going sometimes are the silly things you would say
The funny things you would do
The changes you have made.
See you are unique
You are a one of a kind
Your mind is expanding in ways I would have never imagined
Your heart beats more peaceful and calmer than ever
You have changed in a way that makes me see you as a better and extraordinary person
See you have changed but also have changed my feelings for you
You have changed my way of thinking in a way
You have impacted my life to a level where
I feel like the sun itself hugs me
The moon says hello
The stars brighten up my night
The clouds give me that extra push
See you have done all of this by just placing that one smile on my face
So thank you for everything
Thank you.
A million times, thank you.
You truely are someone in which I wouldnt mind to ponder on.

Smooth skin
The quiet sound of light breathing
The warmth
The press of your body on mine
Your arms around me
Hands on my chest
Stroking my neck
My face
Your fingers running through my hair
Slowly
Slowly
Gently
My eyes closed
Not tired enough to sleep
But safe enough to try
Your closeness
Feeling your every movement
Your gentle shifting
Your examining eye
Pondering over me
Your brooding mind thinking
Quietly
Peacefully
No safer place
No better place
Than in your arms

i have eyes only for you
you only have eyes for him, or him, or sometimes him, but not me
or maybe you do, but we never look at the same time
what a shame that would be
like continually missing your train over and over and over,
watching the receding black smoke while you try to catch your breath
life ***** sure, but so do people
but some people are worth the heartbreak, or the sprint
or at least we hope so
unrequited love was reserved for the ones entwined with the stars, not me
how wrong i was

i wish i could drink or smoke or not feel pain
anything to not be here for this
but if i used those, would it only make it worse
this hurts
my heart is on fire
my head cloudy
and you, gone

With the unrelenting sorrow that
the world feels for me; I wonder if I'm suppose
to be in a trance or should I be electric?
The sounds of silence are too strong.
I wonder if this is reality or just
sorrow.