Caitlin

Caitlin Feb 2015

You say I'm not the boss of me yet,
That I'm only 16,
Yet you fail to realize that I became the boss of me when you stopped caring about me.
Neither of you really know me.
So I am the boss of me.

Caitlin Feb 2015

2/19/15

Its about 50 degrees outside today.
I was outside for an hour, waiting for my dad.
That was between 4 and 5.
Its 6:47, and I still haven't warmed up.
*I love my parents!!

This is true- my dad was at a meeting and didn't have his phone....

Caitlin Feb 2015

Parents

You wonder why I spend more time in the band room than in my house,
Its not that hard to figure out.

Caitlin Feb 2015

Titles

Tall,
Funny,
Fat,
Serious,
Moody,
Loner,
Popular,
Shy,
Afraid,
Virgin,
Player,
Geek,
Stoner,

Among others..
We give out titles like candy,
You are this,
She is,
He is..
Why? Why does our world revolve around titles?
Why cant I just be Caitlin Alexandra Moody?
Not Fat, Tall, ******, Spoiled, Perfect, Angel, Geek, Loner, Shy, Moody.
I am me.
That's it.

Caitlin Feb 2015

On the Topic Of Avoidance..

I'm avoiding you.
I'm perfectly aware of that.
I know exactly what you're going to say,
Why are you being so distant?
And you know exactly why.
I don't want to break down in front of you.
I don't want to seem weak in your eyes.
I want you to act first...
I need you to speak up.
And even though avoidance is a little low of me to do,
I can't breathe when you are near..
I can't think when we hug.
That how bad this feeling is of heartbrokenness..

Caitlin Feb 2015

The Last Text

The last text I sent you was on Friday.
You still haven't replied.
"I'm head over heels falling for you. That's the problem. And it hurts me both mentally and emotionally."
That was the text.
And when I saw you today,
I wanted to curl up in to a ball and die.
I'm avoiding you,
And it hurts.

Caitlin Feb 2015

Happy Valentines..

Happy Valentines Day,
To those who have Valentines,
And to those who don't.
To those married,
And those searching for love.
Those who love and fall apart,
And to those heart broken.
To those who'd rather be single,
To those afraid to love.
Happy Valentines Day