Feelings,
That's all I m zeroing in on now..
Feelings.

Loneliness
Fear
Pain
Unimportantance
Unworthy
Un­loved
Not noticed
Nothing

I wish I didn't feel like this,
I wish someone cared,
Someone loved me...

Feelings,
They are the one thing holding me back,
And the one thing keeping my sane.
Feelings....

Today is terrible.
Today was terrible.
Today was one of those days where nothing went right.
One of those days where I come home and think about cutting..
One of those days when I think of everything I've lost.
Today was terrible.

I was happy,
Then it all came crumbling down around me...

**** you.
You said you liked me,
But now you say you don't?
Not the way that I do.

**** you.
I finally put my heart on the line again,
And you crush it?
I thought you were better than that.

**** you.
I can't even look at you in the eyes anymore...
I feel like you broke my trust.

**** you.
**** you.
And I still like you,
Hell I even love you still.

**** you.
**** you.

I need to be strong.
Not for me,
But for those around me..

It started with me crying,
And me running to someone who would listen.
Then ended with you telling me that you like me...

I feel like for the first time in my life I am happy.
And I'm happy because of you.