"Old man, please listen to my tale
for someone needs to hear
The store of a girl with lies so dark
and oh so many fears.
Old man this is important
not just to me but to you.
I know you don't understand
but trust me you will soon.
You is started with broken homes,
which leads to single lives.
And judges and courts and child support,
well, you knows as well as I.
The woman, she had a temper,
and her fists and words did fly.
But she did her best with what she had,
Boy did she try.
To fill the shoes that were much to big,
when her feet were much too small.
Her frustration needed venting,
call me the punching wall."
"Well little girl where was your dad,"
he tenderly said to me.
"Well old man, I couldn't tell you,
but maybe you could tell me."
A puzzled look did grace his face
his features stiff and tall
So finally I asked the man
"Do you recognize this at all?"
And I held out a picture of a babe,
fresh from her mothers womb.
And a sign saying "Dear daddy,
please come home from war soon"
"The war has messed me up dear child,
for I am no one's dad."
I smiled as I said to him,
"I know sir, I understand.
But you can't blame this on the war
for we did meet again
Because I used to visit
until you left to follow another ***** hen."
A knowing look graced his face,
as he remembered me.
"Dear child I am sorry,
I should have remembered thee."
"Oh it's okay old man," I say,
"I just wanted you to know.
I have a husband now you see,
and a family of my own
My husband, he adores the kids,
of which there are two.
A little boy and girl, 7 and 9
neither of which know of you.
One day I'll tell them of a man
who had more important things to do
And then I'll point to my husband and say
' I didn't have a daddy like you'
And no amount of words,
will change what is our past.
I do not seek apologies,
I only needed to ask.
If when you go to bed at night,
you ever think of me.
Do you ever think what you've lost,
or did you just believe,
That we were better off alone
and that I'd be alright.
Or were you just to busy,
to think of me at night.
Did you remember,
if my eyes were brown or blue.
Did ever wonder,
If I looked like you."
"But little girl you didn't ask
any of those today
I can answer all sufficiently
and help you find your way."
"Old many I didn't need to ask,
to get the answers that I seek.
For when you did not recognize
your smile or your cheeks,
I knew that you were fine without me,
and your reasons for being gone,
Were that you were much to busy,
to bring a kid a long.
And I know that you don't miss me,
for when my husband's away,
He drops down to his knees at the door,
longing to hug his kids all day.
You did no such thing right here,
and now I know the truth.
You were much to selfish,
Who would need a man like you.
But before I leave, you should know,
that I was never okay.
I always blamed myself,
for why you didn't stay.
But thank you for the answers,
and maybe I'll sleep tonight.
Knowing it wasn't me, but you,
that was too weak to fight.
I'll take comfort in knowing it wasn't me,
that pushed your love away.
You had no spare love to give,
so I'm glad you didn't stay.
So I hope that you are happy,
and I hope the world is kind and true.
For I am finally okay,
knowing it was always you.