We were good friends once,
you and I .
Remember? All those
good times we had...

I looked you up today,
and I hurt for you.
Part of me wanted to go back
and save the parts you lost.

I can't help you anymore.
You ache and I plead.
Just get better, okay?
I can't stand feeling guilty.

You wished death upon me,
but I saw you wither away instead.
Eat, darling, and remember those
midnight coffee runs.

Take a trip to Starbucks,
I know your order still...
Just order my old usual,
and grace your lips with food.

You've destroyed the girl I
had once known well.
It's okay, just get better,
because I can't stand to see you ill.

Lacy palm trees held the sky,
And below that ocean flowed on by,
Tiny seashells left on the cool sand;
And all around Twilight settles on all the land.

Salty breezes filled the air,
And I loved it there,
Sitting on the shore all day;
Gazing at the ocean, a million miles away.

The breezes begun a symphony,
Some sweet and nostalgic melody,
Played to the setting sun;
Our orchestra to me it seemed had just begun.

I breathed in the tranquility,
Of the ocean's harmony,
I was watching the sunset;
Where dreams and time had met.

Seated there upon the cool sand,
Lemonade in hand,
I was breathing in the its beauty;
Of a daydream in nostalgic harmony.

I don't want this moment to fade,
When the hibiscus on the shore balled,
I want to stay there forever;
I don't want this to end...ever!

*~Marian~

"I didn't think you where that kind of girl,"
this is something you said,
and it cuts into my mind
and I realize I have no idea
what kind of girl
I am

when i have been gone
for a very long time
i hope you find me
in these blue lined pages-
and if you find me
i hope you could make room
in the simple parts
of your heart
to forgive me
and keep me safe