Living in contradictions
A slow death
I have killed myself

Trying to uphold expectations
My every breath
In full judgment of myself

Hiding my innermost thoughts
Moving around in stealth
Limiting myself

One step forward, Two steps backwards
Changing on every opinion
To suit everyone’s’ purpose
Killing my mind and self


Where am I ?!?
Lost in their definition of me
Now in search of direction
Surrounded by endless distance
Between who I am
And who I ought to be

Now I wait
For the turnabout of a new wind
To ******* unto the right path
Opening into vast opulence
Saving me from myself
And the endless death I died
Being someone I’m not


Or maybe I’ll cease time
And rewind?

I got lost in my feelings
Which was lost in a song
This song I sang to her
But, she was deaf to my words.

Arms stretched wide
My heart opened
Whispering my feelings in a song
With Lyrics not too long
But, her enclosed heart rejected my words

Choking on the cloudy evening breeze
Accompanied by a cough and a sneeze
Croaking out words but no song
My feelings now left unsung
But, my feet carries the weight of my words

An explosion of my emotions in reverse
Rejection! not once, not twice
Her ways of rejection now diverse
The more I give,
The more I don’t receive
She is cold and ungiving
She is this world.