Shadows caress like a silk prom dress
Memories of my youth scatter
Dancing along the lines of my past
I heard your voice yesterday on video for the first time in months
Four years ago we took to the sky
Diving
No idea if this was goodbye
Your last words uttered
Before we again touched ground
"I love you, Brook"
"Everyone else, I'll see you when I come down"
So crisp and clear
As if you were still here
I cried and cried until it hurt
Laughter pushing to insert
For though our end was laced with loss and pain
It is outweighed by the love we gained
This constant push and pull
Triggered by the smallest things
I will miss you every. single. day.
I could never let you fade
This gnawing ache I must let heal
Or I'll never move on
Never truly feel
I'm thankful, grateful we chose to get the video of our jump. Seeing you happy, healthy, alive...enough to break me open, soaking the comforter with my grief. You are worth it. Worth every single drop.