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Here I sit upon the grass
I look about, one moment’s pass
A fleeting peace that once takes over
Much like a kiss by one’s true lover

As I stand and look upon
The world around me under the sun
How life so simple, mediocrity
How men accept their life to be

Not I, for I cannot accept
The bland, the white, how I have wept
I do not wish to take a part
This little role dealt from the start

It is not me, I cannot be
Inconsequential, I cannot see
For I look more outside the line
And hope to gain that is not mine

Not yet, the chase I come alive
Imagination, free heart derive
Disdain at those I am surround
With pity to all who has not found

That life is not what comes to thee
But to seek that which will make you free
Of chains that leave you bound to rock
No movement, wonder I doth mock

I cannot love one who takes hold
Of only what not makes them bold
The plain is not what I achieve
No less if so, then I will grieve

Go forth, be gone, if you cannot share
The spark, adventure, compelling dare
I cannot exist to only be
Defined as mediocrity
It is quite strange
how an entire day,
which passed so beautifully,
can be ruined

by only one,
short,
conversation.
The ones with words like love, lust, or
Broken, dust, forgotten, and worst of all,
The ones with I’m sorry or
I miss you. That’s ******
Poetry. To read those words or
Feel those emotions and continue
To repeat them on thin lines of fabricated meanings
Because you have no way of escaping
Or are too much of a coward to admit them;
Writing for emotional advantages or
Disadvantages, to persuade others
Or yourself. That’s ****** poetry,
The clichés and hand holdings, dripping with
Redpinkblack ink, and I’s dotted with hearts.
Just to pretend that for a second in time
They made you feel
Poetry. But it’s not true. You
Did not feel those words, those words
That have hammered the ideals of
love.
Society has us falling for ******
Poetry. Beware of the useless
“jargon” created by ones “love”
For you. It’s all the same.
Now dear,
All I’mtrying to say is I want
You, but not your ****** poetry.
It wasnt enough for you
To say you hated me
You had to reach into my chest
Pick out the pieces of my heart
And let them bleed at my feet

It wasnt enough for you
To say you never loved me
You had to take the remnants of my sanity
Break it into tiny pieces
To the point you couldnt break it further

It wasnt enough for you
To walk out that door
Saying "*******" on the way out
Giving me the finger
And telling me to **** myself

It wasnt enough for you
Everytime I layed in puddles for you
Everytime I wrapped myself around your pinky
And pleased you better then any other man before me
But you wanted something I couldnt give

It wasnt enough for you
You just had to comeback
****** because you realized
You really did love me
You really found yourself missing my llove and affection

It wasnt enough for you
That you couldnt comprehend
That I got over you and moved on
So you had to pull out the pistol
The very one I gave you for your birthday

It wasnt enough for you
To watch my new girlfriend plead for her life
But blow her brains out all over the walls
Screaming and crying "Why did you do that?"
Knowing already the reason I moved on

It wasnt enough for you
That you decided to end your life
Right here in front of me
But not before you took a shot at me
Knowing I would die not long after you

You knew I still loved you
But you wouldnt listen to me
You just continued to wave that gun around
It wasnt enough for you
That you made sure our last moments were with each other
Its the world I go to
When all my love is rejected
When everything fails
When my best friends fail to guide me
Out of this dark place Im in
So I just grab a bottle
Drink till the pain is gone
Jumping straight into a drunken wastland

I called each of them six times
Trying to get this off my chest
But each and everyone of them rejected my call
So here I am
Bottle in hand
Trying to find the path
To a drunken wasteland
That I missed for so long

I attempted suicide nine times today
Failed each time
So Ill just drown my pain and sorrows
Till the world itself becomes nonexistant
This drunken wasteland is a peaceful place
Really there are no worries and no more pain
Just people who have ruined lives as well
People who truely understand what Im going through

I just wish when I leave this place
That I could breath
Stick my head in the clouds
And find peace for once
Dont I deserve some kind of heaven
In this **** hell
When everything is the same
I just run and hide in a drunken wasteland
A poem I wote a long time ago
My demon lays, awake within me
Silently it taps its claws
Slowly it scratches into my bones
I can feel its grin
My marrow rots
The smell of its breath lingers in the meat of my body
It boils the blood within my brain
Sending me into a frantic frenzy
I feed on my thoughts
The gobbler is my name
Memories run at the sight of my teeth
I now know nothing
Full and unsatisfied I crave more
I sit.
I wait.
The next catch sure to be great
Like a tiger I purr at the excitement
I spot your thoughts across the room
Tender and soft they sleep
Unaware
Unafraid
Vulnerable
“Just a taste” I murmur
“A nibble wont hurt”

I’m still hungry
Your carcass
Sprawled
Mauled
Your eyes are still open
But there is no life within them
The blank stare eases me
Soothes the scratches carved into my skin
My demon is out
Applauding me

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