I look up at you.
Tall,
Rugged,
Serene in your towering bliss.

You never look back.
You always look forward,
With nothing but the sun,
The moon,
The stars,
And sky to look down upon you.

The wind cannot blow you down.
The rain can only bounce off of your sides.
When I touch you,
You’re cold.

But I have seen you from the inside.
The warmth,
The colours,
Abundant in knowledge and powerful in your creative displays.

I know you.
But you will never know me.

They’re back
The Demons followed me here
I can feel their chilling breath on my neck
As if each goosebump were about to explode
With raging acid that could leak into my bones

Insomnia
Effortless attempts to sleep while
I’m being watched
Light seems to be the only protection
They hate light.
It makes them shiver
The warmth hinders their movements

Scattered thoughts leave me with no hope
My fingers shake at the idea
My fingers never shake.

I remember a time when demons didn’t exist
A time where sleep was accepted
Where thoughts were ignorant
They could be grinning in the corner
I wouldn’t have noticed

These songs keep me sane
The beating of the drums keeps my heart at pace
It hollows my mind from thoughts
Fills it with words of another

This cest pool is a dangerous game
Its focus, to annihilate all whom cross its path
Subliminal messages draw in its followers
Competing to claim the prize
Death .

I need to learn to
Stand up
Never back down
Even at the sound
Of a bomb hitting the ground
Creating a
Bang
All around
Flashing lights
Chilling sights
Long faces breaking
Falling apart
Electric sparks
Creating dark
Engulfing children
Demolishing schools
Screeching breaks
Of car pools
The green sky hails
A terrible storm
Out of the norm
Radiation scars
The lives it mars
Covering stars
Like a silhouette
Of a giant jet
It grumbles
Mumbles
Roars
And soars
Bellowing smoke
Like brewing a ****
The coughing stops
Bodies flop
To the ground
No sound
And just to think
I could have linked
This all to me
If I just stood up
For once in my days
Then I could have earned
An enormous price
Within this haze
The price of life
For a million people
And for myself
Id feel like an equal

Day turned to night
Night to day
The patience sways
In a gathering haze
Confusion strikes
With every step
With every blink
Time changes
My body quits
My mind rages
Shallow hints
Dare me to squint
Crunch up nose
And clench my fists
No one knows
Of the subtle blows
They take to my head
When I lay in my bed
I’m at peace alone
In the dark
In the cold
I’m at peace when you sleep
In the chilling solitude
Of the dreams you choose
To never know
Those are the dreams
I choose to forever show
The ones that skip
From place to place
The ones that stare
Into the contours of my face
Into the pupils of my eyes
That gaze and rise to the starry skies
That glisten with black
Shadowing the earth
In its blanket of death
And its arch shaped girth
Tightening its grasp
On the midnight mass
Of sleeping souls
In their darkened
Dreamed holes

Laying in space, a smile on your face
Plastered there, you would catch me stare
I smile lightly, blushing in the cheeks
You kept that smile and occasionally peeked

What if I had a secret to tell, one that presumably would not end well
A secret that could break that smile you so subtly sealed
A secret that would push me away from you because I was revealed

So sweetly I stare into your eyes
So genuinely mesmerized
Would you have a clue?
That I’ve done it without you?

With another man?
You might …

But it will be my secret, because you’re under my spell
A spell so cautiously conducted that you might as well
Just keep that smile there and remain unaware
As a deaf man being approached by a grizzly bear

He’ll never know unless he turns around
But chains prevent him from seeing the sound

Broken beasts lay withered and destroyed
Nipping the air as a last resort.

I stand above them in my perfect health
Holding the trigger that made them yelp.

My eyes sparkle at the bounty I killed
Their eyes, dead, unable to forgive.

Realization was a word unknown
Until realization came in the form of a crow.

Black all over
Talons extend.

To slice my eyes
It was a master plan.

Now blind, I can see
Yes, it sounds weird to me.

But that crow gave me pain,
Truth,
Wisdom.
All of which I would never sacrifice
For the gain and return of my lifelong eyesight.